Moi On|ine Diary

2005-04-05T21:53:00.000+08:00

M O V E D

http://www.stuck-upkid.blogspot.com

2005-03-29T20:06:00.000+08:00

sorry ppl... juz realised i had 2 broken links, tony's n kokoro's. changed e 2 hyperlinks already. its working now.

2005-03-28T03:23:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Your temper is quick to flair up today. Get at the root of the issue.**

1 month++ of Holiday!

still out of job. spent e past few hrs (or e whole of my wkends) being a couch potato infront of e tv. alrite.. quite satisfied with e programs. watched quite a few of e old chinese shows they were showing on channel 8 and channel U. suprise suprise. i think after e merger of e 2 tv stations, channel U will attract more viewers like me who r not so into taiwan's show like "pi li huo" or hk's "qing qing" which has thousands of episodes, suitable for ah ma(s) who have nothing better to do than to follow up on every of their episodes. Taiwan's dramas juz sucks la. only their variety programs can make it.

something from e programes i have watched:
The Tree("hai zi shu"): "People tend to be more aware of their surroundings when they are lonely." .... yeah... a time for some self-reflection?
"Hu Du Men": "Happines does not come in a plate, it has to be earned."

ya.. last nite was out having dinner with my family. all e way to orchard. i din enjoy any single bit of it. i knew i wun, but no matter wat, i had to have my dinner settled rite? i had no programs anyway. so wth.

but e saddening thing was tt i missed a call from ___. argh..shit! y din i..... 4get it. din bother to call me back either.

after dinner took a bus back alone. it was a long ride but it din matter, i had my mp3 player with me n i love taking long bus rides at nite, 'kan feng jing' n stuff. u will nv know how much i dread of going home everytime i have e chance to leave tt place.

while on the bus i tot of doing something stupid. since i still have my bus concession, having my hol, n out of job at e moment, having so much free time, i could jolly well get ard sg, go to places i have nv been to or has always wanted to visit. hmm...

Good Friday sucked too. i cocked up everything... again. was running from TJC tt day, and 4 e first time i felt something really bad, scared or watever.. was like afraid of losing something...... ...... i ran n i ran.... as hard, as fast as i could...

juz now was searching for info on Micheal Flatley's Lord of the Dance and i came across this website. BEST! do visit, u wun regret. http://virgil.no-ip.com/Features/b2evolution/blogs/blog_all.php

yeah.. hoping to go for that Lord of the Dance which will b performed next month, ard my birth date. a great way to celebrate my bday? watched another performance of this guy, and his group or wat, on Arts Central a few wks ago. "Riverdance" or "Feet of Flames". watever it was, very entertaining and it took my breath away. it was superb! tap dance with catchy background music. WOW!... no.. DOUBLE WOW!!!

ok.. back to the WEBSITE. i dunno where these ppl come from but cfm sg..hehe, they are really gd at blogging. as in the contents and stuff are really interesting, the website itself. seems like their lives r kinda happening too. woo... i muz comment that they provide really gd reviews(for movies, music, eateries++++), quotes, games for killing time and sharing stuffs....some r really enlightening. they also included some photos which seemed professionally taken(eh.. think 1 of them is kinda experienced in photography)... nice. wa.. i would like to to take up tt too.

websites tt are worthy of ur visits:
Mamma-Mia: http://www.mamma-mia.com
reminds me of the play. BEST TOO! i wanna get e music track album!!!!
Tony Leong: http://www.tonyleung.org
He's THE MAN! who cares he has split personality, slips easily into depression or wat, he acts well and has gd character. u know..some part of me kinda resembles him. he is my perfect man!
Koroko: http://www.kokoro.com.tw
remember those taiwan love stories in flash? "zai xing" ++... used to get the links from emails... now here it is.
TV ad: http://www.cc.nctu.edu.tw/~u9014102/BBDB_08646_0028797W.MPG
this is a damn cute 1. its not a link to a website but there'll b a pop up menu which will prompt u to dl or open it.
I Love IT!: http://www.pconline.com.cn/pcedu/carton/mtv/0407/flash/29IloveIT.swf
wow.. enthu sia... damn cute too.

Sections u'll like to look out for when u visit e website:

photography (i like e "Good photo, bad photo" post)
peeping tom
super boh liao stuff (haha.. ya really bo liao. but have things 4 u to laugh about)

came across these things they say too:

" I feel so distant these days... It's like it doesn't matter whether you are there or not, and no one realises."

...if u know wat it means. tt was wat i have been trying to say...

"Our brains can store so many things, that actually is quite impossible to forget anything that has taken place in out lives."

amazing huh.... i wonder those people who have appeared in my live b4, those i would think of once in a while, like m i sill in their memories or have any impression at all?

"When you fall out with a group, because you feel their way of doing things contradict with your own values and views, you feel the best way is to leave the group. But when you leave, the people who bad mouth you won't stop bad mouthing you... and they prefer to garner more support for their case by saying bad things about you. It's a harsh reality of life... but politics exist the moment friendships turn sour.
And when you leave a group... you wonder if you've got the courage to trust in a new group again. After all, you've been hurt quite bad by the previous unpleasant experience. For her at least, it must have been a hard time of self-reflection. I used to feel this way once last time... and I learnt not to expect too much of friends... because expectation is the cause of much disappointment.
In any case I also learnt that it's better to have a group to play volleyball with, than to have no group at all. In fact it's a miserable feeling... inside, you are dying to play, yet there is no one who would play with you. I used to spend weeks and months in Sentosa watching people play volley... everyone seems to have a group they belong to, and it's hard not to feel left out."

thats how i think too sometimes. n yeah.. it feels really bad when u need, but dun, have khakis to carry out the activities u have been wanting to get involved in.

=X opps. i copy cat.

ok.. working on my new blog template...soon. dun think will b designing 1 myself coz my pc a bit cock up now. will b getting these links organized once i have moved.

bedtime. dun think i need "sleeping pills" tonite coz think its late enuff...

here's e lyrics of another great song i have found from e webby. do have e mp3 but din really notice it until now, tt i have seen e lyrics. nice.

Lost Without You
By Delta Goodrem

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out

I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you've gone I admit that I was wrong

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye
don't know what I'd do ...I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

How my ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind

Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no I'm not too proud to say

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye
don't know what I'd do ...I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you
If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face
Oh

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without youI keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

2005-03-24T11:07:00.000+08:00

Taurus: You will isolate yourself unless you are willing to share yourself.**

"My Happy Ending"

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this overIt's not like we're dead

Was it something I did?

Was it something You said?

Don't leave me hanging

In a city so dead

Held up so high On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends

I know what they say

They tell you I'm difficult

But so are they

But they don't know me

Do they even know you?

All the things you hide from me

All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

[Chorus]

It's nice to know that you were there

Thanks for acting like you cared

And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

And letting me know we were done

[Chorus x2]

[x2]

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

2005-03-21T19:35:00.000+08:00

Taurus: This is not a day for emotional outpouring. It's a day for action.**

nah.. i had enuff of all e action le.. kinda tired.... yeah.. now i understand being 'zhu dong' is a v tiring thing to do. but i think mine is e worst.

e other day was thinking..hey! Being rejected is not the end of the world afterall. it helps a person get on with life and move on! coz u dun have to think and worry about this and tt... all e "wat-ifs" and blah... yup.. no regrets.

for me... i din even felt a single pinch when i tot i was being rejected. still... think i should have juz left it as it is.. coz even though it wasnt, at this moment, it feels no difference to me.

QUOTE: we all are constantly looking for some1 perfect to b our the other half. but y do we not ask ourselves y we are not perfect too?
( something like tt la..from 'ban ge yuan fen' channel 8 show)

MP3 recommendations:

Almost Here - by Delta Goodrem
Fly - Hilary Duff
Pieces - sum41
Since You've Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson
Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson
Single - Natasha Bedingfield
Over and Over - Nelly
La La - Ashlee Simpson
My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne
tong hua - guang liang
xuang xi dong wu - tanya
ai feng le? or wat... - Penny dai pei ni
shao nian - guang liang

sometimes i really 'pei fu' them for writing such nice songs... especially e chi ones.. always have a story in them...

something fun to share:
look at e lengths of ur fingers.
Palmists says:

- the index finger itself is a reflection of ego and self-worth. a longer index finger, especially one longer than the ring finger and as long as the middle finger, is a sign of leadership. (the person is dominant or has control of power)

- the index finger is shorter than the ring finger, means the person is weak, with low self-worth. But coz the ring finger is associated with creativity, that also means that the person is likely to be more artistic and able to appreciate beauty.

look at the headline, the middle line that runs across the palm.

- if it is a clear, sharp, deep line, it means he is even-tempered.

- if it tends to have a lot of irregularities like other lines crossing it, it may mean that you can be hot tempered.

to me they kinda make sense and r quite accurate.

i have my index finger shorter than the ring finger. ok.. weak.. but i m artistic! yeah... n i love to appreciate beautiful things! sad that beautiful things dun last long. eg. e sunset...? (reminds me of Before Sunset and Before Sunrise the movies.haha. the conversations r really interesting and they kind relate to us in our daily lives.. whether its about love or family. BEST! ) hmm... if i do really sucky 4 my exams, i might juz go get a design course instead! sucks man.

i dun think i have tt deep, sharp line on my palm. but i m very sure i m a hot tempered person.. hehe...

though i dun believe in gods...at all... i have no idea y i m still so superstitious.. believing these stuffs.. horoscopes... =P its amazing how they can appear to b so true at times..

2005-03-16T14:34:00.000+08:00

its suppose to b study wk but i m already in e hol mood. its always e case when i dun have to go to sch.

have been thinking about alot of stuffs rather than studies... about going on a hol during e 2months break, prob with finding a pt job... +++

i have to get out of this house once in awhile to keep my mind off these stuffs. wo xu yao hu xi xin sian kong qi...

still feeling guilty about e other nite when i asked sam out 4 a nite jog. i was like 45mins late coz i accompanied my fren 4 dinner at tm. really sorry tt i din bother to even sms to inform him i would b late. was thinking i would b meeting him near his blk anyway. n tot he knew i m always e late queen. i m always taking things 4 granted. mayb its true tt i m a person who is not caring enuff...

when i saw him in his slippers, i knew e nite run was off. not so sure whether he cried or something b4 tt.. but it seemed as if he did. was thinking wat happened.. family prob or wat.. when i asked he juz said he tot i wun b going anymore and he fell aslp while waiting. opps. i screwed up lor.. moreover i was e 1 who asked him out. we juz had a short kopi break den i left le since his neighbour was there too. den went 4 e nite jog alone near expo. or-bi gd!

was thinking of getting back together again, hint hint a bit by asking him out since i was e 1 who asked 4 e break anyway. but mayb 'wo zhi zhuo duo qing' ba... i think too much when he complained bout his stuffs to me e other time. coz i hate to waste this kind of time, when both of us r feeling e same way. so tot mayb i should act first.. but mayb it was about his ex ba.. not me. ya.. still like him in a way. but whenever i think about e pic n e compare part i juz feel mad again.

now i understand this part when u like some1, u dun mind giving him/her up to e other person when tts wat makes him/her happy. i used to think its stupid, trying to act noble only. but ya.. no pt too rite...holding on to something like tt... e same goes as frens. it hurts to c some changing themselves while going after some stuffs in life. but if tts wat they want and makes them happy.. they can juz go ahead.

still... i wish him luck like how i wished 4 cl n his gf. no faking k. if he really still like her better go 4 it. 'xing fu shi yao zi ji qu zheng qu de'. i always have this kind of mindset tt guys should b e 1 to initiate and take action first. so....

well.. i dun mind but guess it will a bit difficult to remain as frens ba. juz let time pass n we will know.. mayb it will b e best way to end it juz here. no more 'po po ma ma' le...

STUDY TIME!!! ........*zoOM*

2005-03-15T23:44:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Make sure you have enough leisure time in your day - every day.**

last wk have been staying till really late in sch to rush for my projects. way past dinner time. was a hectic wk man. thank god its all over now. n now i m juz so slack. bleah.

study wk this wk but i havent started 1 tiny bit. seriously no mood. argh.. i m gonna regret it next time.. better start on 1 of my subjects later.

completed quite a few tasks today. washed all my clothes. packed my desk a little. n did some housework! couldnt stand e floor being so dirty any longer so juz picked up e broom n swept e floor.

these few days have been going for nite run. hopefully this is not 'san fen chong re du' again..

SAT:
Taurus: Laying low won't move things forward as fast as you might want.**

worked full day today, in my heels. god. u dunno how my feet hurts man. was in my heels e whole of yesterdsay too. yeah.. its my last day of work. gotta look 4 another 1 soon since my 2months of hol is coming. aww.. dun get to c e guy from P.O.A le. haha.. as if i care. dunno him anyway. he juz have a sharp face feature tt i find it unique. mayb he is mix, eurasian? a model kind of material. really.

n dunno its suay or wat. happened to c cl n his gf shopping at e dept store, directly in front of me! this is e 2nd time i saw him since e last time we met or toked. small world indeed. e other time we juz passed each other on e escalator at City Hall mrt station, n i could c tt he was trying hard for me not to notice him. nah..i juz let it b... no need to greet each other. still.. i wish him luck with his gf.. they really look gd together n could tell tt they r happy being together too. really happy 4 them =) seriously.. no hard feelings...

FRI:
Taurus: Join with the sentimental attitude of the day. Express your feelings.**

practically din attend sch today. juz stayed in e lec hall for less than 10mins of maths lec n i walked out. anyway, i could say tt there were not more than 15 students present. e relief teacher juz sucks at teaching, he was like "students, wat do u like me to go thru with u? if u have no questions i have nuting to go thru with u already. mayb we do e graphs? r u all prepared? if u r not prepared there is no pt for me to go thru with u too." like wat kind of teacher does tt? seriously a waste of time to attend his lessons. y do our teacher always have to get a relief when e exams r coming, wrong timing lor.

nvm. attended e lec coz i needed to go sch to do something too. n shit! i 4got i as suppose to have a maths class test during e maths tut at 4pm. mg...coz i was thinking it was no pt going since he juz gonna let us copy e ans 4 e tut questions when behind e book has e ans too. hai.. so i requested to work earlier.

after sch met my dad at pw 4 lunch. past few wks have been making an effort to have meals with him. i m begining to realise there is a need for me to spend more time with him. i eng eng anyway...

ya.. saw soffie? on e bus to pw n we chatted about kc stuff. "scandals" as she calls it.. haha.. 1 particular thing i muz agree with her. both of us (or so do e rest of our ex classmates or '03 sec4 batch) think its kinda ironic tt a trainee teacher is (still) going out with 1 of our ex classmates. i m told tt he is at least more than 26yr old. ok.. age may not b a big prob, but do u know where they met? it was like during 1 of our exclassmates' death anniversary at her house!!! if tts not bad enuff, b4 tt girl died she was together with him ok... like.. isnt it some kind of betrayal? wat kind of fren.. wat kind of guy does tt? soffie was saying about him asking 4 sex from e dead girl b4 but din want to. gd 4 her! but about this current girl of his, i wun b suprised if he's after tt as well. into young girls huh... but whether this sex part is true or juz rumours.. i dun approve him of going out with his own students, AT ALL. to me.. its not a moral thing to do. how could MOE approve this kind of person to teach in our schs? its too dangerous to have such predator ard...

later headed to work after a fringe-cut at victoria's (sis fren) mum's shop. saw his bro 4 e first time. they do look alike in some ways...

after work its DEVILS TIME! back to e club i used to frequent after like how many months... no Q + free entry. all thanks to ai ling's fren who knows e bouncers so well. drinks r all on e guys too. haha. when i go with ai ling, usually she has everything planned le. drinks 'bao'. transport 'bao'. haha. still enjoy e live band. love them. e usual guys on stage. great songs they sing. managed to squeeze rite infront of e stage, n at 1 point of time, e pretty girl(1 of e performers) juz lifted my chin n whispered in my ear "we love u" n juz winked at me. hmm.. i really had no idea y she did tt. LOL. pai seh to look at her sia. when they were singing this song "Heya"... having this wriggling part, she reached out her hand for me n i juz did e same too. =) so sweet. Numb... e reason.. lets get retarted!!! blah.. really great songs. during "e reason" there was this girl 1 of them picked to go up on stage to join e guy in his song was really 'chio'. 'ang mo' type. in her sunglasses, she looked really cool. model material. e guy juz sang e song to her n she danced along. haha. every1 was like "ooohhh..." =O~ even e girls. me. haha. another song they invited e girls infront to go up stage to dance. nah.. i din have e courage. so.. yeah... juz cheered e others on.

saw 'an zheng xi' there, in a cap. e channel 8 9pm show actor.. wat is his real name? 4get it. with another mediacorp guy. he was like quite popular huh.. with e girls? hmm...

after tt we left for 2hrs of ktv session at cine with 1 of her guy frens(ex actually, seemed like he is trying to woo her back. ya i extra la when they were singing duet.... BLEAH =P). ordered some finger food. eh...wasnt really tt fantastic ={ e bill after totalling up was like $60 plus... not worth sia, 2hrs of singing only. remind me of e other time at party world. ex sia. nv m i going back there. i still prefer kbox..e student package.. hehe..

den later home sweet home le lo.

2005-03-06T17:20:00.000+08:00

i juz dun understand y do i have a FUCKED UP FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! basically all e FUCKED UP PPL ARD ME!

do u know wat drives ppl to do mad things? i do. i so much understand how they were feeling.

i so much wanna scream at them now 4 making my life fucked up as theirs! cant wait to move out of this place! i will anyway... but not tt soon. waiting 4 my dad to pack his whole house 4 me to move in. hai...

seriously, next time dun expect me to repay them 4 looking after me. coz they din. not 1 tiny bit. they juz make my life miserable. i would have been better off living alone outside. yeah... ungrateful brat.. rude... watever. y should i b e nice 1 when all i get is these stupid shits in return? "hao ren you hao bao" - its so not true. it does PAY to b nice.

wo jui shen ai de ren.. shang wo que shi jui shen... n tts so sad.

sometimes its not about wanting to win in a fight tt lead me to tear. its when they say hurtful and damn sacarstic things tt make me feel so angry. n tts e last thing i need.... from my own family. they arent being supportive or anything lor.. they juz make me feel stressed out

2005-03-05T13:40:00.000+08:00

- Ji mo de ji jie -

every1 seems to b out of love...

-off to work-

2005-03-01T17:51:00.000+08:00

"Dao Dai" is a V NICE SONG! yeah.. it's e song u r now listening to.
this is e the other only song of Jolin i would sing besides 'ni hai ai wo ma' in KTV. though i m not really into her or her songs, still i love this alot! =D bth le...

oo ohh... my OOPG is due this fri but i m still stuck with e driver class n another class. hai.. hack! if i cant finish on time i juz gotta do documentation on e parts tt i failed to do n hand it in. =(

next wk is NMM, IISO n DCNK. powerpoints to do.. blah....*glup... n PRESENTATIONS! ={ i hate tt. hai.. dun every1 juz love ppl who r confident? for IISO juz let me face n tok to e poor, old teacher ba... who knows who will b listening to me sia.. i will b uttering rubbish anyway. laugh at me ba. HA HA HA! -.-

toking bout tt IISO teacher. he is really a damn poor chap. look so helpless n everything.. last thurs only me n another girl turned up 4 his lecture. (yeah... 2 pathetic loners) but wait! not tt bad.. another guy n a girl joined us, so tt made it 4 persons n tt 1 teacher in tt lec hall, pathetic huh? seriously pity him man. but i gotta 'pei fu' him too coz even though this happened, he still stayed on n cont teaching. patience man... coz if me i would have juz QUIT! watever 4 when u dun get respected rite? tt day when i walked in, he said this after c-ing my suprised look when i juz saw him n tt girl in e lec hall: "i will still teach even if there's only 1 student present". WOOHOO!!! *clap clap clap*

really bth my class guys. e other time kept toking loudly n stuff, tt he had to walk up e lec hall n tick them off. not successful though even after a second attempt. during our tut same thing happened. suggested them to get out of e rm but still... really bth... cant they juz give him some respect? so old already too.. n he is a teacher afterall. c him ez to bully only... cant stand them acting like gangster sia.. e way they tok n stuff. like wat r they trying to show? act 'seh'? only..-.- well.. i m not impressed by tt. hai... 'wei nan' him 4 wat sia? they can go to hell la. insensitive creatures, not fit to b respected. mayb i can try to stand up 4 him e next time? =}

there's so many shoes i wanna buy! juz bought a "ballet" 1..sweet. n a simple flip flop with low heels. n i think it's not low enuff.so.. gotta get another FLAT 1. -.- n left a shoe. wanna get e LA gear at OG orchard(old 1) but dun have my size =(. so gotta go dwn to chinatown de. look ard there n beach rd ba.. miss those shopping sprees sia. feels really gd carrying big paperbags in ur hand man. .. n going ard hunting for ur stuff. bought a skirt from Kelp too. no staff discount though coz it was already on sale. $19.90. cheap for this kind of quality man. tempted to get other clothes from there too but e prices r juz a little steep for me. ard $30plus and above. gosh.

sometimes its really nice to receive encouragements from ppl... really keeps 1 going..... n i m thankful for tt even though it din help much... =)

2005-02-20T12:14:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Pick an object that represents your future and share it with others.**

had a weird dream last nite

went to watch a movie with ------ . blah blah blah... n when we left, said something tt i have been waiting to hear.

so.. is this gonna happen in real life? or is it tt i wanted it so badly, it can only happen in my dreams which seemed equally real ?

thinking of all those stuffs, i feel tt i m, n was _______ in silence.... coz "u" dun understand me... n tt lets me dwn =(

not gd, its bad.. boo...hoo hoo?

juz reminds me.. JOKE OF E DAY:

Q: y din u take tt pic of u n ur ex in ur wallet out?

ANS : coz of laziness n it leaves a print there.

DEH! WRONG ANS! LAME! i wonder wat would b e ans of other ppl?

i wouldnt have this prob coz i would already have taken it out. y would i still wanna c e person who have hurt me when it juz reminds me of tt jerk? unless i m still crazy about him....(which most of e time wun b e case. coz even if i still like him, there will still b hatred within me)

during e chi new yr channel 8 showed e making of S.H.E's mtv, e mtv of "wo ai ni" nv fails to touch me (or juz by listening to e song alone, though i din really listen to e lyrics carefully.. =X but..), so "lomantic"... those who have watched it will know wat i mean...

2005-02-16T00:00:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Stick with the plan, yet be open to modifications along the way.**

Quote of e day: "fang shou, bu shi cheng ren zhi ji shi bai. fang shou, zhi shi gei zhi ji ji hui zhao yi ge gen mei hao de lu zou".

suppose to start on my DCNK project now, which is due later at 8.30am, but i m concentrating on something else. (ya n i still have prob with my IISO. wth do i do 4 logistics?!!)

listening to 93.3fm 'er san ling ling(2300) ji mo you ren pei' de i.o.i.o. todays topic is: 'chi hui tou cao'. 'hao ma bu chi hui tou cao ma?'

some ppl called in to share their stories n so far those 'chi hui tou cao' de mei yuo hao jie guo. like Ling Zhi said: "if e prob(cause of e break) is not solved, even if u patch back, it wun last long because e prob is still there." strongly agree. well, how true do u think tt is?

'chi hui tou cao' ppl r those who hope for another chance n tt things would get better, or 'fang bu xia de ren'. 'bu chi hui tou cao' ppl r those who r afraid of getting hurt again. like wat they always say: "Once bitten, twice shy."

nvm if it's juz about giving another chance, wat about e 2nd? or even 3rd? e tot of having to patch n mayb break again, makes me sian only. think it would b damn tiring. n e kind of trust u had in tt person will no longer b there. in other words, no security.

n will you b with some1 who is constantly beside u, but is thinking of another person? i cant take tt. i would rather give it up.

wat is "Love" anyway? can any1 actually explain it? i doubt so. not even me. some ppl keep using this phrase, "i love u". but is it because u "Love" each other, tt u 2 r together or is it only 'yi lai'? we r looking 4 company? hmm.. 'yi lai'=u need tt person to share ur tots,feelings n stuffs=Love? coz they always ask who is e first person u think of when u wanna share ur happiness or problems with, then tt is e 1. ya.. like watever 4 do we care rite? life is short so wth, juz Love la! 'gan ai gan hen'.

but i guess tts wat love is all about, n how it comes about. it all starts with pure friendship, tt u 2 realise u need each other n decide to stay together 4 gd.

so... is it better to b with some 1 tt likes u more than u like him/her or e other way round? i dun think it is ez to find both of e same equal "amt" because diff ppl diff expectations/requirements. some may think its "too much" or "suffocating", while others think tt e sacrifice made is too little. it will nv b equal. depends on e diff ppl's point of view. so.. tts y we guys n girls always think tt 'hao nu ren, hao nan ren' extinct le, even though there r so many ppl ard us. blame it on e diff characters tt we ppl have ba..which others may detest ...

so.. i choose no.1: better to b with some1 tt loves u more than u love him/her. coz 'ai yi ge ren hao nan' and 'bei ai shi xing fu, ai ren shi tong ku.'

i cant help being a pessimist/sadist. blame it on my childhood or watever things i can blame on, for this kind of character tt is already in me.

though vday is already over, i juz dun understand y e hell do we have such a special day for us to celebrate love with our e other half? or frens, for those who r single? is it necessary? is it tt we ONLY treat them extra special on this day?

they juz wanna 'xuan yao' to those single men n women out there la. with bouquets of roses blah...

mayb i m juz jealous coz i m single. most prob i would think differently n would b acting e same as them if i m attached. =P

still...... i dun mind being single at all, i still can b happy. loving it!

2005-02-15T14:23:00.000+08:00

Taurus: You'll have to make tough choices. You can't please everyone.**

i m stuck with so many projects now. DCNK, IISO, NMM, Maths n UIR class test, all on THURS!!! except e DCNK which is due tomolo morning, 8.30am! gotta burn midnite oil again. e worse is tt i dunno how to start. -.- i dun mind e NMM but e rest.. argh...watever. i m so damn sure i will repeat DCNK next sem. or mayb even IISO. bleah.

tonite gotta go jogging le... =}

MON:
Taurus: A loved one says one thing but actually feels something else.** <-- something tt is better?...or WORSE? =} V DAY!!!!! like its gotta do with me.... -.- anyway.. 'yuan you qing ren chong cheng juan shu'... =)

new yr, christmas, v day..... is like a normal day for me, juz tt it is a day tt i dun have to go to sch! yeah!

went to sch anyway. after sch went tm to meet my sis n her frens 4 dinner. every restaurants were packed, with long Qs outside. heng heng my sis knows some1 from Billy Bombers so we sort of cut Q... hehe. yeah... after we sat dwn we then realised they only serve set meals on this day. no choice. we only had 4 set meals to choose from.

guess wat r e novelties tt come together with out set meals? we each get a... 1.chuppa chups lollipop 2.colourful ang pow packet 3.condom made in USA! lol. b4 we left, my sis actually asked e supervisor whether it is usable or something since she knows her. n she said tt isnt. hmm.. i was like thinking y dun they give us e "REAL" thing rather than u know.. useless 1s... juz in case SOME PPL need it. lol. kidding la. promote safe sex ma.. but eh... 4 married couples pls!!! really something different man....

after dinner Lennon joined us after her work. (poor thing.. she works from 11-8. e timing a bit e 'bu san bu si' leh..) n she got lost while looking 4 e Billy Bombers. she kena confused by e 2 shopping centres, tm n cs. haha.. like should have called us lor.. my sis also 1 of a kind.

we went to 2 of them de house after tt n watched Desperate Housewifes. drank burburn? coke too coz e couple had whiskey n coke in their house. of coz got ang pow from them.. hehe... after e show we left e place le. poor Lennon had to go go all e way back to Tanjong Pagar. e couple invited them (n me) again on fri to go there c vcd n play cards. so sweet.

this couple had been together like since their sec. sch sia... married 4 quite a few yrs le with a son. though e last time i saw either of them they seemed to b drawing apart, now when i see them tok again they look so cute! haha. not tt they acted cute la.. but their normal conversation juz seems cute to me. sharing stuffs together.. n the guy most of e time would break some jokes to make e girl laugh. so sweet! ah... a sweet looking girl n a so-so kinda guy... bleah

c-ing tt lennon n sis r so close, i cant help feeling happy (n jealous? =X) 4 them. my sis juz told me if she doesnt get married, they should b spending their life being single together. n i juz added: "i shall join u 2!" =D coz i dun wanna b all alone by myself.. n lennon is sooo irrisistable... such a sweetie!

2005-02-09T22:59:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Be sure you have a grand vision that you can work toward.**

i hate CNY. i have gotten so sick of it. remember those kind of performances we used to have in pri n sec sch? thank god we dun have it in poly now..

all alone at home now with my tentant watching tv, snacking.... dunno wat kind of programs e tv is showing, a bit sad sad de. i need comedy man. though they did show 'wo jia you ge he jun shi?', i think i laughed till too fake le. i m so damn full now but i juz cant stop stuffing food into my mouth. i m bored! i so much wanna go c a movie tonite but i m so damn lazy to leave my house. if go town watch nvm, at least after tt can go dwn to bar to drink, but i m so damn LAZY to travel all e way there! =( like wth.. tomolo somehow gotta go get my shoe for my work on fri. hopefully i will b going 4 my dance class this sun.. =) looking 4ward to it. it's a muz to watch Contsantine! havent watched it but i bet it's a gd movie. n mayb "i do i do"?

my sis have gone to my aunt's house together with my e other 2 aunts. e rest of e family members will b there too. i juz dun like joining this kind of family gatherings, coz i dun even tok to my cousins! not tt i dun wanna give them face, its juz tt there's no point wasting my time sitting there, feeling uncomfortable. weird me rite? i anti-social la....low EQ...i dun deny tt.

tts how i m...n i know its really bad. i dislike this side of me too. guess i will have to try to mix ard more, if not i will.. hai....

next Mon is valentines day le. makes me sian only.

heard of e song 'ai qing bu neng zuo bi jiao'? yeah.. i believe in tt. i need some1 who appriciates me 4 who i m, n not compare me with some other ppl. 'ta you de wo mei you, wo you de ta ke neng ye mei you'....

u should b contented tt i treated u better le lo. poor les, i was so cold towards him. ah.. 'wo shi yi ge mu tou ren' ah.. watever it is.. i have learnt a few stuffs from these lessons le. they shall help me to improve more of myself. =)

TUE:
Taurus: Getting angry with people will only fuel their anger toward you.** <-- =X sorry, i cant help myself..

after sch went TM awhile with sis n her fren to exchange my top to a size smaller. it's an orangy kind of translucent shirt from mango. nice. it's even cheaper than e Giodarno 1 i wanted to buy ok. my sis bought it 4 me 4 new yr. din even have to open my mouth n she auto 1, so sweet. hehe. yesterday she bought a shirt about e same colour as mine from 77th st too, like 'qing lu zhuang' ah.. hehe... tomolo i muz wear it out!

2005-02-06T14:10:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Tonight is the time to initiate a serious talk with someone you love.**

Goal 4 now: study hard n excel in my java! gotta get into a university man...

Rising Sign is in 17 Degrees Cancer
Very sensitive by nature, you prefer to be in your own familiar surroundings. Cautious and conservative, you make changes in your life only very slowly, if at all. You do not open up easily to strangers. Friendships are made for life, however -- once given, your trust is forever. Your mother, your home as a child and your early family life in general are very important to you. You are also very sentimental. When you feel self- confident, you are gentle, giving and protective of the needs of others. But when you feel insecure or threatened, you become overly sensitive to criticism, shy, withdrawn and moody. You have a strong need for security -- in the sense that you are being loved, nourished and protected.

Sun is in 06 Degrees Taurus.
You are known for being patient, slow moving and careful -- you love to prolong and savor enjoyable times. You appreciate and need comfort, ease and warm surroundings. Be careful of a tendency to become placid and self-satisfied and to overeat (especially sweets). You require strenuous situations in order to grow and mature properly, even though you try to avoid them. Affectionate, even-tempered and slow to anger -- when you do become emotionally upset, you are also slow to forgive and time must pass before your calm returns. You demand real results from any situation -- abstractions are very difficult for you to comprehend. Very artistic, your hands love to mold and shape things. You portray an earthy, physical sexiness that others find quite seductive.

Moon is in 25 Degrees Aries.
High-spirited and courageous, you are a fighter when your emotions are aroused.

2005-02-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Focus on the friendship aspect of your romantic relationship.**

damn tired of updating here again. guess i will turn to those journal books i used to write in. mayb update here when i m free or have some things to made known to some ppl, hoping they would get to read it n let them have a bit of an idea of my thoughs n feelings.

[Back to my old state]

juz when i begin to think tt life can b real beautiful, my life is back to a messy state. it nv stops. it seems like a cycle to me.

i nv have a (girl-)fren to call my own. not tt i need to 'OWN' tt person, like "stay away from her, she's mine", no.

i need no fren who has a great fashion sense, who toks well, who is popular, who is blessed with gd looks blah... coz to me, they r a bunch of FAKE assholes desperate to b noticed. (....though there r v few exceptions.) i wun give a damn man! i juz need some1 who will readily b there 4 me to pour out my stuff to, whom i can trust blah..

DAMN those attention seekers. DAMN those who speak with an accent which ppl can obviously tell it's not natural, AT ALL. DAMN those who isnt sensitive to e feelings of others. DAMN those who had ACTED tt they cared or watever shit n tot they had faked it through, not successful to me though. DAMN those who tried to lie with their LAME excuses which i straight away could c through them.(it's either i watched too much of tv or its them, coz it seemed as if i had heard them from some of those tv programs.hmm..) DAMN those 2-faced FAKERS!!!!

to those i once called "frens". i had always been there for them when they needed some1 to hear them out, where were they all we i needed help? i nv would call them as "frens", i would use "acquaintance" instead. thanks anyway, for sharing some wonderful time( n sometimes giving me a slap in e face, telling me to wake up).yeah..."thanks alot!" i m already back to reality...

hate those bunch of insensitive creatures to e core. nv realise e things they say or do could hurt a person badly. ok.. it's not me, but when i heard them saying tt of some1 else, i m juz thinking wth, cant they juz put themselves into e shoe of others? or tt person whom they had victimised? SENSITIVE LA SENSITIVE!

y suddenly all of these cursing? coz i m quite pissed by some ppl.. yeah.. n my sch juz sucks now. nv tot tt my love 4 poly life is now gone already, fast huh. tt was when i HAD some frens. b4 some1 had came along. now its only e first yr n i already dread of going to sch.

had this feeling tt u were e 1 putting everything (every1) together n now u r e extra 1? i do. i had pulled some1 who seemed alone into my "group" n now i become e 1 who is an "outcast". tried to blend in until i m too tired to do so. tt explains y my mood was on n off when i was with 2 of them. really, i did try. to me it seemed as if she had deliberately tried to "steal" from me. mayb i sound too possessive or jealous, but if u know e things she did, which no1 else had seemed to notice, u would think tt way too. well.. sometimes u c things differently when u are not part of it. i dun wish to eleborate here but when i think of it it makes me mad. not tt i wanna b excluded, but had they tried to include me? did they even feel/know tt i wasnt with them at diff points of time? (smell something sour? mayb..) i wouldnt have acted this way if they did. dun think they even noticed. my existence n non-existence made no diff. now i juz dunno how to join in theirs n e other girls conversation coz there is like a "communication break down?" now... tt person sucks! so full of herself. tried to accept her but she drove me to this. tt bitch juz kept showing ignorance to me, acting dumb or deaf at times which only i know it myself, u ppl (those puzzled by y i m acting this way) will nv know or understand those feelings i m experiencing rite now. not even THEY realised it. so be it.. she have done it. congrats!

though i "heard" tt they sounded real sincere about this friendship, which started at e begining of e sch yr, i din felt tt way coz nuting was done, no effort was put. guess they should bitching about me now. ..."loner", "loser"(which i am definitely not), "anti-social" .. like i care.. so.. yeah.. sick of it... IT'S E END. i may look poor thing but it's my business, i know wat i want. i need no frens like them n i wun juz stick with them coz being alone looks, so called "pathetic" by some ppl, which i dun agree. i actually get more things done w/o them, w/o wasting my breaks away. so? wise choice? most probably...

mayb i m too kind to them tt they take me 4 granted. always trying to accomodate others, wanting every1 to b happy, but i think it made me look "weak". those ppl r wrong if they think so. i do have a mind of my own, but its only tt i m not gd at "leading" as e other person. i hate to give suggestions n ended up doing it my way, it would make me think tt they r trying to accomodate me, i wun feel gd at all.

me, as a gf, mayb i had done it e wrong way too. "pity" them of something too much which made me mayb a little diff from some other girls, tts y they take advantage of me(eh.. not tt kind of "advantage", think straight pls, i am 'street smart' too u know).i m no pushover k. ok... gotta make sure they make me feel like a princess le.. send me home, pay on our dates blah.. who cares whether its troublesome 4 them or causing a hole in their pockets. tts wat BFs should do rite? if not dun date la. pi! they dun need my "pity" man. they dun 'pei(4)' also lor. hey ya... arent we doing them a favour when we take e trouble to dress up to go out with them?

i may look dumb or anything, it's only tt sometimes i ACT dumb. coz sometimes i dun even know how n where to start when i wanna find out/b aware of some things. i wan auto explanations. but some of them i juz find it too lame. i really dunno its a lie or wat, but surely i have to believe wat ever u ppl say rite?

this 1 is juz too "unstable", i dun understand some of e things tt he do. because of tt, i started to question his words. i din until...... really pissed by wat happened yesterday. hai

i feel tt "ITS" a sooner or later thing... though i dun wanna let wat 1 of my classmates said come true.....

now i juz have to say tt this most prob will b my last relationship until i start working or wat. unless some1 "close-to-perfect" appears b4 me. no ex-gfs prob, serious bout it, could take real gd care of me.. blah... most of e guys juz turn me off. like.. is there even 1 decent, nice, close-to-perfect chap? i have "seen" a few... but sometimes when u get to know a person better, things get a little different from wat u c n tot during e first few impressions. tts when u dun juz judge a book by its cover. some ppl dun understand y some girls turn to lesbianism.... i do... argh.... juz cant stand those liars, 2-timers.. blah... dun let me meet them, i dun wanna b their victims. no matter wat...i wun let tt happen to me! i repeat, i m not dumb! u may try but u will nv succeed.

=) i still enjoy being single....

watever case it is, if i dun feel respected at all, dun dream of me respecting u. coz u dun deserve it. i may not show it directly coz i wun try to b mean k... i will still save u from embarrassment , but deep dwn inside, whether u know it or not, i dun respect u as a person at all.

seriously...i wun b suprised if i get any heart disease in e future. it's such an ugly world.

alot of things i wanna say.. but i dunno how to pen it here. if only some1 understands how i feel..

2005-02-01T13:08:00.000+08:00

Taurus: People are extra flexible today - you can convince them of anything.**

in e lab now waiting 4 my cds to start at 2. zzz... shall stay 4 about an hr then try to sneak away after e teacher have taken e attendents. after tt gonna meet sam at TM 4 dinner le.

n i dounno to panic or not, tt my DCNK is due tomolo. -.- again last min thingy. wth.... supposed to do it last wk during e hol but nope, pushed it to yesterday, then again today. n now my group mates cannot b found. how resposible is tt. hack! wat ever shit la, i dun give a damn... sick of these kind of ppl. they can juz continue to spend their time rotting away, no way m i gonna let them affect me.

SUN:
Taurus: Add a splash of color to your outfit. Make a bold statement.**

had a wonderful time at Escape Theme Park today with sam. 4got when was e last time tt i went there. we both were kinda disappointed tt quite afew of those rides tt were more to e "interesting side"were closed. however, still managed to enjoy ourselves. love e Bumper Boat tt get u wet. SHIOK! waited especially long 4 tt. sat a few times of e Viking, flipper and Go Cart. we actually spent close to 5hrs there! Unbelieveable! thoughout e whole thingy we took 2 photos a few videos only with my hp. n something sucks. i dun seemed to b able to transfer those videos to my pc! sending mms n using e data cable do not help. argh...

SAT:
Taurus: Break out of your shell and try something new. Experiment freely.**

quarelled with my sis n aunt... so.. e trip to Escape Theme Park is cancelled. boo.... glad tt sam was concerned about wat happened but it was ya.. a small matter so no need to share tt with him. it was all because of e damn tix fault... stupid prob caused by ros.

WED:
Taurus: If you push, others are right there ready to push back even harder.**

went 5hrs of KTV with Qiao Mei. SHIOK! but my plans 4 tt nite din go smoothly. cause by same sickening person again.-.- so met sam 4 pool rather than movie.(watched "Shall We Dance?" on fri instead. nice 1.) den din wanna go home early n i knew tt sam had to slp in early so... in e end went to a KTV pub in Joo Chiat coz i so much wanted to drink tt nite. ya ya.. e place was sleazy, but alrite la. got to c 'mamasan' there with her foreign girls.. haha.. n bar top dancing.. blah.. had a great time singing ktv again there. though it was in e hall, wasnt quite pressured by it coz e other men there were bz with their pool at e back so.. hack. 1 guy sang worse than me anyway..lol. fun i should say. my fren was like cheering me on.. giving me support. haha. think i really drank alot tt nite. was kinda tipsy when we left so my fren suggested to have some warm food or drink at e coffee shop opp. to make me better. but i think they make me worse. so din had any much food then we took a cab back le. think i actually fell aslp in e car until e taxi driver asked 4 direction to my blk. felt still kinda alrite when i alighted, took e elevator. till i reached e 10th storey n began to feel like puking. continued walking n swallowing my saliva, or wateverthing is forcing its way through my gullet n out of my mouth. BLOO.... i puked. 3times. along e corridor. =X guess wat. a men in e apartment of where i puked outside saw me. opps. he gave me e "wat is happening" kind of look. i cont with my journey rite after e puking part, not looking back man. ya.. e puking part was shiok man. crazy i know... haha. it was a diff feeling from my past vommiting experiences. tt was shiok, felt good n better after tt. tts y i could juz walk away normally. mayb coz everything came out damn smoothly unlike b4? haha. damn slpy. fell a slp rite after bathing. e next day had a hangover sia.. bleah..

2005-01-23T13:23:00.000+08:00

Taurus: People may not agree, but this doesn't mean you should doubt yourself.**

slacking day 4 me... gotta cont my NMM project le. ideas... i need ideas!

SAT:
Taurus: Be prepared to assert yourself so others know where you stand.**

SHOPPING SPREE!!!

well, not really. bought a jacket i have been looking 4. guess how much is it... $19! gd buy sia! 'heng heng' i havent left Bugis after dinner, got to collect my specs too.. =B

b4 tt walked ard Raffles City with dan n his fren b4 Lynn joined us. looked ard 4 dan's DVD player n new yr clothes then headed to Bugis le. walked abit at Bugis Junction n Bugis st b4 dan n fren left 4 their fren's bbq at pasir ris. went KFC 4 dinner with Lynn den back to Bugis again 4 some serious girl-shopping. hehe. tts when i found my jacket. after tt i was juz left with 20cents in my pocket. -.- no choice, could only do some window shopping... like a long sleeve top tt is like a-white-shirt-wearing-under-a-sweater kind? from esprit. kinda special coz it isnt reall a "full" white shirt underneath. it can b separated coz they r only put together with buttons.. interesting... hmm.. but not sure whether i should mind e price though its special.*glup* looking 4 a ladies shirt too. either wear it alone or with a tank top underneath.

eh... mayb i should start a Wish List ya... =X lol

ya today every1 seemed to b at Bugis too. saw my Bowen didi at e Levis shop. Leonard saw me but din have manners to come up to me n say "hi", only sms-ed me. at KFC saw cai-er n her frens. ros went back Taxi to work Pt, so at e end of e day took bus back with her.

2005-01-20T19:27:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Others may get on your nerves because they lack the devotion you have.**

Joke of the Day: went to sch at 9am when my paper starts at 3.30pm!
did not find anything amiss until....

1. din c my classmates outside e rm
2. peeped in n c no familar faces
3. walked in n still c no1 familar (ya think i saw a senior who was from kc too)
4. after i had found my table no. , checked e paper which was lying on e table

DAMN IT! confirm not e 1 i was suppose to sit (4got wat subject i saw). straight away walked rite out of e rm. e teacher muz b puzzled sia... he was e 1 who unlocked e back door 4 me too. hai.. at tt time still tot i had remembered/copied/OLE printed e rm no. wrongly. called 1 of my classmates, hp off. tried another 1 n she told me e paper starts in e afternoon! omg... was cursing myself man.. Y I SO BLUR! den i remember ya.. e last paper like usually starts kinda late.. omg... could have slept longer! i had only 3 hrs of slp u know! coz i only started studying at 11pm last nite. ya.. it's like how long u wanna study maths 4? ya... den went back home, hoping to get some slp coz my eyes felt as if they were swelling.... but couldnt really do tt. -.- watever.

anyway.. e paper was damn "ez pea-sy" man. e only paper(mayb beside NMM la) i m so confident of. but coz of laziness, din really studied e last part, so din know how to do e last question of e paper. -.-.. 5marks wasted.

on my way home at 201 bus stop actually saw e cute girl whom i had served while working at TM B*dazzle. still remember she was looking 4 accessories 4 his bro's wedding. so qiao sia. again... smelt an unsual scent, a perfume when she walked pass me. no wonder at tt point of time was thinking who was wearing such scent, v sweet, too sweet le. seems like she have a unique kind of taste huh. cool~ wanted to go up n say hi sia.. n at e same time ask her wat perfume she was wearing e other time, coz, i like... hehe.. but.. hehe.. took e same bus as me too. but i really wonder does she still regconize me.. o.O

saw another "neighbour" too while i was waiting 4 bus to go to sch...

YEAH! hol le... gonna enjoy myself man... eh.. like how huh? =( still have projects to do too. no matter wat, gotta do some catching up with some ppl man... n i gotta go c Shall We Dance! alone(gotta try it man) or wat... maybe Alfie n Finding Neverland?, and e Constantine starring Keanu Reeves which is coming soon.

i wan ktv.. kuishinbo buffet.. go party with PY n frens...blah!

WED:
Taurus: Be sure your insurance policies are worth the money you pay for them.**

my DCNK sucks man. cfm FAIL! can say tt i din study at all man. juz looked thru e tutorials. not sure if e others felt e same way too but even b4 i left e lec hall, alot others had gone off already. my o my....

after tt went town 4 an interview. felt kinda mad when i failed to find e shop at e Mandarin Arcade n no1 picked up my calls, even so after using e 'men pai hao ma' she had given me, coz it wasnt open yet. so juz walked ard window shopping. looking 4 jackets n long sleeve tops... bought e red tank top i had been eying 4 a long time from Bods.Bodynits. nice... hmm.. mayb look more like a sports wear la but who cares rite.. anyway.. next month should b joining hiphop dance class with daniel n his another gf so could wear tt ba. have been wanting to take up this kinda course a long time le...

ya looking 4ward to this sat, nan de daniel jio go shopping, lynn n another fren of his joining too ba... haha. he seems to b getting a makeover or something coz his "things to buy list" is a long 1.. shoes.. track pants....aiyo... juz 4 this dance class...-.-

TUE:
Taurus: You'll be on edge this morning; things go your way this afternoon.**

IISO paper kinda suck too. but there might juz b a possibility tt i may get away with a "juz pass" marks. well at least better than failing la..

took a short nap b4 going out again. went to bugis to check e specs frame i had ordered. walk ard n saw nice n cheap jacket. shall go back again 4 it when i m collecting my specs.

dinner was great with my aunts n sis. went to this ulu seafood place(a bit e coffee shop type) in e midst of an industrial park? at Hougang. ordered 2 crabs n buns to dip e sauces with(chilli n butter. e butter 1 was e best, with creamy sauce), tou fu =D~~, chicken, veg.. *Burp* it was indeed filling. tt was not all. e other table's horfun or mee in dark sauce tempted my sis n aunt to order tt. so.. eat again, we all shared a plate of coz.. yup.. tts wat we had 4 dinner in late celebration of my sis's bday. 21st bday neh....

2005-01-15T13:23:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Remember that you can't go from first date to marriage in one day.** <-- of coz i understand tt...

every morning when i wake up, i m always looking 4ward to something.. something tt will not happen again... cant stop myself from getting excited whenever there is a call or msg alert coming from my hp...bth...

really disappointed. nv tot tt he would go back to her.but i should have guessed it. who would wanna let a 4yr relationtion to go dwn e drain juz like tt? it would b such a waste. i did insist on asking her back b4 tt, y din he do it? until now we r together n she's back, asking 4 a patch? though he complained to me about her (even e time when we last met).... think he was juz trying to 'an wei' himself, not to go back to her again. well, it's pointless to juz tok, action is more impt. now i c wat he meant. tt's y he has been avoiding me.

BUT AT LEAST CLARIFY WITH ME LA!

gotta blame it on me. shouldnt have believed his words. shouldnt have gone together shortly after their break. shouldnt have "rushed" into this. Stayed as frens would have been juz as great. now it juz let me feel like as if im a "spare tyre".. again... juz in time when she went to Denmark 4 studies. glad tt it ended so soon.

ppl come n go.. n i m used to it. so guess it will b alrite if dun think too much.. past few days have been fine... but i juz feel angry when he dun say anything at all n settle this once n for all. dun tell me i have to wait 4 months again... i wanna so much to call him but shouldnt guys b e 1 to take initiatives? tts wat i think. he seemed uninterested too when i send or fwd sms. tt's how far i will go. tt's how passive i m, too bad i m not those pro-active type, if i do it will seem as if i m despo or irritating. hey.."it takes 2 hands to clap" rite?

however.. also glad to have some1 to share my tots n probs with during tt period, nv open up to any1 like this b4, though sometimes may only b a v small matter(glad tt he did too). enjoyed e time spent together(even if it was juz having coffee at 201. now tt i think of it.. it seems tt we havent gone out much on wkends..), e stuffs we did. though v simple(mayb tt wasnt wat he was looking 4), nv felt tt 'xing fu' b4.. but was kinda angry when he din reply to my sms tt day. n when i think i saw their pic still in his wallet e other time(din c clearly but how else should i react if it really was?), tt explains y i was suddenly all quiet on new yrs day when we were waiting to go into e cinema to watch Meet the Fockers.

e last time we met he asked me wat i think "loving a person" is all about. din reply tt...din know how too. dun like it when ppl ask me such "difficult" question. to him.. it's about "accepting e way tt person is". true. to me, i dun really know how to say but it's juz e way u feel when u r with tt person, n e many (romantic?) things u wanna do together blah. when i was with him it was e v first time i would take trouble to plan things(e.g dinner on christmas eve), even tot of going on a hol to somewhere like Bali(again) with him. i think too much n fast le. juz remembered e other time he shared about his fren's story.. a 'little mei mei' wanna marry a much older man. mayb a little like her huh...

mayb tt was e time which made him make up his mind on who to choose. coz i din seem to like him as much as e other did sometimes? n i always din know how to ans his "difficult" Qs?

all r my assumptions, i know i cant jump to conclusions, but how else can i not make myself think so much when he juz disappear w/o saying anything? i dun mind him going back but.. pls.. I NEED AN ANS PLS!

still.... enuff of all these le. i need a break.

watever things tt have happened to me recently.. i still like being e way i m.

1. sometimes e not-so-feminine kind of behaviour (dun expect me to whine pls)
2. weird stuff i may b doing (buying a 1.5l bottle of water to quench my thirst)
3. acting e way i feel (if this is how u treat me, this is wat u will get. i wun wanna be a 2-faced person u know)
4. boring me (i dun mind doing things e "simple-way". how do u classify some1 as an interesting person anyway? some1 who creates unnecessary "sounds" during, or even not during, a conversation? noise pollution n attention seeker pls)
5. quiet me (u wan me to act like an automatic gun huh? possible. tts when im in e HYPER mode, caused by some things or some1.)

blah blah blah... take it or leave it. i dun need to b some1 perfect in any1's eyes...

e other day my classmate juz shared with me his past relationship during his sec sch life. find it kinda cute tt he felt neglected by his gf.. haha...find it cute coz i think tt "ren zhen de nan ren (or nu ren) jui mei.." it shows tt e relationship meant alot to him, his gf should feel gd about it. becoz of this he dun wanna get a gf w/o thinking twice. they knew each other 4 a few wks only but lasted 4 a yr plus.. not bad already... ok la.. though looks a bit flirty but alrite la.. harmless kind. quite gd looking too so can get 1 easily de la..

FRI:
Taurus: An extra thoughtful gesture or kind word goes a long way with a lover.**

SHORTY SHORTY again! yup, went to cut my hair at kimage. not really satisfied with it though.. n e service.. e guy keeps scratching me with his long nails! wth.. n i had to pay $31.50(inclusive of $1.50 GST) 4 tt. no way m i going back there, not worth my $. i still like my chapter2, go back find tt Pamela next time.

argh.. no more 'nu ren wei' le .. look a bit kiddo n tomboy now =(... but with STYLE. =D haha.. ya as if... hmm.. e cap i bought from Bali have been lying in my cupboard 4 so long le.. now is e rite time. juz c when is it appropriate 4 me to wear it, n act a bit tomboy ya.. haha.. but dun think i have e rite clothes 4 tt... =P BLEAH!

wanted to go Mad Monks with sis until i heard tt they play rnb there.. not really into tt n Lennon wasnt going too.. so nah... next time when i m feeling rich ya...

2005-01-12T15:47:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Don't get too shaken by an argument - the other person is off kilter.**

I M SO DAMN BORED!

can't think of anything else but go back to my bed 4 more slp. but no, not gonna do tt. i have slept 4 3hrs juz now n i gotta start studying le! e more i slp, e more tired i feel..*Yawn* -.-zzz.. but i sure do love to take afternoon naps... gets me all freshened up. =)

gonna go 201 de kimage cut my hair after this. will start working on my maths once i reach home. hai.. so damn lazy to even go 4 e hair cut now.. zzz... *yawn* juz like me rot at home la!!!!

wkend is coming.. Sian. term test is coming.. Sian. hol is coming.. Sian. kill me pls, kill me...

2005-01-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Don't be so hard on yourself today. Keep only positive energy flowing.**

i gotta keep myself bz! coz.......it's so no gd 4 me...bleah!

went to get my stuff today at TM.. at last.. kinda like it in red n got myself a matching THONG! wahaha..juz bought it 4 fun. i wonder when m i gonna wear tt.. hmm... did a bit of window shopping n going ard trying on clothes. hehe.. o my.. can't remember when was e last time i went shopping. checked out mango's new arrivals. not bad, have some nice chiffon kind of tops? but e price is juz not rite 4 me.. i cant afford it at e moment anyway..was tempted to get e pants from ebase n stuff but not too sure whether it looked gd on me or tt it matches with any of my tops..(sometimes e lightings do affect how it looks on u u know..) but i like it being soft n loose fitting. comfortable is e word. n it's juz at $20. find a time to get suggestions from my sis or whoever next i m going out with. din manage to c e skirts i saw e other time at pw. sad sia... =(

MON:
Taurus: You have no more excuses. The energy is in your favor right now.**

went to bugis to meet my sis n her colleagues 4 dinner after sch but i was late so they went ahead w/o me. her colleagues r a fun bunch man, so funny n cute.. juz like Lennon. kinda envy my sis.. she juz manages to get along well with people wherever she goes. later they accompanied to get my specs. yup..got myself a half frame 1. decided to switch to specs after e BioMedics gave me problems. juz cant wait 4 feb or march to collect it.. hehe.. gotta wait 4 them to order a new frame 4 me.. walked ard a bit b4 we headed home.. had a bit of tok with her on e bus, it nv fails to make me feel closer to her whenever we have this kind of chat session.

though it's a little weird, it's nice to meet my sis's frens u know.. especially e lennon, such a cutie... hehe... enjoyed e time i spent with my sis. i want more of this so much...together with dad, but she is a bz woman u know. =( with work.. frens.. hai.. o.. she mentioned of going to Mad Monks this fri with her frens.. I WANNA GO! when fri comes, i will remind her tt i will b tagging along... tt is if Lennon is going too n i have no plans 4 tt nite. hehe.. i m a troublesome little sis huh.. keke.

ya gonna celebrate her bday this thurs with my aunts.. HER 21ST BDAY! so happening huh..-.-

alrite.. reaching my bedtime.. gonna slp soon. cant help but feel guilty 4 not doing any revision 4 my term test next wk. i will have to wait till tomolo then. sch 4 tomolo will juz b a maths lec from 9-10, how great is tt? i shall make sure tt i reach sch in time otherwise i will juz have to give it a miss.. again. tata...

P.S: to e person who checks out my blog every now n then, not out of KPOness but concern

whether u r reading this or not.. juz wanna let u know tt i will respect watever decision tt u make. juz go with ur heart.. sometimes we really r "jui ying xin ruan".. so mayb now u need time to think about it. ya.. i think u do. so mayb juz give u this whole wk to do it.... if not i will juz treat it as a silent B.

2005-01-09T16:23:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Tonight you will need to have a serious talk with your lover.**

nuting much to write at e moment.. feeling damn sian.. i juz dun get it, tt sometimes horoscopes r so accurate..

i m so in love with Zhang Dong Liang's songs at e moment... ji mo bian jie blah.. he is like e next Zhang Jing Xuan, whose songs r all damn nice... gonna get his cd man.. have ktv vcd too. hehe... moreover nowadays cant dl mp3 from irc anymore. =( sucks la! i miss my ktv la..

1 more week to term test... havent started studying.. 2 subjects i completely dunno wat they r about. shit. was thinking of changing course, to Internet Computing. it is like more of multimedia, which is e course i was looking 4. damn it, anyhow choose IT e other time.. hai.. really a waste of $ man.. my java sucks lor. my assignment also had to ask my cousin 4 help.-.- he was saying if i really have no interest mayb i should change... juz discuss with e sch ppl n my sis first. but most prob i will b staying with this ba.. coz last nite told my fren about it too n he said multimedia stuff can pick up myself.. kinda true la.. so.. think i have made up my mind le.. hang on to IT, juz gotta buck up and prepare 4 my term test now. hmm...

ya.. yesterday was kinda glad tt my sis called me to share about some things.. =) so sweet. i love my sis so much. yeah.. "wateverthing happens to u, e people u first turn to r ur family members..." this is so true. they do play an impt role.

dun think i wanna slack at home 4 e rest of e day le.. gonna bathe n go to bugis to collect something from ros le... c if i could ask my dad out 4 dinner too... =) guess today i can't start studying 4 my term test again..=X

2005-01-01T15:34:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Today's mood is grounding, giving you a strong base to operate from.**

IT's YR 2005!

last nite's new yr's eve celebration was nuting special. at nite was steamboat n bbq dinner with Ros n frens , while in e afternoon spent e whole time slacking infront of e tv n pc. -.- how interesting was tt? was kinda pissed alittle or something.. coz had kinda planned wat to do in e afternoon but... hai.. n i actually booked a ktv rm at 2 places. yup, i din turn up. was trying to make use of e k-ster vouchers they gave when i signed up e membership coz it expires yesterday. watever! e system sucks too. dun think i will b going back there anymore.. e membership is juz a waste of my money.

so after e dinner, we left in theirs cars n van to e open field, opp e esplanade to c e fireworks. however, there wasnt any. not sure whether is was coz of e tsunami thingy tt it was cancelled or wat.. but is kinda sure tt i did c it in e papers too.. stayed there awhile den meet up with sam at cine to c Meet the Fockers. damn funny show i muz say. not bad.. quite enjoyed it.. after e show juz took a bus n went 4 mac breakfast at 201. den was back home to 4 my beauty slp le.. after a bath of coz.

was kinda thinking about some things last nite. kinda disappointed with some stuffs. i begin to question ppl's actions n e words they say n have said. r they truths or lies? juz have tt kind of uncertainty. wondering wth they r thinking...some ppl juz change so fast tt it makes me feel disgusted. its a ugly world. about another issue, not sure i should speak up or wat but guess i shall juz leave it as it is coz it isnt really a big matter. shall give some more time.. until i think it's pointless to cont this kind of relationship... think its better not to give too much of myself to ppl, i would say this is a kind of self-defence or something. mayb i m too sensitive, mayb i need something in return 4 e things i do. mayb every1 does too, tts y this phrase sounds kinda true to me, tt "every1 is selfish". i dun blame them coz if u dun think 4 urself who will? kinda "self-defence" man "self-defence". its something like this horoscope i saw 4 mine in Streats 2 days back: If others can't b nice, why should u return e flavour? it would b a shame to end the yr on this note. surely there muz b some way 4 every1 to retain their dignity.

hai! i always have mood swings.. =(

so many things i wanna do... but...'li bu cong xin' ah... juz let me go n find a job first. it feels sucky when i stop earning my own "income". gotta think twice on e things i wanna do or buy.... kinda true tt when ppl say "e more u earn, e more u spend". though i dun earn much.. at least i can still pamper myself once in a while rite?

think later will b going town with sam again 4 shopping.. guess i have to wait till tomolo to do my assignments again. UIR, NMM n OOPG... sian. due next wk. i hate projects n assignments. e other day went to design sch 4 lunch n saw e students painting their glass window, juz made me ask myself again... Y M I NOT IN DESIGN SCH?!!! argh! my course sucks la!

o ya.. its e new yr le.. wanted to create a blog template myself using dreamweaver but guess i dun have e time 4 tt now.. about transfering this yr's entries to e new 1? will c about tt...

THURS:
Taurus: Make sure your New Year's plans are set. Don't wait until last minute.**

still dunno know wat to do on new yr's eve. i so much wanna go chiong with pei yuan+frens n ros+frens but think its impossible again. feel kinda bad to always have to turn pei yuan dwn when he jio me. wanted to join pei yuan+frens at sentosa too but another fren gotta work n ros they all not interested..so...hai.. can't possibly go alone ba... have to wait 4 another time den.

had NMM lab today. have always loved this lesson so much... eh though e teacher looks as if she have attitude prob. played ard with pictures using fireworks. damn amazing with e things u can do to pictures with tt programe. i m kinda angry with myself again coz... Y M I NOT IN DESIGN SCH?!!!

WED:
Taurus: Adopt a more courageous attitude in everything you do today.**

wanted to go ktv today but... sad la sad.

heard about e Tsunami thingy dunno when... kinda pity those who have lost their loved ones. life is so vulnerable dun u think? coz of tt it has taken thousands of ppl's life already, at e same time, destroying wat had once been on e land of those countries affected. it must b difficult n heartbreaking to helplessly c ur loved ones or even strangers, being washed away by e water. this could have happened in singapore too if it was not 4 Indonesia. really cant imagine if it were to happen here, sg is already a v small island lor.. count ourselves lucky. muz have been a scary experience 4 those survivors. hmm.. wat if i had been involved? scary, cfm die, i can't even swim! was thinking how r they gonna identify e bodies man.. there r too many le. think if those ppl dun return home n not found alive wondering ard, we can juz treat them as dead suan le..

e other day at ecp with sam actually toked about this kind of stuff. have been thinking all e wat ifs.... wat if i kena an accident? robbery? SARS? go looney? disfigured, resulting in low-self esteem? tortured by sicko parents? being born dumb or deaf or with any illiness? wat if these kind of things happened to myself blah blah blah. (haha.. think too much.. =X) dunno how i would react, how it would change my life. i seriously dunno how those ppl cope with their lives after overcoming e odds. so juz feel heng heng tt no suay stuffs have happened to me.... yet! really feel contented with wat i have n wat i m... a normal kind of person, all thanks to my parents' gd genes.. lol.... n nice dad...blah...

SAT:
Taurus: Your emotions are strong, but your communication skills are not.**

stayed at home e whole day. eat.slp.tv.pc.

FRI:
Taurus: Practice makes perfect. Ask yourself what you need to practice more.**

spent christmas eve with sam. kinda enjoyed myself. had a hell of a laughing time at pw suki sushi. me-wanting to cook COOKED prawns. him-wanting to put a plate of our RE-DECORATED ASSORTED LEFTOVER SASHIMIs back on e belt. n i finally learnt e CORRECT way of eating e green peas from him. haiyoyo... went there 4 dinner instead of e boat 1 at sentosa.. went to Margaritas at east coast rd n it was fully booked too. so... after dinner went suntec to c Kung fu. damn lame show.. but lame until v funny so it was alrite. haha. love e girl who acted dumb in e show. damn pretty n sweet looking. LOVE HER LIPS! haha...

after tt wanted to walk to e esplanade but at e bus stop heng heng saw bus 36 n i tot would go there...so we took n end up in pw. pai seh pai seh. so went there awhile 4 a short pool session at e old cinema de b4 heading dwn to ecp. not a bad pool place there, clean tables they have got, friendly uncle, not bad not bad.

at e ecp saw alot of tents being built, alot of malays especially... den spotted 1 tt is with juz 4 pillars holding up e roof only, no doors. not 4 slping.. juz a kind of shelter or shade kind of thing, if u know wat i mean. power! brought their own tv set. not only tt, ktv set n a kind of electricity kind of generator? too! they were like singing away loudly man.. eh.. a bit of noise pollution lor... damn power. 'pei fu pei fu' man...

like to juz sit on e bench, chit chat n stare at e sea. kinda relaxing... did juz tt with him den ard 4 plus went home le...

2004-12-21T21:20:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Mercury turns direct today; communication gets back on track.**

juz feel like switching off my hp. "disconnect" from this place. but i turned it to silent mode instead. watever, i need a break. i dun give a damn to who is gonna call me next or send an sms. ok.. im trying to do tt. i dunno i m suffering from d_____ or wat.. it juz goes on n off...10101010101................ mg..

u call me NT-social? a loner? so wat? i'm not alone. i m not e only 1 who feels e way i m feeling rite now. u understand by this sentence, extracted from e movie "b4 sunset"? ==> "its better to b alone than having ur lover beside u n feel lonely." exactly same as wat i think. i'd rather b alone. blah blah..... having lots of tots rite now. not gonna type it here. no pt i guess. none of any1's business. (if any1 actually waste their time to c this)

sometimes ppl juz hurt u so bad w/o knowing themselves.. dun they 'fan xing'? mayb its my own fault, causing these things to happen. sometimes it juz makes me wonder m i really tt bad of a person? tt i dun deserve gd treatment from any1? every1 has their own side of e story. but do they know mine? dun even think they r bothered by it coz i c no effort being made. ok la.. i m a boring person k. i know.

i m unsure about myself as well as e ppl ard me. feeling insecure all of a sudden. damn lousy. y do i let ppl affect me so easily? think i need some1 to slap me real hard in e face. or juz ... 'sha le wo ba'!

sch today was great! nv felt this "enlightened" b4. actually paid attention during NMM lec. so proud of myself. =B picked up a few impt points today 4 web designing which i think is v useful coz have been doing e wrong stuff all these while. hmm... den actually went to e library to find some books by myself. woohoo~ i should do this more often man. gotta catch up with my sch work le.

went to e vcd shop at simei 4 an interview.. (pray hard tt i get e job man.) den home sweet home.. ah.. no place like it!

den 1 sickening thing happened. was having my dinner n watching tv when my aunt's tenant from china commented: "you zai buo she meh gui pi dian shi?" (translate to something like: wat stupid programme/e hell is e tv showing again?") nonetheless, tt was how rude it sounded. damn sacarstic. e tv was showing "hai you ming tian" lor. like... b sensitive pls... trying to say tt singapore's programmes suck is it? infront of me? sorry.. i m not ur 'tong zhi' lor. i love my country. i love singapore. no respect man. always saying stuffs about singaporeans with another tenant, who is her 'tong zhi'. like as if we r e only SICK ones who treat e maids badly....blah blah... watever. fed up of her. everytime tok until so sacarstic n ask weird n stupid Q. i will make sure my aunt chase u 2 out!

tomolo going out with ros n qiao mei. hope everything goes well when i wake up tomolo. still dunno wat i gonna do on christmas. actually planned quite a bit but.... i really dunno... hai... sometimes juz sick of ppl asking wat m i gonna do blah blah blah with my "frens".... do have a few but not tt close. coz they have their own stuff, frens n bf to tend to.. so........ 4 this new yr may b going with ros n group to chiong... if possible join pei yuan too. if not.. stay at home again lor. =P

SAT:
Taurus: Don't read too deeply into unexpected comments from loved ones.**

went to dan's bd party. was kinda weird 4 me coz most of e ppl r from his camp, den.. ya... guess tt goes to lynn, ivan n another guy as well... so we were like e odd 1s. so after passing him his present n eating some food, left his place n went to meet sam 4 e movie marathon le.

on e train to orchard saw my hairstylist cousin too. so i went up to him.was expecting a 'hi' but all i got was him, staring at me. -.- n i had to say "u know who m i or not?" again. he couldn't regconize me! bleah! mayb coz we only c each other during chi new yr when his family come to my aunt's house... n when i m always 'lub lub' dressed. =P

SUN:
Taurus: When you make your intention clear, you get tremendous support.**

double ocean's movie marathon was kinda nice.. (tiring too..) prefered Ocean's 11 than 12 coz more "action".. after e movie we walked to e esplanade to slack le. juz love tt part. felt damn relaxed n stuff... =) XING FU! bleah.... later went to 85 4 breakfast den home sweet home le... shrek is ON tonite!

2004-12-14T15:16:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Watch out for excess in everything - especially rants about others.**

in sch having UIR(using e internet as a research tool) in e lab now. sian. juz came to sch 4 this coz i woke up late n was kinda late 4 e 2nd lec as well. so.. hai.. watched my Bourne Identity vcd b4 i left e house. dunno y e hell we have to LEARN how to use e search engines. -.- ok.. partly my fault to choose this as my CDS, but this does not include exams, ez to pass n get e pts. but damn boring. unlucky me, no more place 4 e ones i looking 4 in design sch.. so o well..'sui bian'.

o.. today e "bartender" din come 4 UIR. hai.. n e teacher wants us to b in a group of 4 for our assignment. hmm.. was thinking could we get him into ours since there r only 3 of us.. asked her a little juz now but she din give us an ans. mayb me n kelly giggled too much so she ignored us.. pai seh ma...haha... think e row of girls on our left were thinking wth we were doing.. hmm.. mayb after e class we tok to her in private? o.O haha.. aiya.. juz wanna get to know him a bit better ma.. hehe.. same lec hall anyway. nice to know more new frens.

hmm.. dunno wat i m gonna do after sch.. sian to go back home. but think i should juz stay at home n go thru my notes n arrange them properly. messy messy.

tomolo no sch! juz a Cmaths lec but think i give tt a miss. gotta plan programmes 4 tomolo. go ktv? shop 4 gifts? go chiong? tonite gonna find khakis le. mayb going Devil's Bar with ai ling. or c pei yuan wanna go Chinablack not. hmm..

MON:
Taurus: Information is hidden from you now. You don't have all the facts.**

nuting much to say about sch today. missed e DCNK lec again. n my OOPG (java programing) SUCKS! i dunno how e hell i m gonna stay on to this course 4 another 2+half yrs. hai..

during e 1hr break went to e market opp tp. they have real cheap vcds n dvds 4 rent. but too bad i din manage to get e titles i was looking 4. ALL actually. so after sch went Eastpoint to return e 2 i rented e other day. n rented another vcd. The Terminal. not a bad show... but really find e guy poor thing. cant imagine how e Real person is, to stay at an airport for 16yrs? or more? sad case.

so after tt went to sam's house after getting (alot of) food stuff from e 'pasar malam' at 201. i think if we continue to do this.. we gonna put on weight n our pocket will 'puo yi ge da dong'. mg.. we watched tt, a bit of SCV n soon was already 12. b4 i left actually saw some of e things his ex-gf gave him. damn creative, v cute. yup.. she is cute too.. think e things tt she wrote is v interesting.. roughly get a bit of e idea though i din read everything. not so nice to invade other's privacy rite? after tt he juz walked me home.. =) n blah.... =P

SUN:
Taurus: If you can't accept the truth about someone, leave the relationship.**

today another "movie marathon" with sam. rented Wishing Stairs, Mona Lisa's Smile n Bourne Identity. watched Wishing Stairs first. think it isnt as gd as watching it in e cinema coz of e sound effects n e big screen blah.. but overall alrite la. felt kinda sad 4 e dead girl. there were some parts where she kept saying: "all i need is u." n e other girl juz kept running away. ok la.. ghost is scary la.. but she was damn evil too, doing stuffs to her. mayb too much of jealousy.. hmm... was all ready to watch Shrek on tv but it was showing Big Mama's House instead. O.O i was v sure it was suppose to b on tt nite. hmm.. den Star Awards on channel 8. poor Jasslyn Tay think tripped on her dress while walking e "red carpet". nvm.. it still like her! =) when she went up to get e award she said something like: "e impt thing is getting up after a fall, n not e fall itself." BRAVO! next was Mona Lisa's Smile. quite interesting but too draggy. wanted to watch Bourne Identity but guess every1 was kinda tired already.. it was ard 12.30 already.. so he left after tt.

o ya.. bought a lot of tidbits 4 this thingy. big packet of twisties, caramel popcorn, ice cream(in e end din mange to eat tt) n green tea. was kinda full after tt. moreover my aunt boiled tomato+egg soup. however.. i still ordered pizza hut 4 dinner. e Wishing star pizza? nuting fantastic about it, rather have e normal pizza in e supreme range. after tt another aunt actually brought cooked food back from cousin's house. c-ing tt our pizza havent arrived yet, offered a little of rice n dishes to him. ok.. i seemed crazy or wat.. stuffing him with food but trying to take gd care of my guest ok.. hehe.. ok la.. told him tt he din have to finish everything anyway. but he still did. mayb pai seh la.. my fault. later put on weight le...my fault. =( hmm.. did i frighten him? O.O wahahaha......

yup. gonna catch e DOUBLE OCEAN'S MOVIE MARATHON! its on this sat! =D used his debit card to book it online. cant wait! hehe... not sure i will b going to dan's bd party b4 tt.. still thinking hmm... Lynn will b going only if i go too. hai.. juz scared tt i will get bored there coz mostly will b his group of frens. i m not so "sociable" ma... hai.. mayb la mayb.

2004-12-11T20:10:00.000+08:00

Taurus: You've reached a climax with regard to love. Now take a new approach.**

shag. din have my beauty slp last nite until this morning. this is so damn bad 4 my skin. but i din regret going out till tt late.. hehe... ;) suppose to c Before sunrise vcd at my place but i decided to push it to tomolo. channel5 gonna have Shrek too.. so.. can have another "movie marathon"!

GV will b having a Ocean's 11 and 12 movie marathon! + free flow of popcorns n coke for $20. thinking whether to go 4 it or rent.. $4 only.. hmm...c how.. if i can find e vcd tomolo mayb rent it together with Before sunrise.

FRI:
Taurus: The fight has begun. Don't pull away. Stand your ground with strength.**

yesterday went 4 a movie marathon! hehe... watched Without a paddle n National Treasure with sam at cine. din really wanna watch 2 shows coz really broke now..( though most of e stuffs not i pay de..still.. waste so much $ on movies 4 wat..)

alrite. went NYDC 4 "dinner" b4 e show at 9plus. had their cakes with ice cream. hmm... not tt gd as wat i had expected. but alrite.. now so sick of eating.. same food everyday. western food from diff restaurants seems e same to me. BLEAH. n so 'qiao'.. think i saw 1 of e guys in e frenster. remember how he looks like coz he kinda have a "tweety" face? ha.. watever.

so after e movie walked ard.. n guess who i saw.. leslie. haha. with his fren. din went up to say hi anyway.. was thinking watever 4.. but mayb i should have huh? nvm. over liao.. den later went up to play pool. actually was thinking whether to go Mad Monks not since li qin 'nan de called me.. nv been to e so called "lesbian club" anyway..tot go c c.. but after e pool sms-ed her she said she left le.. so o well.. no need 4 me to go dwn there le. so while walking out of cine.. walking aimlessly... din know where else to go, wat else to do, sam suggested another movie! either National Treasure or Blade. but 4 e Blade i havent watched e first few 1s so... chose e other instead. but after we had bought e tix we realised e k-box at lvl 8 opens till 5. we were like damn it! should have went 4 tt.. 2-5 de package. but too bad! was thinking not bad ma.. till 5.. den can wait 4 e morning bus le... so at e time was only 1 plus lo..finding stuffs to do.. walk up n dwn n escalator. u seriously cant imagine how many times we had done tt. i have lost count myself too. so.. no pool again pls.. went to play arcade den. some snacks at subway. bought myself a small bottle of renu eye drops from 7-11 coz my contacts were getting dry n irritating.. mayb i should really get a pair of glasses with nice frames 4 wearing out. but 1 prob: money pls.... I NEED A PT JOB!!!

e movie wasnt tt bad after all.. mayb coz it was kinda exciting at e last part. e front part mayb coz of all e toking, almost made my eyes close. ya la.. we were sitting Couple seats. woohoo~ but.. haha damn comfortable la.. like sofa like tt.. hmm..

so after tt home sweet home le.. took 65... slept on his shoulders. woo.. SWEET! lol

alrite.. 4 sch today did nuting much.. b.o.r.i.n.g. maths lec. 1 hr lunch break. NMM tut. ya got e project 4 NMM le. due on wk 14. panic panic. i juz think there it is not enuff time. gotta start doing research soon. needa do tt.. den reports.. hai. i hate reports. type type type. find pics to scan on e topics i choose. blah.. cant get it from net.. coz.."it has been compressed, edited. gotta start from SCRATCH". bleah. stress stress. hmm.. kinda nice to have a pretty teacher. haha. she tok n look a bit ang mo type n juz love her lips. soft, thick but small n red(mayb tts e effect of lipsticks) juz so nice to kiss. =X not a pervert ba...ok la.. abit jealous la..lol. after tt juz stayed at home check e time 4 e movies. tot could go straight to orchard from sch but 8plus den meeting.. so might as well go home take a nap first. couldnt get in touch with gek ling too. wanted to meet up ma.. den.. hai... go home la!

i seriously HATE those ppl who give me stupid comments. dunno trying to b funny or wat.. i think its being sacarstic lor.. well... i do watever i wanna do. i wanna stand i stand. i wanna sit i sit. i wanna tok, laugh, smile, get crazy its up to me. dun ask me stupid Q like: ""ni zhuo she meh?"(wat r u doing) giving tt kind of look, as if i m doing something weird.. abnormal... juz shut up will do! ok la.. i juz have something against tt person mayb...

THURS:
not a gd day in sch also.. hmm.. should know y... it always happens every now n then. sick of it man. i juz dun wanna repeat myself. juz let me tok to myself n ans my own question pls... i juz starting to dislike sch again. n its only e first wk of sch!

WED:
Taurus: Honesty is your main focus for the day. Don't stray from it.**

went 4 suki buffet after sch. eat eat eat. ya now e k-box student package is so damn cheap! after tt walked ard orchard(dunno how many times i have been to tt place this wk. sian) went to paragon e Gucci shop. having sale or wat. like so damn ex! noticed 1 plain white shoe so damn nice, selling at $600++. -.-" ok.. mayb its alrite 4 e clothes n shoes n blah coz mayb they last longer.. better quality n materials used.. but i find it stupid tt they have those key rings selling at hundred plus. seriously those rich guys have no where else to spend their $ on man.. like give me some pls. ya.. how i wish! was so damn tired after tt.. dragged myself. eyes damn tired. i m not sure these few days i m lack of slp or wat. i juz like to slp so much. or is it coz or e weather? raining almost everyday. managed to drag myself to far east. hmm.. nowadays i juz keep see-ing nike shoes everywhere( limited edition or dunno wat shit) all looks e same to me.. with e nike tick.. juz in diff colours n materials. ok la.. not bad also la... nice too. N I BOUGHT A "TAP N GO" WATCH IN LUMINOUS ORANGE! juz hit it on ur wrist n it will go ard it. nice! i love it so much. its juz 4 $7. after $2 off. cheap la.. dun really mind if e watch wun really last long, i have 2 other watches anyway, 4 formal n non-formal occasions, its enuff already. i can juz get e 'watch face'? out den use e band as an accessory. =)

TUE:
Taurus: Produce a deep, provocative and personal piece of art today.**

nuting much happened in sch la...damn boring. went 4 CDS. all about using search engines to do reaserches. lame. den e "bartender" sat beside me.. haha. tot he gonna sit e row infront of me n kelly but dunno y later asked if any1 sitting beside me. mayb he c same lec hall la.. so juz sit together lor. but i felt damn bad. din tok to him at all.. he alone ma.. den i have kelly.. wa.. like really anti-social ah. but din know wat to say to him also. but hmm.. juz c next wk CDS will sit together again not. juz ask some stupid Q lor.. hmm.. really find him cuter n cuter nowadays.. malay guys also not bad de. juz like e'toot toot' glasses he always wear. so cool. e other day saw him w/o it he juz looked so weird to me.

went to meet ros n qiao mei at orchard. so nice to b with them. i wanna do it more often. dinner at cartel was great. toked about stuffs. den window shopping abit.. looking 4 gifts actually. later meet with kellyne after her work 4 pool at lucky plaza... hmm.. so tt nice la e place.. still like cine kpool! they juz play e songs so damn loud! haha. den later took bus back with ros..

went back to tm rite after sch to return e keys too. saw e girl i dislike while walking dwn e escalator. den juz reminded me about complaining her again. decided to sms e boss saying tt i have returned e key n at e same time let her know what she needed to know. seemed as if i trying to 'sabo' her ah.. but who cares. i m outta there le. juz said tt she sometimes go off w/o imforming me.. go shopping or run errands. juz let her know la. ok used 2 sms 4 tt le.. so was thinking juz say more stuffs n make full use of tt 2nd sms. but i accidentally pressed e 'send' button. so o well.. nvm.. 4 get it. den e boss actually called me 2 times, both missed while i was taking a bus dwn to my dad's place. din dare to call her back..=X but mayb i should have.. mayb she wanted to know more. hai. den she sent me a msg juz saying thanks. hope she was glad she found it out from me.. wat her dear staff have been doing.. hmm..slept on e bus. juz so damn tired. missed my stop man. n i had to walk 1 stop back. -.- late liao lor...

MON:
Taurus: It will be hard to get into the spirit if your basic needs aren't met.**

first day of sch! damn excited. c familiar faces...had new teachers blah...some damn cute.. some damn lame. 1 day of sch, 1st lec already kena scolded. coz was 20mins late.. went to print notes ma.. was scolding us n we 3 couldnt b bother with him.. din 'hiu'? him while he was standing behind us.. juz sat dwn w/o looking back at him. ya.. he is e lame 1. trying to b funny n tell lame jokes only. but not funny lor. another 1 quite cute la.. funny... but 'lor so'.. but mayb its gd to make sure every student knows wat he is teaching but sometimes really take too much of time le. n so on ... with e other teachers.

2004-12-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Pay back old debts. Don't leave anything outstanding. Come clean.** <--sui bian la...

today: Hibernating state. bleah....stayed at home e whole day. excited to go back to sch tomolo but at e same time v sian too. from tomolo onwards, mon-thurs gotta wake up early 4 my lessons which start at 9. only fri i get to slp later coz sch starts at 12. but e shiok part is tt tue n wed my sch ends at 12. i planned wat i gonna do on wed le.. after ach gonna eat suki buffet with cleveland.. den mayb after tt go ktv since i have vouchers 4 k-ster. but i m really not so sure it this whole thing will b cancelled no coz i sensed tt his attitude towards me changed le. damn obvious anyway. i m not sure but think i made e rite move. gotta tell him sooner or later, tt i m attached... well MAY B attached ONLY. i juz din wan him to do so many things.. treat me so gd,in e end get nuting in return, feel cheated only coz i think i have some1 in mind already.i did enjoy photo taking, shopping, n sentosa-exploring moments while i was with him, but i juz think tt we r more suitable to stay as frens (if we both dun mind tt). he is those 'zhu dong' type (mayb gd 4 me coz i kinda 'nei xiang'? or is it 'wai xiang' type?) v caring n 'lor so' sometimes.. but when we meet can really make me wait until 'pek cek'. some things he do also annoys me. he may b e type tt can give me a hug or cuddle when i need 1 but dun think there is "tt much of a connection". sort of emotionally? as in e things we can share together? mayb its too short of a period tt we had known each other i dunno, but i decided to give some1 else a chance first. hope i m doing e rite thing.

e other person is e 1 whom i can c myself with 4 quite a long time. we share alot of things together there.. even our (or mayb only his) relationships stuff.. blah...anything...for hrs. hmm... i actually dun go into a relationship if i think it wun last long. so hopefully it turns out alrite n will cherish e time being with me(not like some other idiots). if e past is to repeat itself again i will make sure they regret it...its their loss. i can most certainly sure of it coz.. it did happen. hai...i m not gd at (or cant) express myself well with body language or in speech...WATEVER. 'shi bai' ah...

"A tattoo is a mark in time based on what you want to say about yourself for the rest of your life." <-- yeah.. i did tot of getting 1....

past few days have been enjoying life with my frens, to e point tt i dun wish to lose this feeling, lose them (if anything were to happen). i juz feel so gd being with them. well mayb tts juz 4 now... but i really wish tt it will last 4ever...our frenship. =) think i have found some1 who can make me feel "safe", who i can trust.

SAT:
Taurus: People have been deceiving you. Today you find out how and why.** <--- O.O 'bu hui ba'... almost hibernated at home. however last min decided to go out. went to c The incrdibles with kenny after so many ppl have said its worth e $... true enuff.. damn cute n funny. n e short story/animation tt they show b4 e movie too. think any "cartoon" movies will have tt... think e other time(last yr if i m not wrong') i watched Finding Nemo it had 1 too.

b4 tt played pool at k-pool. suprise suprise. saw ros n bf at ps too while i was gonna walk to cine. she was taking pics outside starhub. haha. joined her 4 a pic. hehe. n ya i wanna comment on e new food court tt is now open at marina. it has an outdoor dinning place too n has a sea? view. directly across u can c e esplanade. kinda nice.

nope i did not 4get tt i m broke. now i m worse. left juz a few coins in my wallet. gotta refrain from shopping. but now.. to settle my 3 meals also have prob. think gotta withdraw more money from bank le. n something is making me puzzle. y is there a withdrawal or $111.22 from my account on e 25Nov? i lost my memory or wat? cant even remembered wat i did, where i went on tt day. i juz couldnt have bought an item tt expensive. not over a hundred. i have check my stuff in this whole house. nuting reminds me on this.."$111.22 item". ARGH!!! i m finding ways to c if i could check where on earth i have spent this $ at. on wat? mearly juz checking... coz i need to know! rite? like wth....

FRI:
Taurus: Don't get too caught up in the dream of former relationships.**

1. pathetic 45mins (or 30mins coz was 15 mins late) briefing in sch 4 e next sem

2.dinner with polymates! usual group...kelly, leo n ta ming. brenda last min couldnt join us.

ended up at cartel 4 dinner after much discussion n changing of minds. den next was ktv at chinatown. wanted to look 4 e 1 my fren said is juz $10 bucks but... went to k-ster lor. damn ex i muz say. $14/person. 4 juz 3hrs. think compared to kbox de student package not worth it lor. n e sound system wasnt as gd either. -.-... mayb juz use up e vouchers they give 4 joining their membership n nv go back there anymore.

after tt went home together with ta ming le lo.. took bus to bedok den cab. nice journey home with him. like e anklet(which i tot was a bracelet until i got home) which he bought from taiwan. gonna change e length 4 my wrist le. was looking 4 a bracelet too. nice timing. hehe. damn paiseh tt i din get anything 4 him n others from bali too. but he damn nice de la.. wun mind such things de. damn sweet lor. bought things 4 every1. o ya. he is a "techno" kinda person. dun look like eh.. we would sometimes juz exchange mp3... hehe

ya at tm with leo juz now b4 meeting ta ming, he said he say sg sly. at orchard they saw daphane. damn it. i damn blind or wat... both also din c. hai. n leo said leandra was at cheeky monkey tonite. haha.. too bad he din get to go. boo! so.. today's a nite out 4 e sg idols huh.. haha.. so where was maia? out too? or at home babysitting?

THURS:
Taurus: Strut your stuff. Don't hide away. A confident attitude wins.**

nuting much today. juz met sam 4 dinner n found out about this "dinner on e boat" thingy from him. damn sweet n lomantic ah..haha. but dun think will b going.. juz not so sure about spending money on tt though i do like e idea. ya.. told cleveland about e stuffs.... blah...

WED:
Taurus: Miscommunication will plague you during the next three weeks.** <-- no! i will not make tt happen!

Taufik Batisah won e sg idol tittle! gd... tt was wat i wish 4.. well i juz prefer him more than e sly... sly's It's my life juz went haywire lo... din sound tt gd...

at nite was damn crazy. went 4 a nite run. sam go crazy with me. din managed to jog much in e park at my place. sam suggested to run some where else. tot tt was insane coz i havent ran 4 a long time n tot i couldnt do it.. but i did! suprisingly... ran towards simei green.. expo tt stretch of rd towards changi airort de.. den thru e housing estates which leads to melville park. so.. now i know how to walk out to take bus 24 to changi airport if i have to... after e long jog sat at e playground n chit chat 4 some time b4 we decided to go 4 supper at 201. roti prata again of coz. later go home bathe le.. den soon fell aslp.

in e afternoon actually met gek ling to go to my aunt's condo e gym. but last min couldnt so after catching up with her at tm a while i went there alone. managed to use e "lifts" there which i failed e last time.. then e cycling 1. dunno wat happened to e treadmill, couldnt use.. so hack. left e place after tt. tt explains y i wanted to go 4 e nite run. hai.. juz realized tt i need some workout man.

2004-11-28T22:23:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Kind words will help to smooth things over. Be gentle and loving.**

yesterday's concert was GREAT! e indoor stadium full house man. jay sang damn well.. all nice songs..Landy n 'na quan ma ma' were his guests. there was this part where 1 of e 'nan quan ma ma' n jay played e piano. POWER! n din know jay knows how to play e drums. he played e flute as well n of coz e piano. really wondered how it feels like to b on stage to perform 4 so many ppl... sounds kinda cool man. n i like his first suit he wore alot. black suit jacket n tie full of crystals. shuai man. now i m in love with e landy's song tt jay sang e first part followed by landy herself: "Zhu wo shen ri kuai le". tts e song u r hearing now.. yup.. i changed my blog song to tt.ya.. took pics there but all r taken from e screen. coz if not it will b damn small. better than nuting la.. but my sis who went on fri took better pics. all r up on my online photo album.. ppl who r reading this, go check it out! bali pics r uploaded too. really love some of e sceneries pics i took.

after e concert my fren's uncle drove us to kallang airport de hawker centre 4 supper den drove me back le.. n ya.. e stupid person bought me a ring with flashing lights.-.- i wonder wat can i do with it now.. mayb wear it to count down parties or wat. or go clubbing can wear ah... lol. i shall c ok...

b4 e concert went back to bugis there n bought my bag! i think tomolo i will b getting a pouch from addidas too. hmm... n i saw 2 nice white shoulder bag at citylink. dunno which 1 to buy. omg. i m like buying so many bags now....

THURS:
Taurus: The one who is foreign to the situation doesn't fully understand it.**

went to c Saw. at last! damn disgusting.. but nice. e sicko damn clever.. have ways to make ppl kill themselves. n e last part suprised every1. e sicko is actually e 1 lying in btw e 2 guys tt were chained in e toilet.hmm.. interesting. later went to meet erica. at bugis. havent met 4 a long time le. n e andy had to 'put us plane'. last min had a meeting. wat to do.. bz man.

TUE:
Taurus: Your love life is about to take a significant turn in a new direction.**

went sentosa! din managed to tan much coz by e time we reached there, bought a mat..it started to rain. tt was like less than an hr lor...-.- (hai.. was thinking should have went cine instead c Saw.. coz atually waited 4 my fren 4 almost an hr-.- sian le lor. no mood le lor. 1st time i c a guy so ma fan so 'bu jun shi'..hai...sickening) went to find shelter... had a bit of ice cream b4 i suggested having jap food. there is sake sushi lor. hmm.. lomantic ah... go all e way there to eat sake den was pouring like hell all e way. .... after our meals we started to snap away with my digi cam. i muz really say this is like e v first time i take pics like mad. den after we left e place n took e train ride.. realized we 4got to take my fren's sun tan lotion.. n towel. yup. u heard it rite.. towel.. haha... at e sake. could hae went back to get it but..hai... so after a few rds of rides went to bathe le. after tt juz nice. e rain had stopped.went to e beach take a few more pics..(took pics of peacocks too) den went to c e musical fountain after taking a bite @ bk. more pics again. like alot of tourists lor.. e place was packed man. like e musical fountain. with e lasers everything..

really enjoyed myself.. supposed to go c Saw but my fren's eyes kena irritated.. both became red.. so oh well... another day then.. went orchard OG to get my water bottle den hm sweet hm le lo...

MON:
Taurus: The pressure is off. You can be yourself again. Speak the truth.**

meet up with kelly 4 ktv session. coz i took a day's off..(or 2days) lied tt i was having a fever coz i was damn sick of working... having to work with those ppl... so luckily kelly free. went 4 lunch den it was 5hrs straight of singing le. ah... at least better than e 1 at tamp. but e startting part dunno wats wrong with us.. couldnt quite sing..ha.. den after tt went to take neoprint at heerens. like 1 tt goes.."lesbian?".."love's in e air"..ha.. coz din know wat to pose so i was like gonna 'kiss' her... cute! ha... later walk ard..dinner at far east den home le.

ya.. some1 have bf le ah.. hmm... me leh? hmm.. sometimes 'mei you jiu shi mei you..you jiu lai liang ge..'..argh...

wanna have another outing with my classmates again b4 sch reopens. go eat together. think most prob wun b changing class next sem ba.. so guess will b c-ing those familiar faces again.. =D
bad news is tt will b c-ing tt group of sucky ppl again..hai...

2004-11-27T13:32:00.000+08:00

Taurus: People will be extra fickle today. You can't fully trust their words.**

tonight i will b going to JAY CHOU's CONCERT! gonna drop by my dad's place later to collect e digi cam. zzz.. so troublesome. my sis actually went with her fren too. bought 2 $128 tix at $60.
but me.. i got it F.O.C! hehe... cleveland bought 2 tix n dunno y his fren dun wanna go le or wat.. so juz ask me to accompany him lor.. kao. $148 de leh..he actually got another 2 tix from his uncle.. but he din know what to do with it..in e end.. his uncle BOUGHT it back from him. -.- poor uncle.

b4 going to kallang will b walking ard at suntec den bugis to get my sling bag. should b going back to bugis 'e edge' there to get it. alot of things i wanna get.. a small shoulder bag too.. trying not to spend $ on clothes le.. no job le..will b looking ard again..if no choice i will b doing f&b.. or go to e agency.

FRI:
Taurus: A change in your financial situation will make things a bit tighter.**

ya.. yesterday i went to c my mum. she almost couldnt regconize me. think i too long nv go le.. when i c her she changed alot too. grew older. more white hair. n dunno y.. her hand juz keeps shaking. =( hai...

den after tt went bugis alone walk ard.. looking 4 my bag. actually sms my fren earlier on... tot have dinner together coz i was at hougang area. he stays at sengkang. but.. i din even get a reply. not even 3hrs later. rude man. i hate it. ok... enuff le lor. dun expect anything from me from now on.. u have reached my limit! hai.. den i bought kfc home. funny thing happened. e guy who got e money from me suddenly said " u from tp rite?" i was like ya.. thinking to myself tt he saw my ez link in my wallet or something... until he said "u look familiar.. seen u some where" ok.. found out tt he is from business n often goes to ITAS to find his fren.hmm.. too bad.. he is not tt gd looking..=X

later at nite go meet sam tok tok. almost 4 got e time man...2plus den went home. dunno wat e hell we toked. ha.. den my hp batt flat. my fren tot wat happened to me man... sms me no reply. call me listen to my voice mail song only. =X quickly gave him a call when i reached home.

gotta go get ready le.. cont this part or write another 1 when i reach home later..

2004-11-21T02:18:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Family members will help ease the pain of recent stress and turmoil.** <-- H.E.L.P!

I WANNA CRY MAN! ='( waaa.....

IM SICK OF WORKING!!! CAN'T WAIT 4 SCH TO REOPEN! 2 MORE WKS! (siao liao..ya.. later sch reopens n i cant wait 4 hol le..-.-)

becoz of work i seriously have no life. NO LIFE! work all day. 6days a wk.all i do is wake up..go to work.. slp..wake up.. go to work.. blah blah BLAH! ok.. sometimes do go out... go kopi with frens.. but wat else can u do after all e shops r close. cant go shopping lor.. go play pool only..bleah!

i miss my tv. i miss my music. i miss my 93.3fm. i miss my ktv. I MISS MY CAREFREE/SLACKING DAYS! alrite.. kinda slack at work too but it is B.O.R.E.D there lor. totally different when u slack at home man. mayb not so bad coz i get paid too. but.. really..BTH!

when is my next off day? when can i go sun tan? when can i go shopping? when can i go ktv? when can i go eat my suki sushi? when can i go c my "Saw"? hai.. i need to know my schedule to plan my stuffs in advance lor! brainless pigs... pt so wat? no respect man..

really in a bad mood now. coz of work.. hai. stood e whole day at isetan... damn tired lor! suppose to work upstairs but dunno y e stupid "boss's daughter" said she is suppose to go up instead. damn it.. should have gotten her to call e office to check. was thinking nvm coz i din wanna stay upstairs fight with e girl 4 commision. tiring too also.. nvm.. at least had e 2girls from 'Kawaii' to tok. hai.. went to break with weli today. went to esprit too. n found out tt my classmate who supposedly reserved a bag 4 me to get her fren to help me get it at staff price.. a discount of 50%. n wat did e fren say..."all displayed outside... is e ppl display de.." something like tt.. wah lau.. how to get them to do things man.. like wat e hell.. wat was i waiting 4? now e bag is at 50% off le lor. IDIOTS! still thinking whether to get it not.. really wan a sling bag. but i scared of wasting my $. later buy le dun carry also wasted.. like my op bag.. hai..those useless stuffs r really taking up space man. collecting dust. still thinking of how i would get rid of them. put up 4 auctionn on ebay? wonder who would wan my stuffs...have been spending alot 4 e past few days.. weeks... i will think about it tomolo again when i go to work. ya.. 2 days ago while i was working at parkway bought a sort of a "dress" from esprit. got it after 50% discount rather than e 30% they were having.. thanks to cai er. really nice.. e kind i was looking 4.. its 1side off shoulder...long sleeve.. n e skirt is connected to e top.. get wat i mean? like a mini skirt?(or watever length u wan coz u can pull it dwn la..) nice lor.. ok la.. wear it with a pair of heels. a bit 4 e clubbing type la.. blah.. really enuff or spending man.. i wanna get a handbag with a short handle which u can carry on ur shoulder type to go along with it too.. saw 1 nice 1 at op.. juz e rite size. but not e material. it is a bit more of a casual kind... with jeans its alrite.. but if a bit formal.. leather type would b much better.. =( wasted

n ya.. i have a feeling tt my phone bill 4 this month will b more ex... =X opps...

4 e past few days i have been trying to think wat day was it... thurs? wed? really confused. dunno y.. cant seem to get e time of e wk rite.

christmas coming again liao.. hai.. gonna say bye bye to yr 2004..hai.. yi tian yi tian de lau qu...next time become an ugly old ah ma le.. =(

2004-11-16T17:29:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Do more for your community. Get involved with volunteer programs.**

off today. sian. suppose to go to c SAW with my fren but he couldnt take leave coz of his hair cutting test or wat. bleah. i shall slack at home n c tv den. been really bz with work.. dun even read newspapers nowadays. really dun have a clue wats happening ard me man... hai.

MON:

Taurus: Young people have an important lesson for you today. Listen up.**

i have no idea how many movies i have watched 4 e past 2wks man. n now i m DEAD BROKE! kept withdrawing money from my bank. watched...b4 sunset, shutter, e forgotten n watched ladder49 with cai er n ta ming tonte after my work. din wanna c tt but cai er bought e tix le.. sui bian lor.. nv c movie with her b4 also.. i owe her 1 man.. she din wanna take my money so juz treat her to nachos. still.. i owe her a movie. ya.. worked at tm isetan today. sold 2 items only.. -.- hai.. damn sian there also lor..gotta stand all e time. but at least 2nd day there le.. tok tok a bit with those ppl ard me. =) den lunchtime went to eat with weili coz she working at bodyshop. not bad.. have company... hehe.. N I LIKE E COLOURFUL CUSHIONS (or huggies) ON E SHELFS BEHIND ME! especially e ORANGE 1! damn bright. juz e way i like it. next time when i gonna have a house of my own i gotta get them 4 my sofa. but it was damn ex. a bit big la.. but still... its $38+ lor..-.- (or is it ard $50? cant b..watever.. ex jiu dui le) think coz its from japan.. tts y. its damn soft lor! hai..

SUN:

Taurus: You will hear many unspoken words today. Read between the lines.**

worked at parkway isetan today alone. not bad. get to sit.. have a counter of our own. actually wore a halter to work but in e end it wasnt allowed. so went giordano to get a plain black v-neck top. ok la.. i know abit of common sense la, but if i din 4get to bring my cardigan, n when i did n i wasnt at e bus stop already, n i wasnt late.. i would have tt with me n could juz wear over my halter.. hai.. nvm. quite enjoyed working there coz at least i had company.. all aunties. haha.. ya la.. mayb i like them la.. gossip alot tts y i can communicate with them.. bleah. better than nuting la.. not bad la today.. my sales was $406.60. heng heng only lor..hope i get my commision 4 today.. pierced a girl's ear today. now i a bit steady liao la. all i need is more practice. need more guinea pigs..hehe. =X

after work went to play pool at megapool with sam.den later ecp. asked him there coz e other time he wanted to go. so since i working at parkway so sui bian lor. so sat ard.. chat chat about our stuffs.. blah.. =) really nice.. chilling out..took a cab home ard 1plus.

lastly.. really nice having these ppl to accompany me when i m bored. thru sms also better than nuting..dropping by n say hi... accompany me 4 my meals.. =) thanks alot!

2004-11-12T02:59:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Advice from siblings will end up being handier than you think.**

woohoo~ yesterday hol.. double pay! hai.. worked from 1-8 only..(think they wanna save some $ man..nvm.. better than nuting...) so din take my break so tt i could go off ealry to catch e movie "Shutter" which e last time slot for today(or yesterday...) was 7.10pm. was late 4 e show again so missed a bit of e front part.. argh.. e girl again la.. went dwn stairs isetan our promotion there.. idiotic man. ok la.. my fren was about 3-5mins late too.. Cleveland <-- (kinda unique name huh.. at first tot he was crazy bout a thing called 'cleveland' or wat.. coz seemed as if like fairy land or wat.. __land kind of thing..) damn funny man 1 part when e toilet wasnt a female ghost but an 'ah gua' ..haha.. laugh till peng even after we left e cinema. coz he is a hairstylist. so e other day he was like toking about male hair stylists being gay...sissy.. so.. ya.. haha.. funny la. after tt went to eat again(seriously wanna vomit man) ate 'fan choy' n a big glass of soya bean milk.. tt 1 u drink too much really can vomit man.. den ok.. dunno wat to do le.. so went home. b4 tt heng heng saw weli working at e body shop. hmm.. so chat a little.. kinda like her new hairstlye.. short n sweet!

but actually later went to meet sam 4 a drink at 201(omg.. again..ok i ate 'cheng teng' till wanna vomit also..) den chat chat abit.. blah.. till bout 12 plus den here i m.. online to blog. ya.. damn sweet thing he did was to get me an Anna Sui's OHH LA LOVE perfume.. dunno watever 4 but.. hm.. ok..juz treat it as an early christmas present. hai..at first said he wanna pass me something i was like thinking wat could it b.. hmm...

n i got my stretchable black pants at last! say bye bye to my fren's big n baggy pants le.. haha.. quite happy with my purchase.. $36 bucks but ok la 4 a bottom... i seriously hate to get pants or jeans man.. it seems diff to get 1 tt has e rite cutting tt is juz rite 4 u n 1 tt u would really like..

WED:

Taurus: Let your dreams come from your own imagination - not someone else's.**

was off.. wanted to ask kelly n e rest to go kbox but afternoon she cannot.. so was thinking e student package is e cheapest le lor.. evening de damn ex.. so in e end went to tamp de with Cleveland. ok.. a bit funny.. meet some1 e first time go sing k le.. mayb tt explains y tt was 1 of e worst times i sing so badly..i DUN sing well.. but really tt day sing till v 'xing ku' lor.. felt as if there was something at my throat.. den it was all dry... mayb din drink enuff fluids 4 e past few days..or juz too 'paiseh' la.. he sang damn well lor! kao! (*open mouth man..) in e end we juz paid 10 bucks each lor.. like damn cheap lor! dunno how they calculate de .. den they wrote wrong rm no. too.. but watever! hehe.. juz dun come n give us another bill later will do. den was damn funny.. went to e toilet.. den when i was walking back i was like shit! 4got to check e rm no.! like wth..n e place damn 'fu za' lor.. hai.. was hoping tt 1 of e staff dun c me walking here n there man... pai seh ah. ya.. e waiter there not bad.. cute.. haha.. but dun think i will b going back there.. dunno y.. while we were singing there was like echo lor.. mayb we din set e thing rite la but.. hmm.. c la..

later was dinner at bk den went to make my flip flops..(din know it cost so much like 5bucks to get e sole done. n really dunno how 'chor lor' i walked while i was at bali till 1 side of it came off. kinda brand new 1 some more..-.-) den went 4 pool.. ok la.. place damn 'lan' so played 2 games n off we go.. e girl there also have attitude prob.. aiya.. dun wanna say le la.. went 'ya kun' eat again.. actually went there 4 kopi de but mouth itchy so bought e kaya toast too. hmm.. dunno y.. din enjoy it much as b4.. coz i think e last time i ate e kaya was like v smooth n melts in ur mouth like e butter.. mayb they din do it properly ba. ok.. eat till wanna vomit also.. hai..

din know wat else to do also lor.. so ya.. went home.. hmm.. not bad ah.. he likes to eat n shopping too. haha..have another khaki le.. said wanna shop together once we get our pay but like difficult lor.. dunno when will we get e same off day again...watever! enuff of me spending $ le..hai... 1 thing bad bout him is tt sometimes tok to him no reply de.. or his reply damn slow de.. i hate it when ppl does tt lor.. ignoring me.. hump!

2004-11-08T03:27:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Be more proactive in order to create harmony with your family.** <-- hmm...

sian.. still dunno whether i will b working tomolo. waititng 4 e siti to cfm with me e time.. hope i get another off day.. yeah rite.. i wish!

SUN:
Taurus: You have lost communication with someone special. Try to regain it.**

juz now went to my cousin's wedding dinner at suntec.. yup e bride was v pretty of coz.. =D~ hmm.. so so la e food.. besides my aunt n uncle at e table.. e rest all dunno 1.. -.- ... not so bad la.. had my sis sitting next to me to chit chat.. ok la.. nuting to say about it la..

b4 going 4 e dinner.. met up with sam to c BEFORE SUNSET! nice show.. some parts damn funny n cute too.a bit boring though coz e whole movie was only showing a man n woman having a conversation.but e things they were saying kinda relate to us la..(or me.. coz wat e girl said during some parts of e show reminded me of myself..n also felt e same way she did regarding some issues) makes alot of sense lor.... about love n everything.. i seriously recommend this movie. ok.. mayb e ending wasnt tt clear at all..n every1 was like..-.-zzz.. but i believe tt both of them in e end would eventually b together. =) i waiting 4 e vcd to come out man.. n my fren was like toking bout AFTER SUNRISE or wat.. dunno la.. think gonna check it out.

Quote from e movie: "sometimes its better to b alone than to have ur lover beside u n still feeling lonely.." <-- true true

blah blah.. cant remember e others..but like e things she said when she was in e car with e guy...

after e movie went to find my samsung data cable.. n i bought it. damn shitty.. at e wedding dinner my sis was like saying she have e data cable le..-.-.. sickening.. din tell me earlier when she knew i bought a samsung hp.. hai.. i also 4got myself.. argh!!! waste my $.. trying to sell it man.. den got a G.U.E.S.S? watch at taka.. used my e $100 G.U.E.S.S voucher which i got from starhub when i bought my hp. so only paid $19 bucks 4 e branded watch! not bad eh... was actually thinking of getting a more chunky 1... e "leather cuff" is much more thicker.. but my fren was thinking its too big 4 my small wrist.. so anything la.. kinda like e 1 i bought too. it can b both casual n formal lor.. so.. not bad la..

den went e taka big watson too... went there to get my eye lash curled n use e mascara there.. haha.. nt bad.. managed to learn abit of the technique of using e curler from e girl there.. so tt e lashes wun clump together. blah.. bought myself an eye liner too.. not sure how to draw my eyes though but i gonna do some "practicals" on myself first...

saw e mediacorp 'xu mei zhen' at wisma n my fren was making fun of her again.. about e nose.. looking like a bird's or wat from e side view.. e 2nd time i walked pass her n i looked carefully.. yup.. he was rite.. she has flaws too...

damn tired now at e moment.. gonna slp liao.. guess i will write about my bali trip some other day... n gonna post e pics i took there onto my webby soon... hehe..

2004-11-03T16:46:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Conversations with others will help give you leads in your career.**

woohoo~ a few hrs later i will b off to bali ! bye bye singapore! but e sad thing is tt i m going with my dad only.. v lomantic..-.- ... my stupid sis not going.. argh!!! at least she go can go to e beach together tan tan a bit.. hai.. sickening la.. better have things 4 me to do there lor... gonna shop man! hmm.. go c c have any nice souvenirs to bring back 4 my frens... hehe..

i will b back!

TUE:

Taurus: If you want something to happen for you, visualize it happening.**

omg.. today bought another top again.. a pink halter.. e first pink top i ever own! kinda alrite.. $10 only. so sui bian la.. i dunno i go there work or go shopping de.. haha.. not bad la.. long breaks can go walk walk... but sooner or later i m gonna get sick of tt place le.. in e afternon e sales were damn poor lor.. was spending my time reading mag, until i bth..eyes wanna close le den i went 4 my dinner break. den was walking ard when heng heng saw cai er, sally n wei li. so went to eat together.. hehe.. later at nite 8plus jiu bz le..den there was this guy from 'courts' bought a set of jewellery...den got a free pair of pearl earings for his gf.. n found out she have e same name as me when he asked 4 my name b4 he left.. hmm.. nice chatting with too la..

after work went to meet ta ming at 201 4 supper.. really nice chatting with him...

MON:

Taurus: Don't blame yourself for other people's emotional difficulties.**

hmm.. did nuting much ba.. ya bought tt black lacey top from pepperplus. wanted to get e purplr 1 but was thinking it wun really look gd when pair it with jeans. e whole day i was like practically working alone lor.. e girl kept going else where.. sickening.. den damn irritated with her when she quarrelled with her bf.. 1 pt of time when it was kinda bz..she juz left w/o telling me.. wth.. den later she came back crying..later was on e phone too.. like wth.. u working lor... -.- 1 pt of time she also said going to popular to get something.. when she came back i saw a pen knife in e plastic bag.. n her wrist got a cut. -.-..bu hui ba.. do such stupid things... hai.. i dunno wats she thinking..

n i actually pierced 2 pl ears today.. scary man.. e little girl actually cried when i pierced e 2nd ear 4 her.. scared me man.. tot i did anything wrong.. but later she alrite le.. den was constantly looking at herself smiling.. den did it 4 her aunt too(student still).. by tt time my hand was damn shakey liao.. hai.. luckily i still did kinda fine la.. but pls.. dun let me to tt again..

after work juz went 201 4 supper with my "neighbours"...not bad...had a nice time chatting with sam... =)

2004-11-01T02:34:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Enjoy a large breakfast before you even think about anything else.**

woke up late today.. seriously i din remember hearing e alarm of my hp go off.. had only 45mins to prepare myself to get out of e house man..in e end still late la.. luckily my work started at 1 today...posted to tm today to work. not bad.. better than yesterday.. get to sit.nope.. din wear heels today.. learnt my lesson liao.. but seriously abit boring lor when there r no customers. stare stare till my eyes tired le.. almost fell aslp with my eyes opened..0.0 den heng heng saw my cousin there.. haha.. so sweet.. he was looking 4 his gf.. nv c her b4 so i asked him to bring her to me when he have found her but he din.. argh.. my aunt say she is pretty.. woohoo~ damn curious man..my cousin also not bad looking de hor.. den served another cute girl today..(ya.. every1 is cute la..haha).. a bit e chio type..den blur blur face.. though was dressed kinda casual but still 'style' enuff (like topshop kind of girl) den was looking 4 something to wear to her bro's wedding..toked a bit.. joke a bit.. gave her suggestions..(hope she agreed with me too..n is happy with her purchase).. bought something 4 her 'elegant' fren's 21st bday too. cool~ spent a total more than 30mins doing tt ba.. at least did buy something..but anyway.. i had fun too.. was bored anyway..

so tomolo working with e same girl again.. not bad...hope my sales will b better tomolo if not later surely kena fired.=X bleah... den saw a top at pepper plus..not bad.. woo.. tomolo gonna go try it. n damn tempted to buy e ear rings there man..look damn pretty man.. ah.. no i cannot!! o ya.. we get to wear e ear rings there while working.. hehe.. nice nice.

SAT:

Taurus: Schedule events considering other people's plans, not just your own.**

was a damn tiring day man. stood e whole day n i was wearing heels lor...OUCH! at e shop saw alot of 'tai tais' lor.. din have much sales also.. damn bad man. den later at nite there was a cute..sweet girl.. she came back another time n got a brooch. when she was gonna make e payment.. another girl asked her to buy another item so tt she can get e 3rd item free. o when she started to look at e earings again.. i jokingly said: "she is more experienced la tts y can persuade u to buy." den she was like. " i may not buy leh.." den tok a bit.. joke a bit.. den she commented on e earing i was wearing, saying it looked gd on me. den din c e baby blue 1 until e later part. so when she said blue is nicer than e white n pink we saw.. i told her i could take out den let her try.. she was liek..eee... haha.. den told her of coz i would clean it b4 letting her try it on la.. funny man.. cute la she.. so in e end she bought e white 1 so tt she could match with her pink dress or tops.. n another earing. she is also into those dangling ones.. same as me! den 1 part think she said "not a bad sales person ah u.." something like tt or wat la.. coz i manged to get her to buy another item rather than juz e brooch. den i told her: "ni shi wo jing tian jui chen gong de lor." (meaning e most successful de customer i managed to persuade to buy more stuff..? think chi la..) den she was like: "really' ... its true lor.. den i told her it was my first day of work so.. ya.. not used to it.. blah la..den 4 both breaks went with e other new girl. at first tot not bad but later so so la.. a bit ah lian la. den.. her sales did better than me lor.. den tok to those girls there.. i like extra la.. den 1 thing i can say about is tt she smoke damn fast lor. n i really mean FAST. u c le think u will also think wat e hell is she really smoking man.. -.-...

den damn sickening.. batt flat again.. argh.. so lent her hp awhile 4 my sim card. next time gonna carry e spare batt man.. so while doing tt outside orchard mrt.. heng heng saw xiu xia n liqin. haha.. said next time chiong together.. well i will c how when e time comes.. so later met dan n ivan go chinablack with his frens. n i gotta go in! woohoo~! was thinking since i at orchard juz go try to get in lor.. cannot e most go home lor. but heng ah. den heng heng saw pei yuan! my classmate!.. while Q-ing up. so sweet of him to actually say hi to me.. coz not close to him also.. like nv tok de lor.. din know he is such a chiongster.. wahaha.. saw him at e dance floor too.. hehe.. damn shiok la e songs.. said to say its a bit better than devils bar. coz most of e songs 'ting de dong' de lor... tt time they kept saying they play rnb songs.. tot all e way.. but actually alot of pop too lor.. black eye peas..linkin park..kylie..even jet-r u gonna b my girl also have wor! haha.. damn shiok ah! MUSIC IS MY LIFE MAN! though cant dance well.. but..=P damn crowded lor.. v few actually take e trouble to dress up coz of halloween ma.. saw i 'micheal jackson' guy.. 1 of e gd looking ppl.. danced damn well man.. bravo! so left tt place about 3plus when e rest gonna go far east find their fren awhile.. damn cham lor.. when i on my hp so many ppl sms me.. argh.. les too.. hai.. mayb we could have went 4 a midnite movie ah.. hai...i wanna c my "B4 sunset".. c e ratings like damn gd.. a bit of e romance de also la.. yup.. my feet was aching so damn badly lor. when i was looking at my feet my veins were like poping out le lor..kao! OUCH! den took e nite rider to 201.. den was dragging myself home man. was so desperate to take off my heels till i was thinking could i actually walk home bare footed? hmm.. nah.. disgusting...

2004-10-29T04:23:00.000+08:00

Taurus: The Full Moon is in your sign. Let it all out and don't hold back.**

having bad mood again... feeling kinda low. everything is coming back to me.. yes..AGAIN. all bcoz of my fren. told me about his things which reminded me of mine. kill me man kill me. i m seriously sick n tired of this.

i have alot to say actually but i juz dunno how to start.nvm...dun think i will b including them here today. nobody can help me n i will b kinda repeating myself anyway...4get it.

god... my head is spinning.

i feel..STRESSED.bored.MAXED OUT.hurt.ANGRY.confused.MISUNDERSTOOD.disappointed.TRAPPED.frustrated.LONELY.numb.EXCLUDED. blahhhh................

im not an actress. this is e way i m. u r c-ing e real me. so take it or leave it. "coz this life. is too short. to live it juz. 4 u. when u feel. so powerless. wat r u gonna do? say wat u want."

Left outside alone- Anastacia

Left broken empty in despair Wanna breath can? find air Thought you were sent from up above But you and me never had love So much more I have to say Help me find a way And I wonder if you know How it really feels To be left outside alone When it? cold out here Well maybe you should know Just how it feels To be left outside alone To be left outside alone I tell ya.. All my life I?e been waiting For you to bring a fairytale my way Been living in a fantasy without meaning It? not okay I don? feel safe I need to pray Why do you play me like a game? Always someone else to blame Careless, helpless little man Someday you might understand There? not much more to say But I hope you find a way
TUE:
Taurus: Vote with your wallet. Put your money into places you support.**

went orchard with ros n angeline. supposed to go john little to interview 4 e cashier position but backed out e last min. in e end went to Bedazzled-a costume jewellery shop. CHEN GONG! starting work this sat. not bad. den later at far east there guess who i saw. its sg singer HUANG YI DA with his fren!.. ok la.. not bad la... not really crazy bout him also. 4 dinner. went to aljunid? met my sis n dad eat vegetarian food. -.- tt was my first n last pls. its HORRIBLE. was DISGUSTED man. e meat tasted like e cream which doc would give 4 ur chicken pox lor. =P~~~~~~ pui! how could any1 enjoy eating tt? YUCK! if it's not 4 my dad's bday i wouldnt have gone there! after dinner, was waiting 4 my bus with my sis at e bus stop when we saw a... sort of a "tim sum" coffeeshop or wat. den my sis bought me an egg tart juz in time when my bus came. so sweet of her. it was damn nice man. gonna go back 4 more next time. another sweet thing my sis did was tt she called me on my hp juz to ask where i was sitting on e double decker coz her bus juz passed mine. hehe... den at e rd junction managed to spot her b4 her bus turns rite. was waving to her kinda frantically when i noticed e guy siting 2 seats behind me peeping at me behind a girl's head,trying to c wth i was doing.. haha... who cares. =D nuting means more than my sis. =) not even my so called "frens"...

went dwn to changi aloha chalet. n i almost got lost. got kinda fed up man. changed a few buses n walked quite a distance to get to tt stupid place. if not with e help of e bus drivers i would have gone home! den ya.. sort of regretted going there..(again) did nuting much there.. c tv.. played 2-4games of dai dee. learnt a bit of majong from ta ming while they were playing. yup. den nuting else. got kinda bored when they e rest were playing wrestling (so sorry tt i m not into those ok...) taking pics or watever shit.couldnt slp. in e end couldnt ta han anymore went to call my TT FREN to tok. -.- i know i shouldnt have done tt. den after tt was thinking of meeting up 4 breakfast since his work place was ard tt area too.. but in e end i din give him morning call or anything coz was thinking.. aiya.. wat 4.. if he really wanna go no need morning call also can get up de ma.. den 4get it. let him slp lor. after tt call they decided to play "TO1(used our tutorial group no. instead of sg) Idol". ok.. i admit. it was kinda cool n fun. we had e interview part n performing part. 4 e interview part e guys really looked like slyvester. with e "i will rock e idol world!" n tt hand signal he would always do. haha.. damn pro lor. 4 e performace part all we had to do was to select a song from e mp3 player n hold on to e air-con remote, pretending it was e mic. den we juz had to open our mouth n look as if we were singing. everything was recorded with e digi cam 4 later viewing. cool eh... all of this ended at about 5 n it was bedtime! at tt pt of time actually our cha;et phone rang. 0.0 suprisingly... without any1 knowing our chalet no. .. not even e other classmates.. n no1 called out using tt phone.. yet. *GLUP funny funny...

WED:

Taurus: Judge based on what you have seen, not on what you have heard.**

after every1 had woke up n bathed, we decided to walk to changi village 4 lunch. -.- seriously.. it was damn stupid to go buy 5packs of maggi mee lor 4 those 2 days b4 e bbq actually starts. 5x5=25packets. too much le lor. as if gonna have tt 4 their 3meals -.-. i rather use it 4 tidbits lor. -.- watever! in e end i din have lunch coz gonna meet my fren 4 tt too.adios man... yup. i actually went home. n i m seriously broke coz of this stupid thingy!

so in e afternoon slacked alot..played with my hp cam. e different modes. den sort of used e photoimpression to put a few pics together. it made me started to think again.. Y I M NOT IN DESIGN COURSE!!!!! argh... sickening..

at nite again was on e phone with my "auntie angie" again. we crapped alot. he wanted to change his msn so we began to have funny ideas. he was thinking of this song "lets get retarded" so we came up with a lot of stupid things with e word "retarded". ok la.. we were damn lame. this is how lame i can get if i m in a gd mood, n i know i m included in e conversation or wat. so slept ard 5 again...-.-

THUR:

Taurus: If you are going to take action, act toward peace, not conflict.**

slept till ard 1plus den i had to get ready to meet my fellow classmates to go 4 e bbq liao.. so basically did nuting much but eat n c tv. it's not tt i dun wanna help ok. watever la.. but kinda alrite.. had a bit of e "bonding" time with my classmates whom i seldom tok to. so left tt place at 10plus with john. though weng n py were stayin there n was thinking mayb stay over also not tt bad since they r there. but i stopped myself from doing tt. coz i dun wanna later regret again 4 making e wrong decision n i would b cursing myself again... well they can enjoy themselves w/o me.. it makes no difference whether i m there or not...take up space only.

i m like a puzzle. solve me. but no1 does tt coz no1 has e patience. every1 is changing. every1 is going after things tt they think would satisfy them which i think is more physically than mentally. every1 is trying to b some1 they r not., following e foot steps of others. mayb its wrong 4 me to use "every1" here.. hmm...

i may seem boring to u coz u havent really discovered e real me. its juz e surface u r looking at. tts wat most of u ppl r doing. mayb i m missing out lots of things while being a "boring person", but i sometimes think tt 'jian dan jiu shi mei'... simplicity is a virtue. so while i m being tt... some ppl r after fame, popularity(i m not toking bout celebrities here)...mayb they get a satisfaction from tt i dunno. mayb tts a gd thing.. making e most out of their lives while on earth. i dunno. weell... this is e way i m.. take it or leave it. i need no idiots to give me their stupid comments n expect me to change n b like them.b some1 whom i m not. no thanks man. u juz get out of my way will do. i still quite like e way i m.

i need some1 who i can trust. all i need is sincerity(meaning: The quality or condition of being sincere; genuineness, honesty, and freedom from duplicity.)

2004-10-25T18:16:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Even though you remember well, that doesn't mean you should. Let go.**

o well.. today will b slacking at home again.. no programs nuting.. n tomolo is my class chalet le.. still deciding whether to go or not. really damn broke. but who knows.. i may b going.. =P i should b going la huh.. o.0 argh!!! but i gonna "kill" myself if it turns out to b like ros's chalet e other time.. =( ahh!! fan ah!
SUN:
Taurus: The next four weeks are the most climactic time of year for you.**

slept at 5+..6 in e morning! siao liao.. chatted with my frens in msn till e sun gonna come out liao. was clearing some doubts or misunderstanding.. kinda alrite.. at least i can get it over n done with it...phew~ so now feeling kinda calm liao.. nuting much 4 me to think about e whole thing liao.. n i dun have to feel guilty or anything anymore. but still.. its a bit wasted la.. well.. he was e 1 who gave up..so.. yup... not my fault. but still..feeling a bit "mao dun".. hmm.. n also wanna thank "auntie angie" 4 keeping me company n "solving" my prob. haha..(only he n know wat we did..=X) damn cute la.. he gave tt name to himself de... like 1 of e teens/teenage mag de column like tt. really nice toking to him. every nite when i c him online nv fails to send me mp3... i need songs i juz go to him man..haha..

last nite bought my e600 le! WOOHOO~ kinda stupid la coz went to my cousin's house 4 dinner too, den he lent me(or my aunt) his n3100.. but hehe.. juz couldnt wait. tm had a samsung rd show so juz went there after dinner. e free gift was juz a leather case(which was more like denim man..) n a $100 GUESS voucher(coz i renewed my contract?) but its like wat can i buy? e things so ex. anyway... i will juz go dwn to e shops n check out their stuffs. wanted to get e e800 but its more ex.. so.. o well.. e600 will do. hai.. damn scared tt Isetan actually did try to call me but couldnt get me..hai.. stupid phone la.. =( better not ok.. =X

ya.. whenever i go to my this cousins house, his family nv fails to make me laugh. though some things they say may sound rude, with tt kind of seriousness on their face, however, they r juz joking ard. cute family i should say. funny bunch of ppl.e 3 sons n e dad, always 'ding zui' with 1 another 1.. haha.. e mum not so much la huh. i learnt this phrase "guo fen"(too much ah?) from e dad haha.. he's damn damn gd cook man... he likes to cook alot.. n every sun both my aunts would go his house 4 dinner.. most of e family gatherings r also held there. years ago i nv liked him. coz.. i dunno how to say.. mayb i was kinda rude too la.. nv really greeted them much whenever i go there. hmm.. n his elder son is getting married next sun. not sure i will b going still coz i not close to them anyway.. will b really weird if i do go.. hmm...

den suddenly i remembered a damn funny thing tt happen on tt day i went cartel to eat with my sis n aunt. JOKE OF E DAY MAN!!!

here's it: we took a bus back after dinner alrite... den when my sis was scanning her ez link, e driver said: "ting bu dao leh.." den she scanned again.. then e machine says: "entry ok" so alrite lor. so when we were on e bus.. my sis was like saying about e uncle being deaf.. how loud he wan it to b.. "add a speaker la..woofer.." we were like laughing away.. den there was 1 part, my aunt said: "aiya.. coz ur ez link in ur wallet ma.. tts y softer.." once we heard wat she said. we both shocked 0.0! den we laughed out heads off. after wondering wats so funny, she realised wat she said wasnt making sense. we were like: "E SOND DOES NOT COME FROM E EZ LINK CARD IN E WALLET. ITS E M.A.C.H.I.N.E!" haha...

really joke of e day man...

2004-10-23T16:11:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Appreciate other people's needs, but don't change your life for them.**

ok.. today dun have any plans yet. daniel jio me go Chinablack but bet i cant get in...wait till i m 18 next yr k. guess i shall rest at home today. damn 'xiong' ah if keep going out spend $.

actually i m not so keen on going clubbing too. i prefer going to a pub n juz chill out.

n yes.. i got my results 4 my exams yesterday via sms. when i was at sentosa... -.- rite timing eh.. but anyway.. I PASSED ALL MY SUBJECTS! no As though.. now think i 'dui de qi wo ah pa' le... but also.. this is juz e basics n i already have difficulties le.. dunno how i can 'ta han' till yr 3 man... hai.. sian..

argh.... i hate it when no1 asks me out while i m jobless.. but wait till i got a job..-.- sickening u know.. den i will keep thinking bout tt person..hai.. n i have to keep reminding myself tt he is not worth it..

i wun allow any1 to treat me as a 'dai ti ping'...

nowadays i think there r more n more nice eng songs liao.. "e reason".. "look wat u've done".."blurry"(everythings so blurry, every1's so fake..)... "i dun wanna know"(i dun wanna know,if u're playin me... keep it on e low, coz my heart cant take it anymore...if u're creepin,pls dun let it show..).. e lyrics r so damn POWER! n at last i gotta find this song.. "when u look at me" by christina milian. nice!

here's e lyrics:

Tell me who do you think you seeYou're standing in your corner looking out on meYou think Im so predictableTell me who do you think I amLooks can be deceivingBetter guess againTell me what you seeWhen you look at meYou're probably thinking that I want those thingsCash, cars diamond ringsThinkin on my side the grass is greenBut you don't know where I have beenI could be a wolf in disguiseI could be an angel in your eyesNever judge a book by its cover
I could be a crook or your loverI could be the one or the otherIf you'll look beneath you'll discoverYou just don't know me!You look at your neighbor thinking what a guy Cuz he's got a 9-5And I bet that you don't realizeHe stalks you while you sleep at nightYet you're scared of the homeless guyThink he's gonna wanna start a fightNever judge a book by its cover
(Talk) Now tell me, who do you think I am? Huh?You don't even know meWell did you think about this

2004-10-22T23:44:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Relationships take an obsessive turn. Don't lose your self-control.**

went sentosa with e same gang again.. this time juz e 4 of us.. it could have more fun if we had more company.. a beach ball.. n if e weather wasnt tt bad. no sun 4 us to sun tan lor! nvm.. better than staying at home ba.. still... played a little bit of 'soccer' with e ball we borrowed from a group of ppl.. run a bit tired liao. really long time since i last exercised man..din do much actually.. but nvm la.. relac relac lor.. after tt went to habour front walk walk a bit..look 4 volley ball.. den dinner..

after tt we headed to orchard le.. again.. 4 wat? pool lor..-.-cine de.. not bad la.. like e place myself.. coz they actually play songs..(techno songs.. only once kena chi.. chi also not bad ah.. kinda prefer tt) den not so sian also ma.. wa.. if we keep doing this, gonna get broke soon man. sg also not much things to do... think ktv n pool places r earning big bucks man.. coz think these r e places tt alot of ppl r visiting nowadays...

den home sweet home le.. when we got out of cine den realised it was raining.. think tonight slp sure shiok!

THURS:
Taurus: You may not feel up to the job. Trust that you are indeed qualified.**

went shopping with kelly at orchard.. was suppose to hunt for my bag but in e end still bought clothes..-.- but overall was fun.. saw 'a suit' kinda clothes.. pants de.. damn nice lor.. style man.. but its ard $60.. but i cant spend too much le coz not working =( nvm.. juz go drop by n try it e next time i m in town. decided to get e esprit bag again... after kelly n ros said its nice n my sis n aunt think otherwise.. hmm o well i m buying ok! ya.. went scotts isetan to interview. hope tt i will get picked. kinda like e environment.. but e thing is tt 4 pt-mers max working days /wk is only 4. den think 6 hrs/day..-.- think cant earn much lor..hai..den at nite some1 juz spoilt my day juz like tt. met an idiotic guy..watched Manchurian Candidate with him.. damn piss me off man.. give me attitude.. but sorry.. i m not those we will get affected easily lor.. by wat u say n wat u think i should do. i do watever i want k! i live my own life! i was so damn no mood le after e show..so i decided to go home straight. after tt sms-me ask if i would like to keep contact.. i was liike.. dun think so.. u spoilt my day man. later replied me with something like: "think u r e kinda girl i would fall for". i din reply. i was thinking to myself...: wth i care about tt.. i m not interested in u man... bored me only..n turn me off man. so in e end had to take cab home.. waste my money only.. damn u u stupid guy. din have much cash with me.. so paid e driver with my $13 in my wallet... short of less than $2. n he was like nvm girl.. so late liao.. n he insisted on dropping me under my blk. so nice of him..=)

ya.. e movie at e begining was kinda boring lor.. couldnt catch wat they were saying.. a bit chim.. was cursing tt guy man 4 making me c tt movie( ya i was kinda pissed off tt when we met he juz wanna go c movie lor..-.- i was thinking juz sit dwn n chit chat la.. siao 1.. waste my time) .. but e later part became a bit interesting/exciting liao.. ok la.. e show.. so so only..

WED:
so.. kena SACKED today. coz i din go to work. couldnt wake up. den was liek hack! told her i cant make it even later in e afternoon coz i was gonna have dinner with my aunt n sis. ok la.. mayb my working attitude is like shit la...but their ppl also cock up de la... say i off den wat again.. nvm la.. din wanna cont le too.. damn stupid lor.. do tt kind of job.. learn nuting de..not much interactions with customer too, cant improce communications skills..(haha.. mayb i think too much la..but i think e past few jobs i did r better lor..)zzzz... i shall look 4 another 1 den.. den ya.. at last gotta eat my Cartel! hai.. gotta try to spend less le since i not working now...

2004-10-20T03:33:00.000+08:00

Taurus: The big picture will help you put your worries into perspective.**

had been a long time since i enjoyed myself this much...

juz now.. or yesterday... went kbox at suntec with my 4 other classmates n sang 4 5-WHOLE-HRS! SHIOK!!!! so damn fun..we should do this more often man..haha..den later went arcade awhile 4 a few games den decided to go dwn to somerset area 4 dinner.. andy intro us to a jap curry shop 4 dinner. so... got to try e jap curry rice tt many have been toking about.. not bad la.. but mayb i still prefer normal curry tt is spicy de. o.0 but e service there damn bad lor.. asked 4 extra rice n curry they say dun have le(mayb understandable coz they closing soon).. but when i asked 4 more water they sort of ignored us lor.. den leo gotta serve us with a container filled with plain water(or tap water) on a table at e corner... n i was like: "self service ah?" 1 of e guy working there heard lor.. but like wth.. isnt tt their job? damn rude lor.. 'mei li mao'. service damn poor man.o ya.. saw another of my "neighbour" whom i have juz met up with last fri at e curry shop! damn 'qiao' eh...

so after dinner..'chi bao bao' le.. went cine de kpool. played 4 about 3hrs+. SHIOK! leonard damn pro man.. after much difficulty managed to win him at 1 of e games. e ta ming also gd... n could c tt kelly improved alot liao ah.. hehe... well done! its been a long time since i played le man.... den played till 12+ c a bit late le den all decided to go home le. while paying @ e counter, we kena shock lor coz e guy said we gotta pay $80+. siao! play pool play till so ex.. how can it b.. but anyway.. we paid n left. then in e lift andy was like calculating.. e rate @ tt time was like $10/hr if i m not wrong after rounding up.. so e most played for 3hrs. den 2tables. so should b ard 60+. den found it a bit weird.. so went back to ask. n true enuff.. he calculated wrongly. think he counted as 3 tables or wat. -.- n we like paid $25 more lor... if we din go back he 'tan dio' man (earned it man) wa.. e andy clever la hor... so gd gd.. we used e $ to take cab back lor.. heng ah....

in e cab damn funny... 2 different cabs were travelling side by side at a pt of time.. n both glass windows were opened. shouting here n there... haha.. den e last part where e merc taxi over took us ta ming threw his sweet at e other cab de window.. but too bad leo closed it le.. lol.. damn siao man.

so 3 of us sharing e same cab (since we stay kinda close to each other) went tamp 201 4 supper. i had e 'dino milo'? n a plain roti prata(again.. ).. damn full man.. tot eat 4 fun de.. but even drinking e milo i already full le lor... so big. ordered tt coz i was curious to try it ma. but shiok la. eat e milo powder. he added alot lor. fat fat le.. pimples gonna pop up again.. den later home sweet home liao... n here i m.. online..hehe...

tomolo was suppose to off de... but e aunty last min ask me to go back.. dunno going not..coz i already planned to go 4 dinner with aunt n sis le.. but..hai.. n shit! i dun have her hp no. how to call her to ask c if i could work till about 5 or 6 not.. die. damn lazy to go man. but if i dun go whole afternoon also wasted.. coz no programs. bleah! mayb i will go there first n den ask her lor. if not i should b staying there till 10 b..zzz... =( boohoohoo... so sad... cant go eat with them le. but think should b able to la.. juz say i really gotta go lor... hai.. think of it also sian la..

2004-10-18T03:44:00.001+08:00

Taurus: Defy established authority. Make your own rules. Be a rebel.**

so late le n i m still online chatting away with my classmate.. gotta wake up 4 work later too.. zzzz...

i dunno whether i should b feeling angry or wat.. but its kind gd 4 us to tok things out.. though not much.. though i have more things to say n ask.. but think he roughly know wat i think about this whole thing. asked him if he thinks tt i m a spare tyre or wat. guess he is still puzzled y i think tt way... but told him i find it weird with this on n off thingy.. with him coming back to me every now n den... think u would feel exactly e same as me. e things he say.. e way he toks... think he is juz too gd with words liao.. know how to sweet tok. but dun think tts gonna change my mind liao.. though some part of me wanna go back... but i seriously hate those who sweet tok with me.. so jia.. i juz think tt he lacks e company of a girl(or gf) at e moment.. tts y. i wanna ask him y de decided to break after those 3days.. but i couldnt do it. now think of it. mayb there isnt any need le.. no pt.. i have lost my trust in him. he could have given any stupid excuses anyway. he juz wanna 'pain' a xiao mei mei like me.. NO WAY MAN! prob coz of e age gap...

hmm... but i m juz curious anyway.. c wat kind of STUPID excuse he would give.. i shall ask him since he is still online..

so..ok.. he din know wat i wanted. i din know wat i wanted too. guess i m too complicated. too complex 4 ppl to understand. watever!

nuff nuff...

yesterday was a damn sian day... hope today will b a better 1.. gotta plan 4 programs after my work man...go window shopping alone at far east also not a bad idea. hmm.. really gotta stop buying clothes man... =P bleah!

mayb will b joining ai ling to work at e small ktv pub with her..$7/hr leh.. not bad la..a few hrs only la.. free free also can sing ktv there or play pool...haha... i will juz try out a few days first den c how...

2004-10-16T17:48:00.000+08:00

Taurus: You can be sympathetic to others; just don't take on their pain.**

zzzz...-.- juz woke up from my slp...though i had about 7hrs of slp.. it felt as if it was juz a short nap.. still damn tired.think coz of those sms tt have disturbed my beauty slp.. argh! still thinking whether to meet my fren not.. long time nv c her n chit chat le.. really wanna catch up with her.. tok about sch n stuffs like tt. but damn lazy to travel far.. dun mind if she comes to tamp..hehe..

had a long day yesterday man.. here's wat i did.

FRI:Taurus: Let your guard down. You'll gain instead of lose. Trust others.**

yup.. it was juz another boring day at work today. hmm.. but it become more interesting after tt.. hehe.. so suprised tt my sis was actually so 'wu xim' to call me when she was at orchard. she knew i was working there coz i bumped into her at taka e other time when i was buying dinner.. so qiao eh.. met up with her n lennon n another girl to get myself a pair of new flip flops.( i need some suggestions ok..) at last! damn sick of my this old 1.. so 'lan' liao... juz bought a simple 1.. den walk ard far east.. den to heeren to collect my top there.. all thanks to my helpful "neighbour" MOSEY! haha.. helping me to print e online $10off voucher n passing it to me after his sch. thanks alot man! (though he printed it wrongly)felt kinda relieved when e lady agreed to take it. heng ah.. if not i dunno how many times i muz go dwn to e shop to collect my stuff...

den later.. my sis n frens wanted to go cineleisure de cartel or wat to have a drink...but so sad tt i couldnt join them coz i already meeting my fren le.. =( tot of not meeting my fren de but since he is at orchard le so.. hai.. too bad. they r really a fun bunch of man..especially e lennon..(dunno y.. yesterday when i call her name always call my classmate de name de.. leonard..haha.. sounds almost e same ma..) so cute.. haha.. n everytime when i c her she nv fails to say: "y u shorter now ah?" haha.. though tt is not a compliment la... >=( ..still cute la! sometimes even 'butches' r so irresistible..wahaha.. =X

yup.. so met my fren.. he suggested to go to Acid Bar or wat to chll out but on our way there... we passed by Rouge. n those guys there were like: "come in come in.. free entry today" so we were like.. ok.. anything.. since both of us have not been in there b4. like e atmosphere in there.. cosy n stuff. seriously a nice place to chill out. this is my first time there but definately not e last. love it. e waitress who served ask was like 'kou chi' haha.. seemed to b nervous or wat.. haha.. as if she juz started this job not long. we were like there cooling her dwn. so left tt "pub-like" area we were sitting at n explored e other side of e place. like e service there. was carrying all my 'barang barang' n feeling a bit 'paiseh' then found out they actually have a counter to leave ur stuff there. not bad eh... yup.. think there is a small dance floor there..(couldnt quite figure out coz it was totally empty.. but tt should b it la huh..mayb its still too early..hmm..) not long later left e place n headed to Devils Bar coz his frens were there.. i was like so reluctant to go coz i wore till so 'sui bian' cfm kena check de ma..(those polo-t material but its a halter with collar..so a bit e better la huh..) but it seemed tt he wanted to go there so much so anything lor. anyway.. i was wrong about e checking of id part.

we were Q-ing there n started to panic. thinking of wat to say when they ask 4 my id. wat ic no. i should say to them if they were to ask. but when it was our turn to get in, e bouncer was like: "ok.. next is a...COUPLE." haha.. was like hmm... think most prob they dun really go check a couple's id.. moreover my fren was like wearing kinda nice.. long sleeve shirt.. looked like an executive or something... so guess it did help a little too. =D den when we were like gonna pay 4 e entrance fee at e counter he saw his pri sch classmate.. so.. it was FREE! ok it felt kinda weird clubbing n dancing with some1 u hardly know, n i also prefer it to b in a bigger group. so i was like tt.. hmm.. "wat should i do" blah... like a block of wood there. din really enjoy myself though e DJ was like playing some of e songs i like..shortly after i got in they were playing "Left Out Side Alone" liao.. den "Fuck It".. den "SUPERSTAR"! i was like WOOHOO~! but... hmm... =( sorry if i had spoilt his nite.

so bout 1 hr later we left e place (again... ok.. kinda stupid... luckily it was free..hehe..) den walked to cineleisure to join les n his colleague 4 a movie..(1 of them still not bad looking eh..decent looking type again.. haha..but 4got e name... they 2 r a nice bunch too) c e 2046. ya.. b4 tt when we were leaving e pool place upstairs(which is opp a kbox) after their pool session. we saw 93.3fm de zhou cong qing.. same toot toot hair style i last saw him at tp.. YUCKS! ok.. back to e movie part.(o ya.. my fren actually went bavck to DB to accompany his frens..or ex-gf.. damn troublesome rite.. hai.. a bit guilty leh..) it was kind of a boring show lor! think worse than e Ladykiller.-.-zzzz... e story was something about love..wat most women r searching 4: eternal love or something like tt. wanting to have e man they love all to themselves. well i dun think they r being selfish here... who wants to share e man they love with other woman? hai... e show a bit e stupid lor.. tot it would b something like "infernal affairs" but no. seriously dunno wats e storyline is.. hai.. all u c is e life of a playboy(played by tony leong) blah.. dunno wat shit la! les's frens even fell aslp. every1 in e cinema felt e same way too. hai.. waste $ again... hai.. but dunno y.. actually cried... 0.0 a little. gotta admit tt some parts of e show did touch my heart.. how far some women could go to do things 4 e man they love wholeheartedly..to test his love 4 her..to keep him by her side..to get tt sense of security from him. totally no limit..pei fu pei fu..but when u know its time to give up.. its time to give up. some jerks juz dun deserve it. well.. mayb they have their own probs.. but still... they shouldnt give false hope,as if there still r chances.of him going back to her. hmm.. mayb not so bad afterall la..mayb its juz a bit draggy la... not as gd as wat we all expected.. a bit e more 'yi shu pian' ba.. chim chim de... chim chim also gd la.. let us do a bit of thinking...

quote from e movie: " Memories are just traces of tears" ... something like tt la...

know wat ppl from e past do when they have a secret? they would climb a mountain. go to a tree. dig a hole n wisper e secret into e hole n later cover it with mud. <---yup got tt from e movie as well. dun get tt part when they say when e ppl travel to 2046. they get to re-live e past, e memories, n nuting changes there. y nuting changes? hmm... n none of them actually leave tt place after going there. is it tt gd? like "heaven"? if this is 4 real.. i would like to check out tt place..haha..

there was this part when they said e robots on tt train to 2046 de reaction will become a bit 'chi dun' after some time... react(eg. cry) only 1hr later or even 1day. n i was thinking... m i like tt too? n y do we sometimes ask a question n nv get an ans? is it too scared/shy to ans it? trying to run away from it? dunno how to react? or wat? 4got wat they say inside e movie le... movies sometimes really teach us some things in life....

after movie me n my fren juz left for 7-11 to grab something to eat w/o them.. sat dwn awhile.. chit chat. know a bit more about him n his love life blah.. even at Rouge, e impression tt he gave me is tt he is man man who has a goal in life. know wat he is doing, wat he wants n wat to do to achieve them. has a really mature way of thinking. n it is something different to c some1 at e age of 22 is ready to settle dwn liao. can c tt he wanna b successful in life, a carrer n a family of his own . i m sure he is able to do it judging from his determination. hai...i m totally different. i m juz like a living zombie.. walking ard aimlessly in life. bleah. even though i din have much comments while he was toking away.. at least i lend a listening ear..

overall, really enjoyed myself...2 clubs in a nite... nv kena check.. hehe...woohoo~ luckily i m off today...

2004-10-14T02:36:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Legal situations are coming into focus. Take care of pending issues.**

my leh damn 'suan' now man.. tired ah!

really dunno should i work at fareast or cont to work at this place... if i go fareast i will earn $10 less/day coz e shops there closes earlier... so 1 month less 200 bucks! but was thinking i would prefer there coz it will b alittle bit more "quiet"? but i should b stayin here ba coz of e $.. these 2 months juz chiong la... more $ den more to spend also ma... hai...wat e heck... hai.. damn sick of c-ing so many students..hol now.. hai...

ya yesterday off.. did a bit of window shooping... knew tt i wun have any 'shou huo'.. but e last shop i went to..PapERdoLL have something tt i have been looking 4 a long time... know those "ang mo farmers" wear de? if u dunno wat i toking bout nvm.. ya.. i saw tt... but its e skirt ver. .... kinda like it.. n my fren says its nice.. but its $59! a bit ex lor...but din quite mind it la.. coz difficult to find ma.. den since have a pt job..'cong cong' myself lor.. den i remembered their webby have a $10 off voucher if u spnd above $60.. so when i was back today to try e size again.. i asked her whether i could use it lor.. $1 diff only.. so.. yeah.. she was cool about it.. hehe.. gd! so paid $49 4 it le... should b going dwn to collect it later... she helped me to alter a bit too.. but now e prob is tt how do i go print e stupid voucher? no printer at home..(argh.. should have moved it here.) tried to get my frens help but..-.- ... 4get it... its difficult to depend on ppl man... 1 was like giving excuses lor.. it was so damn clear tt she din wanna help.. so 4get it! if she din wanna help juz say so.. i was like telling her.."u sure u passing it to me? if u not den say not lor.. dun make me wait den last min say cant..-.-.." so.. ya.. not sure how m i gonna get it... thinking should i go back sch print not.. dunno is it even open.. or juz collect my clothes try other day or wat lor.. arghh.. troublesome!

juz now alot of things happened too.. coz my hp batt flat.. argh!!! its driving me crazy.. my fren kena waited 4 20 mins to go home together but.. hai.... n my aunt is coming bacvk this evening le... so.. YAHOO! gonna get my hp le!

damn sian... i sick of this n tt... damn tired of ppl giving me stupid excuses n nonsense... juz count me out k?

looking 4ward to my next off day...

2004-10-09T23:12:00.000+08:00

FRI:
Taurus: Love, creativity, and beauty are all in your favor at this time.**

yeah! last day of exams liao... SLACK AH~! went ms with e ppl.. to club3...din really have e mood while i was inside.. dunno y.. too much techno? kinda long nv go club le? i was fed up.. no mood le after waiting 4 1++hrs 4 e guys? think most prob is coz of e last reason. yes.. damn cham lor.. like wth.. a few mins nv mind la.. but 1hr++ is too much of an extreme le lor.. later dunno wanna go in which club also..zzz... so inside club3 4 about ah hr den was thinking ask les 4 a midnite movie. should have agreed to go on a movie with him when he asked lor.. wrong choice man... anyway.. next time i m not going there anymore.. i still prefer my devils bar! luckily it was free entry lor...

so i took a cab dwn to fetch him from his house to go tm to c movie... wrong move again... should have went cine.... hai.. all my hp's fault lor.. reception like shit! batt flat. i even had to borrow taxi driver's hp charger...haha.. when i smsed him wan go cine c not, he did say yes.. but by e time i received his sms i was on e highway le lor..kao. den nvm.. wth.. go tm c have not... exactly wat i tot, it was closed liao... by e tm we reach tm it was about 1 le lor... den e cab fare was 20++.. ex lor! in e end also took a cab down to cine.. we siao liao la.. so damn waste $.... argh!!!!!!!!! den go all e way there dun have terminal liao..-.- den in e end watched Ladykiller... tom hanks is e main actor... e eng they use damn chim lor... was like..o man.. waste $ again... ok la.. was funny la... but e front part like dunno wat they toking about.. ok la.. but still.. quite a stupid show... den inside my eyes were like closing.. damn dry coz of e contacts.. wore it 4 more than 10hrs lor! after e show go home liao...den slack a bit b4 i went to slp at ard 7...

TODAY:
Taurus: People won't hear you when you tell them that they are wrong.**

den ard 11 auto woke up... wanted to cont with my slp de but slp till headache so 4get it. later went tm buy ros's bday present with qiao mei den headed to downtown east e chalet le.. damn sian lor... went so early... 3+ leh! den c all her sisters n frens there.. sian liao..den went play pool. $9/hr lor! ex leh! some more e place like shit! (i still prefer my mega pool at parkway....) den after e pool session not long later e bbq start le... 1 by 1 her ex-classmates came... was sitting at e table with them den wth.. like class gathering lor.. i damn extra lor.. after having beehoon.. i went home le. -.- waited so long juz to eat e beehoon.. myself leave earlier rite... din wanna bbq myself coz e sis n ppl were like standing there lor.. like..-.- 4get it.. i m not going 4 such things again... i dun wanna give them face le.. wats e use when i know tt i wun enjoy myself? i dun give a damn le! qi si ren...

KILL ME BA KILL ME!!!!! damn sian ah.... feel tt my energy has all drained up.. so tired... so restless.... so damn hungry! gonna find food le.... =P

2004-10-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

Taurus: There's no way you can plan for the wild events of the day. Hold on.** <---huh? o.0

no mood to study now.. coz all i can think about is PARTY! YEAH!

will b going down to ms with a few of my classmates after our prsp paper tomolo... yes..tts e last 1! n tts how we chill out after all e stress! ... haha... hope we can at least get into 1 of e clubs there... gonna try e wu bar...

den during e hol my class gonna have a chalet.... really sian to go... coz of some ppl in my class... n moreover i m not tt sociable kind u c...dun really tok to most of e ppl... really dunno wat to tok about...sian... mayb i will juz go 4 1 day or wat only.. hai...

not bad la.. kinda like poly life alot... find it damn happening lor.. its better than wat i have first imagined b4 i came to poly..wahaha... to me la... now at this moment... dunno about e rest... dunno bout next time.. next sem.. well... mainly.. u juz gotta mix with ppl.! if u dun.. u really lose out... really sad case man... yeah.. at first tot i will b 1 of those "loners"... hmm..was really dread of getting into poly...

yeah.. last paper liao.. n i can slack again! so far e 3 papers tt i have sat 4.... really damn cham lor... tot fndb n maths would b a breeze but no lor...hai.. but aiyo... 'lao tian ye' .. juz let me pass can le...

haiya.. dunno wat to write liao... juz damn excited 4 e hol to come... goona ktv again..pool...it has been a long time man... n i need a hol! long time no go le.. most prob gonna go bali with dad... only..-.- .. unless my sis 'she de' take leave from her work la... o well.. better have some things.. clothes 4 me to buy while i m there...

2004-10-04T15:57:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Difficulties with romance fade. Conflict is replaced by understanding.**

KILL ME BA KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

wa.. damn 'dui bu qi' my ah pa..... ='( e whole of study wk i din study much.. carc n prsp completely nv touch.. juz went thru a bit of e maths n first half part of fndb.. so behind de all blur blur lor.. N TOMOLO IS MY FIRST PAPER LE! WAHH!!!! wanted to study hard de... pass with flying colours.. next time den 'you chu xi'... but... hai..

yesterday was in front of e pc e whole day again.. hai...dunno do wat also..pc stuff...at nite was toking with a fren online... hmm... enjoyed tt alot.. coz it has been a long time since i had tt kind of conversation with any1... wanted to study 1(..again) but...hack care la! later or tomolo la.. was sending me songs too.. den toked about his ex-gf.. tot they still together but said they juz broke up... she was going overseas to study 4 about 3-4 yrs.. den told him not to wait 4 him(she was crying when saying tt..). -.- ... wa.. i bth this kind of thing lor... y they always say such thing de.. but its kinda true tt it is hard to have a long distance relationship.. mayb she is insecure.. mayb she have no confidence..but they have been together for 4yrs le lor! tts long k.. as if she bear to break also.. mayb tts wat her mind wanna do but not her heart..so asked him to make her stay lor.. but muz b sure tt he will stay faithful to her la.. no use making empty promises... but i guess its hard to do tt...guys..hai...'ren' la!..hai.. i understand how tt girl feels...n how she will b after e break..juz like wat e CLEO mag says below... poor thing.. think most girls feel n think alike la...

ok la.. nv had a proper love life b4... mayb i dun have e courage.. coz sometimes its a torture 4 mind! .. dun think i can take it

reminds me of this song..."nu ren he ku wei nan nu ren......" i nv quite believe in girl fights... unless tt girl did something to provoke me la...den i wun even give a damn man..

hai...i muz fight 4 my 'xing fu' ! cannot b so "shy".. coward le!

"Pllliiissss..." heard tt balloon deflating le ma? BLEAH! say say only la..hai....

{more to add]
juz shared with me another story of his fren… 20 yr old kena dumped by a 23yr old guy. Reason: she is too young! -.- LAME! Does age really matter? I think tt was juz a stupid excuse to get rid of her. Juz 3yrs diff.. not like wat ma.. go out with xiao mei mei meh? Cannot b.. I was like: “ wah.. come shoot me ah..” think its only appropriate tt e guy is older.. n not e other way rd.. funny la.. guys mature slower la… quite true lor.. juz look at some of e guys in my class… zzzz…..c le also sian… haha…. Ya.. tt girl was crying infront of them.. den mentioned tt she wanna marry him .. he said he almost laughed -.- … ok.. mayb 3months together n she think so much liao funny la.. but.. ok la.. a bit insensitive too lor… hmm.. but she ok le la.. got herself another guy.. hmm… gd 4 her lor..

2004-10-02T23:21:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Your creative ability is at a peak. Create your next masterpiece.** <-- yeah.. how i wish i can do something else besides STUDYING!

v funny thing happened to me juz now when i went eastpoint NTUC.. haha..

bought some food stuff n my hair conditioner 4 my frizzy hair... was Q-ing at e cashier... den when i gave e ntuc union card e woman told me short of 35cents to collect points. was still thinking should 4 get it not? not my card anyway...den suddenly a voice came from behind ..."yao shuan wo de ma?"(wanna include mine?) den turn ard.. woohoo~ a cute guy... (his tone, chi also a bit cute de..) well.. not tt every1 will think he is cute coz he is not like those.. beach boys,baby kind of cute.. but he is quite cute to me le... hehe think he ard 20 le.. mature looking decent looking.. a bit e type i like.. lol...actually notice a guy behind me le.. tot of checking whether its a cute 1 or wat but was thinking.... aiya... bz body 4 wat.. hack care la. din know.. hehe... he ok lor.. kinda alrite or skinny type.. but not till so 'er xin' lor... a bit tan? (couldnt c properly coz din wear my contacts) den.. wa.. =D~ den with specs, wearing a black t-shirt.. looked as if its like police or dunno wat t-shirt.. or mayb juz normal de.. din go n c also.. but reminds me of ncc de... haha.. was thinking.. wa... macho liao.. really have a thing 4 NS guys or wat..dunno y.. i siao le.. y din he ask 4 my no. ? lol... nuff! was like standing there 4 bout 1 min coz v messy.. he paid by nets den i paid by cash. think e woman also luan liao.. i was like.. "wa.. damn messy ah..", "thanks", "thanks"... n he juz smile smile smile.. quite sweet la.. haha.. think of it also makes me smile.. hah.. omg..

ok.. din study much again today though i made myself stay at home again.. argh... do pc stuff again...

dunno y... now i m in [P-A-R-T-Y MOOD]! woohoo~

think i listen to too much of dance songs liao.. stayed up late last nite supposed to study but was online exchanging songs with my fren n toking..-.- den after tt went str8 to bed. found more nice songs yesterday... 1. Anastasia- left outside alone(radio edit) 2.la luna(dance) 3.sometimes when we touch(remix).. blah blah blah... really cant wait 4 exams to b over! think after my paper gonna 'jie fang' liao.. hmm.. mayb i shouldnt take things too seriously at times.. gotta relac man.. enjoy life! .. but yes.. i will still have my own pride la.. gonna try doing things tt i din dared to... things tt i have always wanted to do... blah... u r gonna c a new me! wahaha... i think.. =X

ok.. here's a funny thing tt happened to me quite some time ago liao..

guy: u v ai mei hor..? (or zhi lian)
me: ok la.. juz nuting to do play with cam ma..
den later dunno wat he said..
guy: u not confident of urself meh?
me: u say i zhi lian ma... how can i have no confidence..

haha... i tot tt it was v well said.. i mean, i was making sense ma..den dunno he tok wat shit.. but ok.. mayb its not funny la.. bleah!

ok.. tomolo gonna c resident evil with lynn.. dunno dan n ivan going not.. hmm.. damn tempted to go club 3 with them tomolo.. hmm.. shall c how..OK! study time.. hmm..o.0 or mayb not.. bleah...

2004-10-01T02:58:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Any redecorating or designing you want to do should be done now.**

God... juz came back from supper with my "neighbour" ..hehe... *BURP.. kinda having a stomach pain now.. argh...gonna prepare myself to study liao. yup.. dun think will b sleeping early tonite.. guess ard 3..4 plus.. y? COZ E WHOLE DAY I DIN STUDY AT ALL EVEN I WAS AT HOME ALL E WHILE!!! -.- was bz watching tv.. munching on stuff n downloading songs from irc... damn sickening lor.. always download halfway den will stop.. gotta request so many times to resume n complete them..argh.h..

downloaded e Jiang Nan mtv by lin jun jie. dunno y.. kinda like this song alot now.. e melody.. blah... though juz roughly know wat is it about la..love lai de la.. 'ah ga ah ga' la... found some nice dance songs on e web too. some which i heard in clubs but dunno wat tittle is it...so couldnt get their mp3.. 1 of them goes like e song "Don't want you back" ... but its e "Fuck It" ver.? goes to to his ex gf... den heng heng found another ver. sang by e ex tt goes out to him..haha.. cool~ its called "Fuck u Back" haha.. damn interesting.... 2 ver. 2nd song.: Deep Spirit-Lonely (radio edit) 3rd song: Dragostea Din Tei

hai... today nuting much happened to me la.. at home e whole day.. wat interesting things can happen to me.. was rotting in front of e pc e whole day lor... at least juz now got to get out of this stupid house.. 'tou tou qi' .... hai... wasted e whole day. fri liao.. exams will b starting in 4 days time.. havent even finish my cmaths.. damn complicating lor..-.- was thinking about wat ros told me e other day..kinda true with wat she said ,.. n i kinda agree with u..(eh.. dun think u will get to c this..) ya.. i kinda agree with her.. its so damn hard to find some1 tt u can "click" so well....enjoyed every single moment with him...but guess it will nv b e same again..it will b difficult to change this whole 'thing' liao though i really wanna do something about it.. but this 'thing' has become haywire le... weird liao.vvv weird feeling le..on and off.. like wats wrong with us.. wats wrong with me! think we both r trying to make each other clear about this whole thing... gd in a way... dun think so much..or give false hope... but it seems tt i m not able to stop it. unlike "tt person". so i dun even wanna c him at ros bday bbq even when she ask me to invite.... it is sure difficult to stay as fren with .. u know...

got this from this month's CLEO mag:

"A more interesting fact is tt e breakup of a relationship seems to do a lot more damage to e woman's mental health than to e man's. When a relationship is wrecked by conflict n mistrust, a woman tends to dwell on e issues n tires herself out mentally n emotionally."

"A woman may also take more time to fully recover from a bad relationship, while men r biologically tuned to moving on to their next partner as a natural means of propagating their genes. In doing so, they r indirectly protected as their minds dont take such an emotional beating."

now.... how true is tt....
o well... back to my studies now..

2004-09-29T17:00:00.000+08:00

Taurus:

Don't give up your power just to be in a romantic relationship.** o.0 ...=(

guess this wk days i shall stay @ home..gotta start studying soon 4 my exams next wk liao.. shall start with my cmaths... better do well man... den after exams get to slack again! go enjoy.. yeah! kbox... sushi.. pool... catch up with ppl... blah...

Tue:

Taurus: Pay attention to your fashion. Note the impression your clothes make.** <-- eh.. i wasnt tt badly dressed ba... so ok la...

was damn shag yesterday. forced my tired eyes to open e whole day.. went sch 4 e CARC lec n tut in e morning.. den met up with ros n her fren.. ling ling? to orchard. went 4 e interview at heerens.. hmm... think i manged to get e job ba...she will call me again c when to start work. e pay is $5/hr, 11.30am-10pm and have to stand e whole day..-.- tiring man.. but nv mine la... juz give it a try lor.. went cineleisure de cartel too, n a shop selling samsung phones... think i almost got e job at e cartel lor...until i told her can transfer me to tamp de outlet not.. (coz also sian ma, travel all e way to town,after sch or wat) den she asked me to go tm 4 e interview..-.- troublesome... but like not bad environment to work at. have mtv 4 u to c.. blah.. den wkends open till 2am.. wa.. more $ to earn.. hai..nvm.. 4 get till. dun really like doing waitress stuffs anyway.. try again after my 2 months hol is over or wat.. or juz concentrate on my studies. arghhh.... e more i think about it... hope i get e samsung 1... den can get my e600c at a cheaper price..hehe...

den later went 4 a movie with les (nope.. not my lesbian.. les = leslie la..keke) @ tm... c e New Police Story! damn nice lor! damn funny ah! e nic tse inside e also v funny n cute... a v different person from wat he is. e Twins girl also.. v funny jiu dui le...E YANG CAI NI DAMN CHIO AH!!!!~ like quite a few of her shows like "liang zu" with Wu qi long.. e best is another show with him de also... lamp de ghost story or wat.. v touching.. been trying to get e vcd...

yup... gonna get e bag at e esprit. at first tot e size was kinda too big, but since other ppl said its alrite so o well.. shall get it then. can get 50% off too all thanks to my classmate Sally. though not so close but she still could help me get it.. so nice of her.. since she not working there anymore le so gotta ask her fren help le... gonna get e black 1. i totally 4got wat colours they have man, din notice them. kept thnking e 1 i wan is white. but actually i wanted e black.. n e other colour is beige. -.- they actually having 30% off for tt (actual price about $59, so after tt is about $41), but since e staff price is 50% off so ask them get it lor.. can save my $. actually din wanna waste my $ on new bags coz next time also 'tin teh'..take up space.. but sui bian lor.. since its cheaper, if not i hack care ah! so ex.

next is e tank tops at giordano. waiting 4 ros to help again coz her bday n her mum's is coming soon. din know u will get 10 or 20% when u purchase anything on ur bday or e day b4 until she told me. ok la.. at least save a bit lor...

2004-09-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

hmm... not sure wat to blog about but.. juz blog anyway.. bleah

today suppose to get up to go 4 e fndb extra lesson but i went back to slp instead -.- ... tomolo gotta go 4 e carc le.. tut n lab.. which starts @ 8am! hai... i will make sure i do tt.

today went TM with ros b4 my work coz gonna go there pay my bills anyway..long time nv c her le too... went window shopping! saw a few of things tt i wanna buy... a bag from esprit, plain tops from giordano?.. blah... o ya.. saw lots of nice accessories at Isetan... woohoo~ do drop by n take alook if u r free.. hehe... was damn tempted to buy them... but really gotta spend my $ wisely man...

today is my last day of work at e airport... gonna find another 1... tomolo gonna go heerens there 4 an "interview".. well.. juz go let e "aunty" c my face.. c whether i qualify not... e shop sells accessories.. not bad la.. full day though... hai.. better than nuting... all thanks to my fren who recommended me this job.. better b successful.. *fingers crossed*

tomolo is Lantern Festival liao...(or watever e exact name 4 tt festival is..) hmm.. go chinese garden carry lanterns? 'shang yue'? eat mooncakes? nah... dun think so... though i reallly would love to go there n take pics... hmmm

2004-09-22T15:04:00.002+08:00

Taurus: Bring your artistic skills back to life. Don't let them lie dormant.**

TUE:
Taurus: If you feel as if someone has turned against you, tell him or her.**

MAMMA MIA!
yup.. tt was wat i watched yesterday. nope.. it wasnt e stupid channel U food show... its e musical play which is gonna show at e esplanade. so damn shiok man... v nice!!!! all e ABBA songs they sang.. the dances...e funny/cute parts... ahh~ dunno how long nv go 4 plays liao.. years man! tt time was thinking to get e tix.. but v few will b interested to go.. so well.. 4 get it! so glad tt i got to go.. =D though it was juz a dress rehearsal.. it was almost as gd as the real thing..

actually tt time i was planning to go meet Qian Hui @ orchard de lor... after going lunch with the girls @ suntec. since i wanted to take a bus from the esplanade bus stop.. i remember my sis is working at e California there.. so tot drop by c if she was working. yup.. saw her from afar.. when she walked out to tok to me, she said some 'ang mo' who went there to eat earlier gave them some free dress rehearsal tix. damn lucky lor.. each tix i think.. worth about $100+ lor... din wanna miss it so called QH to come esplanade instead.. so we both could watch e play... victoria+ her bf+her mum came to c it too... was quite a waste tt my sis couldnt join us @2pm coz she was working till 3... e place was short of ppl too, tts y she couldnt leave earlier. she missed those gd parts lor.. poor thing.. =( so after her work she joined us with another fren of hers.. o.O din know she would b going too.. hmm.. anyway.. enjoyed e play ALOT! =D

after tt went bugis walk walk with QH... saw some shops looking 4 pt sales asst so i juz left my contacts with them. there was 1shop tt needs to know whether i m a smoker or a non-smoker.. i was like..o.O.. e girl said e boss juz needs to know.. hmm.. funny... n guess who i saw when i walked pass the food court there. yu yue! haha.. selling drinks there.. i was as suprised as her that i saw her there.. coz usually i kinda 'blind' 1.. i juz heng heng happened to look at her direction...

really had fun yesterday.. e play.. blah.. n had a crazy with QH.. QH thinks tt i more talkative le after going to poly.. hmm..i think so too.. hehe... but have things to tok also ma.. n muz c with who also.. bleah =P

TODAY:
b4 going to sch, heard e 'ying yue ri ji' on 93.3fm. was about a guy's family... his mum being abused by e dad.. kinda poor thing reminded me of last time too.. i kinda agree that when we were young, there was almost nuting we could do, though we dun agree with family violence. i really miss my mum, i kinda blame myself 4 not going to visit her often. it has been a yr le ba since i saw her... my dad still goes to visit her.. think after my exams i will b joining him... no more excuses tt i m bz.. blah.. i actually m juz plain LAZY. some kind of daughter i m.. too 'shi bai' le.. kinda 'pei fu' her that she actually gave birth to me.. i should b thankful n treat her gd.. my dad too.. they all old liao.. dunno if they die le will i cry or anything...mayb reaction slow?( as usual..) bleah.. go treat my dad 4 tim sum after my papers.. i MUZ! really love my sis actually.... though i dun really show it.. n we r not tt close.. but seriously.. of all my family ppl i treat her quite gd le.. my aunt leh? have not been toking to her much after e quarrel tt nite... nowadays we r juz living our own life. she treats e tenants even better than me. really no difference if i stay outside alone... hai... really like "jiu shou xi de mo shen ren".... damn tired ah....

kinda feeling fed up rite now... its WED! hmm...

i m tired of having to repeat myself over n over again(when i m being interupted.. i m not a voice recorder.). i m tired of trying to let ppl feel my presence..(hello.. i m juz beside u). i m tired of having to catch up with ppl(wats e pt when it seems tt they r delibrately trying to get away from u?... at least i have e paitence to wait..). i m tired of not getting reply from some1 when i ask a question(b it face to face or sms).i m tired of being ignored(as if i toking to myself or ppl r juz cant b bothered to listen to wat i m saying). i m tired of ppl not having eye contact with me when toking(i will juz take it tt they r not toking to me... now i understand e importance of eye contact). i m tired of trying to please ppl(which i usually dun). i m tired of trying to b in a crowd(when its as gd as being alone). i m tired of blah blah blah... ALOT OF THINGS!

i m happy to b myself. i m happy tt i show how i feel about some1 when i hate tt person( i m not ashamed to show n proud of it! y b a hypocrite?) i m happy to b a loner(wats there to b ashamed of? some ppl juz despise them.. well i despise those ppl. cant they learn to b independent?) i m happy tt i enjoy window shopping alone(having fun trying on clothes,w/o having to worry wasting ppl's time...) i m happy tt i m sensitive(better than those insensitive ppl..who dun really care bout how others feel) blah blah blah...

have u ever c some1.. who SO 'JIAN', when meeting 'tt person' somewhere with a few others, den happen u to c 'tt person' walking from e opp direction towards u. 'tt person' saw u but quickly turned away.. walking with e head higher up as if walking e cat walk. den later 'tt person' walk pass u liao den when u try to call, 'tt person' jia jia.."o... u all r here..." -.-" if u know wat i toking bout.. den u know y i find it JIAN. if u dun.. nvm.. i still find it JIAN lor..

i cant b borthered to try n snatch e limelight away from her since she loves it... i dun like to b e centre of attraction as much either... all give her man...

mayb some ppl r wondering wat is wrong with me.. but sometimes i feel ppl ard me dun care bout my existence. so.. i decided to leave... u may think tt i think too much... but actually i did not... its juz those reactions i have been receiving tt only i know... not tt u ppl r aware of...

2004-09-15T10:39:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Study things from a distance instead of trying to strong-arm others.**

woohoo~ yesterday went shopping at bugis with e girls.. got a white pants. it can b folded up to a 3/4 pants.. not bad.. really like it alot.. but since its white, gotta bcareful not to get any stain. kinda ex lor..normal brand only.. $49.90 leh.. 4got e 1 i saw e other time at esprit is ard this price or $70+. ok la.. not bad la... can wear it 2ways. ya la.. jeans ard this price but of coz cheaper better la. some other place de jeans is even cheaper than this hor.. broke liao broke liao.. took neoprints too.. damn nice.. like e 1 with e sofa..haha.. took a 'family photo' with my '2 daughters'..wahaha... nice wor.. gonna go back 4 more...

today came to sch early to do my individual report 4 e CARC project.. really dunno wat to do... most probably i will b going home later... den come back to sch at 5 4 e maths tut. hai...I HATE PROJECTS. fail la fail la... next time no need think of going to U liao...

2004-09-14T10:42:00.000+08:00

Taurus: People will have their hearts on their sleeves. They are sensitive.**

yesterday met up with Qian Hui at pw walk walk n 4 dinner... ahh.. hao jiu bu jian le wor... den last nite slept damn early.. o ya... read from e papers tt JAY CHOU WILL B HAVING HIS CONCERT IN SG AGAIN IN NOV! ahh!!! i wanna go!!! gotta find some1 sponsor me.. hmm.. my sis or dad? an early present 4 my bday present 4 next yr? haha... still thinking of tt, or should get them to give me ang pow, use it to pay a bit 4 my hp.

"Feelings that were long 4gotten return to haunt the heart that was once loved" <-- got this from an irc # topic.. hehe... yup.. been thinking about alot of things... things tt have happened, wondering if they r any signals 4 me... or i juz think too much. will nv get an ans. they will always remain a mystery.

2004-09-13T13:02:00.000+08:00

Taurus: You are going through transformation, but others are holding you back.**

wa.. long time no blog liao.. pc kena virus. cant type email n attach file.. zzzz... gotta reformat everything.. n all my doc. will b all gone!!! no!!! so suay.. gotta burn them onto discs liao...

hmm.. alot to type but shall cut them short...

first. working till e end of this month n i gonna look 4 another le.. sick of tt place blah... i havent mentioned tt there was 1 nite i sort of quarrelled with e girl (e lazy ger de fren la.. from tp biz de..) told her wat i m not happy with n she told me wat she n e rest r unhappy about with me... it all started when she asked wats wrong with me n 'tt' girl... so blah blah blah... at 1 pt of time really made me no mood to work.. left like walking away.. go home. ok i admit i m always late 4 work blah.. but when she told me i go to e toilet too long. -.- wat? they time me ah? they go toilet or smoking, how long i also nv say anything.. some more i bring my hp again.. i told her i wanna use e hp also muz 'gui gui sui sui' 1 meh... den i go also not sit dwn there do wat.. read newspaper meh.. juz do wat i needa do den go liao ma... wth.... blah blah blah..
CONCLUSION: tts it! last month of working here. sick of working there le too.. hai.. but think my working attitude is not v gd also..gotta keep changing job. but at least i do wat i gotta do k... not get paid 4 nuting k...

hmm.. wat else happened to me?

last tue went k-box with kelly n branda 4 their lunch package. not bad.. had a crazy time. 1 interesting thing happened. 15 mins b4 time is up, e tv monitor suddenly cock up. after e guy restarted e system a few times.. he changed us to a bigger rm when he failed to get it to work again.. hehehe... we were like.." extend till wat time? waste some much of our time leh.." he was like..." hmm.. aiya.. anytime u wan la. but if we ask u get out u muz go la.." of coz la.. no prob man..haha.. in e end stayed till 2.45 coz i gotta go to work.. hai.. wasted... if not could have stayed longer... yup.. was late 4 work again.. =P

last mon, heard some 'LOSERS' toking bout me rite behind me n i heard it. yup, tts was wat they were trying to do anyway... were saying how badly i was dressed( ok i admit... tshirt, jeans, slippers,a tote bag... a bit aunty la...but go sch not fashion show lor. some more stay so near. once in a while sui bian wear also ok la..) WATEVER! but they have 'zhi ge' to say me meh? even if they try to dress well dun think they can make it too. worse than me. 1 hair so toot(especially from e back view). e other all comb back.. if i dunno him sure think tt he is juz another typical ah beng. but his hair style really reminds me of some thing... a 'yao guai'? or dunno wat word to use... hmm.. there was 1 show 'ren pi deng long' <-- human skin lantern? chi show... ya look like when 1 of e actor when he tranformed to a ' yao guai'.. =X

yesterday went to get my mp3 player from carrefour at $209. creative de.. they having some kind of sale 4 some of their products ma.. so tot should b cheap.. some more CREATIVE de leh..

got 1 tt has 256mb storage space, with fm radio, radio n voice recording.. not bad la.. though is bigger than e slim 1 tt i wanted to buy..( sold out some more) it uses normal AAA batt is kinda gd.. unlike e slim 1... have to charge e batt using e usb port to stick it e cpu. it takes 2 long hrs lor.. u go hol how rite? cant use. it is able to encode e songs directly from cd players or any audio thingy... ok lor.. this 1 extra lor... hmm.. was thinking getting 1 with a bigger storage but more ex... den somany songs 4 wat also.. hmm.. aiya.. this 1 can la.. happy le la.. bleah

now left 4 me to buy e samsung e600 hp. now my fren's de also siao siao le... reception damn poor.. even in an open space also no reception -.- eh.. think i drop too many time le.. =X later going to my sis place to get 1 of her fren's extra hp to use. she damn lucky wor.. found an erricson hp.. with cam some more! when will i have such luck man...

ok.. tts all 4 now.. anything else i will add on e next time.... gotta go back to my fndb lab le.. =P

2004-09-04T15:20:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Major yearly goals are at the forefront. Don't procrastinate.**

dunno wats wrong with my home pc. couldnt use it to blog since mon. email also cant attach doc. ... cannot type.. blah.. zz.... so now using e pc at e aiport after work.had been really bz with fndb assignments 4 e past few days.. havent started with e 2nd prsp assignment tt is due next fri. will b having quite a few class tests next wk. fndb lab..carc... wa.. damn cham. think of e carc project n e presentation on e following wk jiu sian... dunno wat to do 4 e individual part. fail ah fail. prsp also damn lag.. way behind wat e teacher is teaching now. si java...-.- feel like giving up.. change course..hai..

TUE:
Taurus: Emotions will take precedence over all of your rational thoughts.**

finished sch at 10 de.. but after lunch stayed back to do e fndb assignment. like wth.. actually started last sat but those things 1 did are not needed... so gotta do it all over again..-.- watever.. juz hand in with e others since i printed them out liao. stayed till bout 6 plus. do until wanna pull all my hair out le.. some day really gonna become botak liao... moreover stared at e pc 4 6-whole-hrs! eyes were damn tired.. later my degree go up liao...NNOOO...not bad la. quite gd studying in sch... should do it more often..haha...

WED:

Taurus: Romances have a strict and overbearing tone to them. This will pass.**

after sch went marina south to have steamboat to celebrate kelly's bday with branda andy+ frens.. n of coz kelly la! main zu jue leh... we 3 girls really can eat man..haha.. gd gd.. eat dao bao bao.. some really damn oily man.. eee... gotta detox liao.. after tt walked all e way to marina bay mrt station. e place damn dark n eerie? man.. *glup e moment i reached home its bed time!

FRI:

Taurus: This is the time to sign the contract that you have been wavering on.**

after sch went to eat fish n co with kelly n branda @ tm.. woohoo~ everytime go eat 'hao liao' like alot of $ hor.. haha.. we LOVE to eat! we LIVE to EAT! keke... 'nan de' can find such ppl...after dinner went to c Bourne Supremacy. gd show! v exciting... though Anacondas also exciting la.. but i find it damn wu liao lor.. c e snake chase after e humans n eat them up 1 by 1.. waste my $ only..-.- gotta rent e Bourne Identity vcd... c any1 who has it not.. if not go to 1 of those rental shops...

n ya.. @ tm b4 dinner i heng heng saw e guy with n7200 phone which i tot it was mine. though i already went up to check with him (with e help of branda)b4 my prsp lab coz he heng heng in e same lab rm b4 my class started. how come i would think tt it was mine coz on thurs when i was in 1 of e labs doing my fndb, i heard a familiar ringtone. tt was e song 'duan dian', some more recorded 1. at first i was thinking:" wa.. this person also have taste ah.." den when i looked ard.. i saw him sitting infront of me with n7200 hp.. was thinking this song not v popular also. den some more recored de ringtone.. could it b mine?! but when i went up to him on fri, it was e some sort of "orange-brown" colour de... i was kinda sure tt e colour looked blue to me.. den tot tt mayb he change e cover n everything.. den at TM heng heng let me c him again.. so 'qiao' meh.. was thinking is it really him? 'shang tian' is helping me ah? coz a girl could have actually sold it to him. den at first when we walked past him, i heard 1 of his fren. a girl said" this girl again. was thinking could it b her? really suspicious lor.. so when we saw them going to pizza hut. i took a cab home to get e paper they gave when i bought e hp to tm to check again... coz every hp have a unique no. when u key in some no. .... so when i got hold of e hp.. i checked.. saw e first few no. same as mine.. was thinking OMG! but when i come to e last few digits.. they were different. at first tot wah lau.. i so lucky... can save me from buying a new hp..but hai... too bad.. malu also lor.. but at least keep my mine at rest liao.. no need keep thinking bout it.. o well.. 4get it. get a new 1. hai.. but really gotta thanks to branda n kelly 4 helping me.. coz i damn 'dan xiao gui'.. =X

gonna quit this job liao.. gonna b broke le.. really cant bear to use my $ in my bank on a new hp n mp3.. but no music when u take bus damn boring de leh... si ah... gotta spend my $ wisely liao..

ya.. after i got home quarrelled with my aunt.. really bth... i get alot of freedom which i m really lucky..(i also wun luan luan lai de ma..'wo zi ai' ok..) but sometimes really get irritated by her. screamed at her until i lost my voice. sore throat ...first time man... know she old liao la.. but sometimes really bth lor.. like leave me alone la! remembered tt i used to b v happy when she comes home n would open e door 4 her e moment i hear e sound of her keys from e other side of e door.. (coz always at home alone.. damn lonely).. so happy lor when she comes home.. but now also no difference... even when she's at home i also damn sian.. mood changed damn fast hor.. at first was happy happy de when with branda n kelly... den go home damn bad mood..hai... was damn no mood to stay at home... in tt stupid house... argh!!! sometimes e tot of moving out comes to my mind.

2004-08-28T00:45:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Magic is in the air. Unexpected reality comes to life like a miracle.**

I M PISSED. I M FED UP. I M ANGRY. I M STRESSED OUT. I HAVE HAD ENUFF! all because of e fndb project. yes its all my fault. wasted so much of my time. n now i panic. fndb assignment is due on mon. or so i tot. juz checked it on OLE myself n phew~ e deadline is on FRI.stilll hai~ only started doing this week.... even though it was given about a month ago..-.-zzzz.... wth.. every1 in class (i know de) damn slack. damn cham. no motivation. wanna get help also dunno who to go to...AAAHHHHH~!!!!!! shen ah~ jiu jiu wo ba~ now its only me alone. gotta depend on myself. if i rely on others think i will only get to nowhere. now its serious business 4 me. no more nonsense. ppl who r of no help pls stay away from me.

gonna cont doing my fndb liao... its damn difficult lor... spent alot of time thinking bout e tables blah...moreover i dun have e notes with me now >:( gotta go OLE n open e damn stupid file. guess i will only have less den 3hrs of slp later. gotta go sch early to type those thingys out using e oracle b4 e prsp lessons start. den will b working in e afternoon... zzzz... 'mei shi jian, wo mei shi jian...' now i m gonna b selfish liao... its not my fault. i worked 4 it.its all my effort. my hard work better pay off...

yup.. today went lab n did it alone. no distractions. skipped my cmaths lec.irritating things happened. e 1st lab de printer got prob so couldnt print them out. wasted so much time to cut n paste blah.. attach to email blah... din bring my zip disk along to.. zzz.... den.. change lab. at e 2nd lab saw some 'jian' ren. a group of girls n 1 guy. all flirting ard.. damn noisy. den at 1 pt of time, i saw 1 of e girls walking along e rows of computers. 4 wat? c if any1 so careless left their hp there. -.- she said it herself to her frens n i heard it loud n clear. JIAN RITE? wah lau... 1st time i c this kind of thing lor.. gave her tt kind of 'dun try to b funny' kind of look when she was checking out e next row of PCs on my rite after a girl left e rm. bth... its not tt she HAPPEN to c it lor... its tt she actually go FIND 4 it.. really nuting to say about this kind of ppl. hopeless. u ppl better b careful of ur stuffs. hai~ my 7200...

yup.... was late 4 work liao. took bus anyway. din wanna waste my $ on cab. n know wat.. something 'suay' happened. i brough my uniform but not my pass! so how to go work?! >:( found out only after i reached e airport n was searching 4 it. had to go all e way home to get it.. hai.. bad day...

Taurus: A strong, intimate, physical connection happens for you this evening.** <-- fri's... yeah rite..

2004-08-26T21:43:00.000+08:00

Taurus: People have shifted their way of thinking - they are more selfish now.**

had e sucky cmsk subject today.din wanna go de coz had to tok in front of e class on a topic tt e teacher would make us pick out from an envelope.. but no choice.. cannot run away from it anway. this wk dun do there will surely b another day 4 it. no way. cannot b a coward. so i went. sat there 4 2 hrs till it was my turn. last in class as usual ma coz of ma surname... ZHOU. was like waiting to die like tt. damn long. i damn heng lor. picked an ez 1... wat would i do with e money if i have 1million dollars. wth.. ez rite?! wasted only... i heng heng got wat i wanted lor coz e rest were worse... my ambition.. my passion.. fav tv show..-.- wth to say man.. but too bad i wasted it.. actually tot wat i wanted to say liao if i am to pick this few ez 1s.. but e moment i stood in front i began to 'kou chi'. 'travel' n i dunno said wat...'tra-vel' or wat..'tra-fel'..-.-""""' kept saying i would do this n this.. blah blah blah... no "because blah blah blah"... no conclusion also.. coz i tot e way i said it how to have 1? BLEAH! think those ppl who din do well 4 e other sucky topics they picked r 'suay' lor.. they sure would have done better if they were to have my topic. DAMN EZ LOR! ARGH!! stupid.. it was like might as well skipped e lesson n go to e lab to do my fndb assignment coz i will get f9 anyway.. hai... though had a bit of support from e girls but still... not much diff lor.. more stress only.. coz i will only disappoint them.... damn 'mei lian jian ren'... so ez also cock up..-.-

today damn have no mood lor.. dunno is it coz my "aunty" come visit me liao... on my way to sch saw my classmate cai er at e bus stop.. din c her till she called me.. kena shock.. on e bus din tok to her or wat coz i sat in front.. like damn unfriendly hor.. =( but dunno wat to say also ma.. in sch we dun tok de.. den in sch damn irritated lor.. seems to me tt i have no time to complete a lot of things.. assignments blah blah blah.. i m running out of time man! all due next wk n i m less den half done with them... shit. at apel tut cai er offered me sweet but i din wan it. usually i m not used to take things from ppl i dun know v well de ma.. but c her like tt dun wanna make her think tt i hate her or had anything against her la(on e bus i already so bad liao).. so i took it. i was like.."no thanks.." den c her face.." ok la.. lai lai lai.. give me. i eat la... give u face.." haha... c her so sad ma.. den during e cmsk e group of girls were sitting behind us so we did tok a little lor.. not bad la actually they all.. mayb tt time c they prettier than me den i jealous only.. lol... ya la.. seriously they not bad lor..mayb i kept c-ing my face in e mirror so many times tt i m so sick of it liao. e stare stare de also tok a bit.. not bad la.. juz tt tt time din like her keep staring at me.

let me tell u.. i HATE ppl to stare at me. look 4 more den 10sec also cannot .. when i look at them they still stare a bit b4 turning away.. those with tt kind of look worse.. not happy like tt.. as if i have done anything wrong. watever it is... i hate tt k. whether its a fren(if there's anything wrong juz tell me k.. dun juz keep looking at me as if i should know wat e prob is), my dad, my aunt, my sis, ppl i dunno, my boyfren(tt is if i ever have 1). cannot be to admire me lor... coz i wouldnt think of it as tt .. disgusting.. mayb i m really too sick of myself liao... i know i m not ugly la.. but i wouldnt b pretty either.. juz normal. to b normal i m already happy... those damn pretty de i muz say they muz thank their parents man... they r only lucky tt they have e looks... those ugly de not their fault ma.. they din choose to b this way.who wans to b anyway? cant stand those who think as if they r "god".. its juz on e outside.. they r juz human like e rest of us..wats so great? i dun give a damn about them..c also dun wanna c. mayb tts y i dun hang ard with them..coz most of e time all i c r a bunch of useless ('zhong kan bu zhong yong' de) pigs who think too highly of themselves. k la.. mayb i 'zi bei' , jealous only k.. but seriously.. some of them(u can commonly on streets, along orchard rd) walking with their head high up. k.. mayb tts wat confidence is all about but some of them damn snobbish lor..'mu zhong wu ren' ah...

some kind of story to share:

juz now was surfing e web n i came across this story about the tree,the leaf n the wind. heard it on 93.3 too i think some time ago... i m not gd with words.. dunno how to say it... so it would b better if i copy n paste it here, then u all would get e whole thingy.. or story... here it goes:

Story of Leaf’s Departure

Tree:
My name is Tree. Why? It is because of my talent in painting trees. Through time, all my paintings were trademarked with a tree at the lower right corner.
I have dated 5 girls in my Pre-U years. But, there was this one special ordinary girl who I am very fond of that I have never dated. She totally captivated me with her innocence, honesty, intelligence, cuteness and fragility. Felt as though I have to protect her from this ugly world. Reason why I’ve never dated her is that I felt she was too ordinary for me, or maybe, I am afraid to taint a heart as pure as hers. Her name is Leaf. We were good friends.
Through the 3 years, she watched me as I dated each girl. It must have been a terrible feeling to see the one you love going after another. ‘Cause each time that I did, she cried. She didn’t know that I know she cried, but I know. When I was with my second girlfriend, she bumped into us accidentally when we were kissing. Embarrassed she was, but she smiled and said, “Sorry, go on…” before running off. The following day, her eyes were as swollen as walnuts. I just made fun of her the whole day just to hide my emotions from her. She was then alone in the classroom, crying. I was there instead of being at my soccer training, but she did not know. She cried for an hour. I watched her.
My fourth girlfriend did not like her. There was this one incident when both of them quarreled. I figured that my girlfriend must have started it as she wasn’t the type to start a quarrel. But, despite knowing this, I told her to stop. Her eyes were filled with tears as I walked off with my girlfriend. It must have hurt. Even I felt hurt for hurting her. The following day, she continued to laugh and joke with me as though nothing had happened.
When I broke off with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. I told her that I have something that I wanna tell her. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me as well. I told her about my break up and she told me of her attachment. I know the very moment who the guy was. His name is Wind. He had been going after her for a while now. An interesting cute guy filled with energy. His pursuit for her has been spread throughout the school. I congratulate her, hiding my pain within me. Now I know how it felt. It was terrible. It feels as though a vacuum from with the heart is sucking the walls in, unbearably painful. I broke down and cry when I got home. It hurt, and it hurt more to think of the pain she went through for me.
Ten days after, during my graduation, I read an sms. It was sent on the day I went out with her. It says, “Leaf left. Not because of Wind’s pursuit, but because Tree did not asked Leaf to stay.”

Leaf:
I liked collecting leaves and I admired them. I feel that it takes lots of courage for a leaf to leave the tree she had relied on for so long.
During my Pre-U days, there was this guy whom I was very close with. We were like buddies. But jealousy hit me when he started dating his first girlfriend. This was when I realized that what I had felt for him wasn’t just friendship.
They broke up two months after. But he got together with another a month later. I liked him and I know he is also fond of me. Why won’t he pursue me? It hurts me deep each time he got together with another. But I waited by his side, caring for him, loving him, hoping that one day, he might be with me. And I waited for 3 years.
At the end of the third year, I came to know of a guy named Wind. He is a second year junior, a guy who gave his all to be with me. His pursuit for me was relentless, like a warm, gentle wind trying to sweep a leaf off the tree she is holding on to. I realized that this wind would bring this badly battered leaf to a better, far away land. I decided to give this wind a chance. I told Tree that I was leaving, hoping that he might ask me to stay. Tree just smiled and congratulated me. And I left Tree. I left, not because of Wind’s pursuit, but because Tree did not asked Leaf to stay.

Wind:
I’m Wind, a second year junior. I’ve fallen for a girl named Leaf. A girl who was very attached to Tree. I first saw Leaf a month after I’ve transferred to the new school. She was this innocent petite looking girl who is always watching Tree during our soccer practices. Every practice, she’ll be there looking at him, frowning each time he talked to another girl, and smiling each time he turned to look at her. And each time, I’ll be looking at her.
One day during our practice, Leaf did not appear. And Tree wasn’t at the practice either. An uneasy feeling overwhelmed me. I just had to know what had happened. I went to their classroom to look for them. There, I saw Tree arguing with Leaf. And I saw Leaf cried as Tree left. The following day, she appeared again, at the same place, looking at him. I went over to her, smiled and passed her a note. She turned to look at me and accepted the note. She returned me a note the following day that says, “Leaf’s heart is too heavy for Wind to blow her away.” I then wrote her another note, “It is not because Leaf’s heart is too heavy. It is because Leaf did not want to leave Tree.”
We started to talk more often after that. Though I know that I’m not the one she loves, but I know that if I persevere, she will like me someday.
For four months, I have had declared my love for her countless times. And each time, she will avoid the topic. And each time she did, I tried again.
One day, when we were talking over the phone, I ask her again to be with me. There was a break of silence.
And I asked, “Hey, still there?”
She replied, “I’m nodding my head.”
“Huh?” I exclaimed, not believing what I’m hearing.
With a louder volume she replied, “I’m nodding my head.”
I hung up the phone and sped down to her place. The moment she opened the door, I hugged her, tightly. But at the same time I was thinking, “Did Leaf left because of Wind’s pursuit, or because Tree did not asked Leaf to stay.”

got it? kinda sad rite?

2004-08-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Right in the nick of time, you will be the big hero of the day.**

woohoo~! today took back my cmaths paper. damn happy with my marks. 47/50! best in class wor.. not bad not bad... but cannot b too happy.. this is e starting only.. e Qs next time will surely b more 'gao nan du'. keep skipping cmaths lec.. my sets now a bit got prob le. din learn some of them in amaths e other time, now its like dunno wats he toking about. today's tut was like spending most of e time c him tok only... tok wat? i dunno...coz i was juz staring at him. tried to get them into my head but like 'xin bu zai yan'. damn bored lor.

b4 e tut had 4 hrs of break... so made use of it to work on my fnbd assignment tt is due on wk 11.... tt is nxt wk!!! ..... damn irritating.. couldnt get e colums rite... e way i wan it to b.. kept trying till 5...tt was like 4 1hr...zzz.. shit. late 4 tut le. -.-

fri no sch from 1pm onwards bcoz of CCN(dunno wat it stands 4.. sch thingy lai de) so should b staying back after cmaths lec to finish it. e make-up lessons will b on sat..-.-zzz... 4got which day gotta work again.. think its sat.. better double check on fri.

i m starting to have tt kind of "cant b bothered attitude" again.. ppl.. bear with me pls...

TUE:
Taurus: You are in a good, confident position to say what you need to say.**

damn cham. missed carc tut coz woke up late. hai.. so couldnt get my paper back...supposed to wake at 6 den went back to slp. when my aunt woke me up at 7.30 i went back to slp again... thinking tt my sch starts at 9. -.- woke up at 8 still thinking tt i should b able reach sch juz in time.. until kelly sms me.. asking me i reach sch liao ma.. -.-

din go 4 carc lec n make-up lec 4 prsp too. damn lazy liao.. some more no attendance taken. kelly n branda din go too, so in e end we were at 201 there having lunch. later went with kelly to suntec.. bugis (got a top from there..) , den chinatown n orchard(alone) to get my 'thing' from women'secrets.. hehe.. at last! den go home liao lor.. tired man...

'yi tian jiu zhe yang guo qu' le...

2004-08-23T23:17:00.000+08:00

Taurus: The next four weeks is a time for you to get more organized.**

yeah man... getting there soon... cant believe last sat i actually sat infront of my pc not juz stare at e monitor, but was working on a prsp lab Q wor..hehe... was typing away all e java codes n getting help from e lect notes n past lab/tut papers. not bad.. managed to complete 1Q 1hr later...juz a bout e time when andy called me to go 4 supper...(i will cont about this supper thingy later on...) n juz now i spent some of my time sorting out e subjects papers. v messy ah... v scared i leave out any of them. so went thru all e pages/slides on OLE n checked them 1 by 1.. lec by lec, tut by tut..blah...phew~ now my table is much more neater liao.. =D

planning prog 4 tomolo after sch liao.. ending at 11 tomolo coz of e make-up lesson 4 prsp lec. ok la.. still early.. 2-5 have lab 4 self-training?... there will b teachers ard la but not sure whether they will b providing any Qs 4 us to work on not.. hmm... wanted to go de..( cannot slack anymore le ma.. muz work hard liao) but in e end decided to go next week de ba. more time to find Qs to ask e teacher ma..(though i have 1 le la but find more better la.. 'sun bian' ma.) so tomolo will b going ahopping le ba.. gotta buy 'something' tt i have been wanting to buy since b4 e june hol..-.-" v cham rite.. ros also cannot stand me liao.. kept telling her i will b going to her place there(seiyu) to buy (coz got discount ma..).. den she will always call me to ask when on earth will i b really dropping by..haha. ya la.. wanted to go sentosa sun tan de also... but.. hai... dunno la...

ya.. really bth some of my class ppl.. act until so.. wah.. really bth lor. there's 1 'chee hong' guy. hop from 1 girl to another. 1 leave him, he 'jiu' hop! -.- who e hell he thinks he is.. cannot let him do wat he wants lor.. CANNOT give him e IMPRESSION tt he can do watever he wans lor! warn tt girl le.. she still like tt.. really dunno wats she thinking.. cant she c wat kind of person he is?! suddenly so close to her. nowadays go to places with him.. we ask she 'jiu' dun go..-.- zong se qing you ah? DUN B FOOLED BY HIM AH! ask 4 pity only.... bth ah~~~ dunno wats she thinking... watever. cant b borthered with her le....hai. i m sure tt if she rejects him too he have no "place" to go liao... unless change class la.. den got new girls liao lor.. gd 4 him! -.-""" 'wo jiu shi yao kan ta tong ku' la... wahaha~~~~~~~ *evil* teach him a lesson ma.. qi si ren.... another 2 also.. 'gou nan nu'.. 1 have bf le still flirt ard with another... hai.. poor bf man.. "dear" here "dear" there..even infront of our classmates.-.-... 'nong jia chen zhen' ah.. though they kept denying it but we can c de lor.. not juz me lor.. think even e whole class also can c..obvious lor... c both their characters ah.. they a bit those desperate type la..

sometimes really wanna change class man.. bth ah~ c them also sian liao.. spoil my mood ah.. but e rest of e ppl r alrite la.. though din have e chance to tok to some of them... hmm..

yup.. 1 by 1 have 'dui xiang' liao lor in our lec hall.. not really 'dui xiang' la but at least some1 to look out 4 ma.. nicks kelly n branda give them.. "bartender " la.. with thick framed glasses.. "street guy" la.. haha.. n i dun have any...hai... interested but dunno them de wats e pt.. rite? e "street guy" yue kan yue not bad.. curlyhair.. eh...haha.. not trying to snatch from branda.. but ya lor.. cute la.. branda said 1st day of sch when they sat beside each other in e lec hall n she ask him a Q.. he juz said something like:" shh... listen to e teacher." 0.0! ..lol.. funny man he... hmm...

v cham hor.. i like gossiping here.. well.. let u know what kind of idiotic ppl i have met out there ma...

SUN:
Taurus: Tact and thoughtfulness seem to have left the building entirely.**

back to e supper part... after midnite liao so its sun lor.. so when we were walking back to my blk after supper nuting happened lor(almost kicked e offerings though.. chinese 7th month ma..). later when were walking back again after getting canned drinks from a vending machine ,tt was 2blks away, something scary happened. *glup* a cat kept following us. all e way man... to my blk.e scary thing is tt it kept looking back when it stops. ...... as if looking at something.. ............. u know.. animals actually can sense "those things" rite... *glup* tried to keep my cool... den wanted to take e lift but e cat kept following us. scared tt it would follow me into e lift so i juz stayed at e void deck....until 1man came out frome lift! .. at this time..(2am + liao..) heng ah.. den quickly got andy into e lift. when he went back downstairs to go home..e cat din follow him liao.. den i was thinking...it was following me ah? 0.0! ehh.... bleah! din think bout this '7th month' thingy so much until now.. coz of e incident... ...........*glup*

den later go slp liao... at first tot tt i was working at 7 until i remembered i should b doing 2 closing this wk.. so... more time 4 some serious slp!

anyway.. i was wrong.. woke up from a terrible headach.. dizzy n felt like vomiting... din know wat was happening to my body man... felt terrible. all e way to work.. felt better only after taking e acti-fast? panadol. hai... den was working with e malay girl again. tot with e sup =( den later in e evening she asked me:" why u so quiet? r u always like this? or only when working with me? 1st or 2nd?" i said 2nd. =X true wat...nuting to tok to her about.. always so lame de..n sacarstic...i cant b bothered with these ppl lor.. trying to get (my) attention only.i told her u have things to say juz say la! dun have to wait 4 me... wat u wan me to say? lame jokes? (like u?) -.- pls...ya la.. she those talkative type la.. make funny noises only.. at 1 pt she asked me i dislike her huh..of coz said no lor.. like unwillingly like tt..=X lol... ya lor.. den actually finished cleaning up all e things b4 12 de.. tot can go home early.. but drag till 1 coz of all e paper work..-.-" i wanna go home slp de lor... de when taking e cab told her outside departure hall gate 3 n she went arrival hall. some more din have e hp with her..-.- luckily e cab came late also.. if not i would have left without her.. hai.. in e end change today's shift with her... though get to work longer hrs than on fri.. but e tot of working with tt' hao chi lan zhuo' de girl i sian liao.. nuting got nuting to say also..wasting my time there.. bored to death.. so might as well dun earn tt extra 12bucks? yup...

Fri:
Taurus: You can't trust everyone - even the people you used to trust.**

was carving 4 e porridge @ chinatown so after sch went there 4 dinner with kelly. *BURP!* eat till damn full there....after e porridge, 1 bbq wing, tofu n yu sheng... walked ard.. look at more food! keke.. den later it was desert time! had e peanut thingy... watery watery de.4got wat its called..den home sweet home liao. =)

2004-08-15T21:54:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Don't be too critical of your loved ones. They are just human.**

sian ah sian...now dunno 'fan' wat also... keep thinking about some things.. hai.. tomolo sch reopens liao.. assignments havent do.. havent done anything 4 e group project. ......1 week of hol so fast 'guo qu' le... after this gonna look thru e assignments n find ads on PCs 4 tomolo. siti wans us to go to sch at 9am tomolo to do e carc project.. sian ah! tot could slp till 11. tomolo's classes 4 e whole of tp start at 1pm onwards ma coz of e graduation thingy.. hai.. HAO MEN AH! kill me ba, kill me....

hao sian ah! how i long 4 something exciting to happen to me...

Taurus: You are on stable ground with your lover. Build on what exists.**

yesterday out again.... went shopping with kelly @bugis! hehe.. at last managed to find a nice top. bought a 'ring-watch" thingy too. cute wor.. pink 1 some more..-.- ... haha... later den went to marina for e concert to c ZHANG JING XUAN! omg... sang 'duan dian'! crazy liao.. again.. while he was singing 'My Way'... he actually walked dwn e stage to shake e ppl's hands. i walked to e front too.when i almost got a chance to take a pic of him upclose, he suddenly turned ard n walk up e stage.. -.- damn it! no chance again... @$#%@#& there were other singers too... 2R (their voice not bad.. sweet.. but too bad i dun know canto, otherwise i would b able to understand wat they singing) , electrical (rock band from sg, their songs really not bad too) , ben yeung, zhang feng qi... blah... overall not bad la e concert. know wat? we actually stood 4 bout 3 whole hrs juz waiting 4 zhang jing xuan to come out. -.-"" u know how tiring tt is ba...

ARGH!!!! i m bored!! its driving me crazy!!!!!!! I HATE THIS!!!!! ok... i got nuting to type liao... wasting my time away online with no1 to tok to.. gotta get out of here liao.. mayb wun b blogging 4 e next few days ( jing tian ri ji kong bai mei you guan xi. bu bi mei jian shi qing dou zai yi~)...gotta refrain myself from using my pc le. so long.. fare well..its time to say gd bye....~ *gone 4 gd*

2004-08-13T15:44:00.000+08:00

Taurus: The passion in the air can be explosive if you aren't careful.**

it was out till morning again yesterday. went Hendrix at CQ n ClubIII at MS. at first my mood was spoilt liao lor. went in Hendrix with kelly, branda n her 2 malay frens first while andy, leonard n ta ming went to draw out some money from e atm machine. waited so long dao 'bu nai fan' le den decided to call them... when we did, they were already at ms. -.- sickening! 'pian' us go hendrix. actually i din wanna go too lor.. coz so many malays..(actually it was every1 lor..) think e guys also sian.. no chi girls to c.. mayb i should have said i din wanna go in.. hai.. but tot go c c .. $10 bucks only. but poor guys la.. had to pay $28. guys 'jiu shi chi kui' de..kinda not worth it too lor..ok la.. mayb cant blame them too.. but.. at least tell us rite! we dun call den wat? juz make me n kelly wait there meh? -.-

inside hendrix damn small lor.. e dance floor is pathetic. i could have guessed tt huh coz CQ.... wat can u expect? den e music is all r'n'b. dunno how to dance lor.. all e malay girls there...eeee...... saw 1 pregnant lady also there...-.- (bu hui ba..) still i dunno y branda likes to go there...hai.. devil's bar is e best la.. DEVIL'S BAR ROCKS!!!!! YEAH! e music they play.... although e dance floor is slightly bigger.. but e whole place is BIG lor. c lai c qu wun sian ma...have 2 rooms, places 4 ppl to sit ard... tt place is highly recommended!!!!! o ya at Hendrix.. if u r below 18 u will get a band instead of a chop. get plastic cups 4 soft drinks too... haha... ya saw an ex kc sch mate there too...... actually CQ is gd place if u looking 4 pubs n wanna hang ard.. drink...

clubIII is small too but its still bigger than MS there...mirrors everywhere.... mayb its used to make e whole place look bigger.... or... let ppl c themselves while dancing. -.- din know e songs they play there are all techno.they play spirit of yesterday..blah... n surprise surprise... SATISFACTION! saw a few girls (or ah lians) screaming those cheers (yo ah~ yo ah~ yo ah yoah yo ah~... den mei you~ mei you~ mei yo mei yo mei yo~ (mei you=dun have in chi) -.- looking at themselves in e mirror n screaming like hell... as if nobody's business. techno songs r ok la.. but not ah beng ah lians lor...ya.. had a hell of a time there.. especially e guys.. haha..doing all e pole dance la ..blah (although no poles 4 them la.. they use human, mirror n a pole-like thingy at 1 corner) .. lol SAX-SAY!

after tt we walked all e way to CQ....esplanade there....ard 4 plus den took a cab dwn to geylang... 0.0!!!!! do wat? eat la! walk till hungry liao.. andy damn funny lor.. when he managed to flag n stop a cab, he juz tell e driver: " 5ppl go geylang." !!!!! dunno wat e driver was thinking la but it sounded as if we go there do wat like tt...lol...'kai fang'....go hotel.. 1 by 1 rejected us... said coz scared of rd block..so no choice but 2 take 2 cabs there....sui bian la...

at e 'you tiao' there ate quite a lot of things.. den at e other table...there were about 7 guys? n 2 girls.. e guys were thinking whether they r 'those kind of ppl' not..abit 'china looking'.. mayb they think too much liao.. hmm... mayb e guys of e other table also thinking about e same things huh... if yes den they r so damn wrong. after eating 'bao bao' liao its time to head home!

b4 e clubing thingy me n kelly went orchard shopping... however.. din manage to get anything.. hai.. when u really wanna get something always like tt de.. dun have de... den took neo print! hehe... with my new hairstyle! yeah!!!!

2004-08-12T15:03:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Spend as much time at home today as possible. It will heal you.**

thursday liao~ suppose to slp 1 hr only den go to work in e end overslept! woke up only when T1 called me n i was like looking at e clock. shit! 10plus liao! den i told him if i go will reach ard 12. no point rite work 4 3hrs only... so i said i not going ba.. he was like pissed off ba... juz hang up e phone.. den i go back to slp again...hehe...

AT LAST I CUT MY HAIR SHORT! went bugis de Chapter2 4 their colour contour package. includes cut, treatment, colour, highlight n style. not bad la...though dun have 'nu ren wei' le..tomboy le.. at least i change my hairstyle le. but think if my fringe isnt tt short it will look better la... but ok la.. nice la nice la... mayb juz not used to it... c short hair weird weird de. long hair still e best. colour my hair e girl cute lor... could c tt she was trying to tok to me but... but eh... cute lor... in e last part she came back to c how my hair le. she was like: " hmm... not bad.. more style le...look different le =D." keke... i was like ya lor.. at least change hairstyle le.... i told her wanna change ma coz all along long de... sian liao.... she was like "ni she de meh?" of coz not lor.. but wat to do.. sian liao.. some more juz cut my hair den not satisfied.. so wth.. CUT LA! e cutter also cute... 1 part she was like: " hai hao they left 'ji gen' of my fringe 4 me to cut..." haha...den toked about face shapes... i found out tt they cut e fringe 4 ONLY $5 FLAT! know i go there liao....hai... next time next time...

after tt went TAXI at bugis junction find my old frens (used to work there) since i there ma... den 1 girl couldnt recognize me lor.. not coz of my hair leh... its tt she really dun remember my face! i was like toking to her den c her kept looking at me.. staring den i asked her she know who m i not.. she dunno. -.- mei liang xin de dong c... tt time 1-2 months ago some more went MU with her n frens n lynn....hai... den later go find ros at seiyu also.. c me say i look more mature le.. ah lian again..-.- coz i highlight my hair red again... ok la.. mayb next time try other colours liao... hai... red something different ma...

den later its to DEVIL'S BAR! woohoo~ long time no go le.. heng i can go in ah...like e songs they play lor.. e live band also not bad.. they play songs like linkin park...britney....milkshake... shut up n SATISFACTION! haha...stayed till 3 only coz damn tired ah.. my legs too... was damn slpy lor...coz of e drinks? until later meet andy go eat supper at 201 den 'jing shen' le... later go somewhere tok cock also. till 6. took a bus home wanted to buy e loreal shampoo 4 coloured hair but my hosue dwnstairs dun sell... wa lau... some more waited 4 him to open e shop.. go in dun have..-.- scared my colour later come out again.. foam pink pink again... den its slping time! (o ya juz now while waiting 4 ai ling.. i saw 1 aunty bout 30++yr old in a red silky? halter dress walking here n there infront of me... tot she looking 4 something or wat but when i saw her 2times approching 'ang mo' man.. hmm.. u know wat i'm thinking.. i think she is 1 lor... cannot b wrong. she old man still... hai.. tts y kena rejected la.. think if e 'ang mos' go clubs cfm can get better 'huo se' de...)

tonite think wun b going home again liao.... will b going Hendrix with branda kelly andy they all...hmm.. sian lor.. no free drinks de... coz only above 18 can.... hope they dun check la... b4 tt me n kelly going shopping first at orchard!!!! later e guys will den meet us there... now e branda dunno going not.. (hai.. after saying so much..) said there having some competition tonite. watever.. we will still b going ba...

2004-08-10T12:19:00.000+08:00

SUN:
Taurus: Save the best for last, so that you have something to look forward to.**

din do much ba today. was working with a new malay girl. she was from delifrance? like e rest.sian... trying to b funny only. but i no mood to laugh at her lame jokes lor. -.- cant b bothered with these kind of ppl. e way she tok damn sacarstic also. asked me m i this quiet everytime. i told her depending on these elements: who wat where blah... n if she wanna tok, have things to say juz do it...correct ma.. no need wait 4 me. i have things to say or ask i will open my mouth. c also c my face fierce fierce le. gd lor. dun try to b funny with me lor. after work went pw awhile pass dad something coz tot of cutting hair also but close. -.- .hai.. den later andy say sian wanted to go tm hang ard or c movie.couldnt think of any nice 1 so i tot y not come my house c vcd? e 1 tt YS lent it to me. din have time to c n some more gotta return it to him when sch reopens le. kelly wanted to c also so asked her n branda along too. luckily kelly at grandma house, near near so could come. e show so so only la. a bit stupid also some parts.not bad lor. managed to c 3 out of 7 disc. tot only 1... coz started at 6plus. a v last min thing lor. den c e last episode of 'happy fish'. after tt went to eat. n den home.

MON:
Taurus: Loved ones respond to you in new ways. Romance is on the upswing.**

IT'S SG'S 39TH BIRTHDAY!
early morning receieved a call from a fren whom i havent been contacting liao. no. not in my contact list n i din really go c e no. only after few of hello(s) n ya(s) den could i recognize e voice n who e person is on e line. shock. muz b too bored liao den call me. watever. was thinking should i say i was on e phone?but no, in e end i did not. i put dwn e other phone coz i wanna c wat he have to say.asked same old Qs again..zzz...a few mins later we both hang up. din know wat to say. anyway, was so tired till i almost fall aslp b4 he called.

den its working time at 6! kinda sick of tt place le...e ppl... e pay.... mayb i will really quit. den get other pt job like promoters. e pay is better. max $10/hr? den i can also concentrate on my studies ( tt is if i dun slack ). PRSP SUCKS! after my work went to cut hair coz my fringe damn long le, irritating me. planned to go airport de $10 hair cut but too many ppl le. damn siao lor.. so many ppl on national day go airport cut hair. -.- in e e end went simei there cut. sickening de lor.. cut till now my hair look so sucky. fringe too short.. now my back hair also so short. so toot! ARGH!!!!! asked her to trim only lor.. stupid malaysian. not going back there anymore.. $14 bucks somemore. i know cheapo la but tt time i went to e $10 1 n 1 at roxy $8 only (aunty cut too lor but gd hor.. wanted to go there but dun think its open. public hol. sun went too but close. tue lazy to go all e way.well... mayb i should have waited huh.) n they did a better job. e stupid malaysian kept saying nowadays 'liu xing' like tt. like wth.. short n i look toot lor. this is call 'liu xing'? no taste man.juz trying to say tt her skills r gd...-.-

tue actually have a v impt appointment b4 work. but now i have to cancel it. really a bit e 'mei lian jian ren'.

later went 4 e stupid fireworks thingy at e esplanade with andy, leonard, ta ming and kelly but din c anything at all. -.- sian~ my concert also in e end din c... dunno its there not.. i next sat wanna go c leh.. got ZHANG JING XUAN ! i MUZ go. i WILL go. no work anyway. den later went 4 dinner den i went home w/o them le.din know wat they wanted to do also. kelly would b alone so thinking should go too not. but nah.. they can go enjoy themselves w/o me.din wanna spoil their mood. i sian sian de also. so after e 2nd time when i said i going home i juz turned n walk away. if not will b standing there till dunno wat time.(v cham lor.. now if everybody keep repeating this word "anything", i dun wait liao. i will make e decision 4 them. so wan or not cant blame me. i dun wanna waste time.)was damn tired lor. walked till i tot my legs were gonna break. v 'suan' lor. when i was working i practically stood e whole time. i was so tired tt i fell aslp on e bus. when i reach home it was slp again.

another day is gone juz like tt.

Taurus: You can be stable without having to be tense or uptight. Relax.**

yup e moment i woke up i called up to cancel e appointment. she sounded so.. hai.. as if she din care. still thinking whether i should go not on next tue ard e same time.its juz tt i m curious about tt thing lor. n now i m here blogging away... later its work again. all e way till 12. planning 4 my day tomolo liao. dunno going sentosa not. branda not going. kelly dunno. c my sis working tomolo not if not i ask her wanna go with me not. or gek ling. this is e best time to go lor coz its weekdays n only tp having hol this week. there should b kinda quiet ba. dunno la! if not stay at home c vcd le. n do my sch assignments? BLEAH ~ n now i remember. TOMOLO IT"S WED! devil's time! long time no go le.sms ai ling e other time but din reply me. >=( i hate it lor when some1 does tt. ask her again later or tomolo. if not i c Ivy going not after her work. hai... o ya.. but my hair is like shit, how to go?c i toot toot comfirm check de.

heard Nelly Furtado's TRY on my mp3 player juz now.her other songs also not bad.. powerless blah.. "n i c u standing there,wanting more from me, n all i can do is try ~" dun really know wat e whole song is about but i juz look at this sentence.really lei lor. to meet ppl's expectations of u. u live 4 urself. not others. so y should e things they say affect u? ya we do try to please them, but not all e time pls. its damn tiring. tts wat they always say: be urself! yup. but do not think too much of urself tt u hurt ppl's feelings, i dun mean tt. but i really cant stand those ppl who acts infront of u. damn fake lor! 'jia ren". 'zuo ren zuo' till like tt 4 wat? sian... if ppl think tt i m v quiet, i will try TRY to find things to say. if not tok rubbish like some ppl meh? like juz tok 4 e sake of toking. make a fool of myself only...no1 listen also wat 4? tok to myself better. sian... i not an interesting person la.... sian...

they say when a quiet person dun tok juz listen when in a group (though look abit extra la), e person is e 1 tt observes e ppl in e group. how they tok , their actions. this kind of person will easily c wat kind of a person they are. wat about u? which 1 are u?

2004-08-07T04:22:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Passion is everywhere. Spirits are high. Join in or be left out.**<--yesterday's

Taurus: Someone will pour on the charm to try and sell you something useless.**

now juz finish bathing after e whole day out with my classmates. tired tired.. in 1 hrs time will b going to work liao..zzz... tired but cant slp. 1 more hr also no point.so juz take this time to blog.

today(or should i say yesterday?)abit e fed up lor.suppose to b an enjoyable outing with my classmates(actually it still was ba) after our term test until SOME1 spoilt it. haha as if its our exams, term test only also celebrate.

after sch went pw play pool den kbox(had a crazy time there man.). din realise schs will b having national day celebration lor till we c go many 'kids' in red t. playing pool some more! bth.. ok la i also 'gin na' la but when u c those small size de playing a bit weird leh.... den later at kbox also 'du lan'. service bad la blah...den 1 fren brought along afew other classmates w/o our(me n kelly who planned this whole outing) de consent lor.. -.- no respect lor.its not tt we r v close to them also. weird lor. some more say we 'pang seh' him. made us more mad. always say this kind of things. he should b mind his words lor.insensitive de leh. dun think b4 he speak de..ownself asked them to come without us knowing only till they reach pw. they got another rm so he juz moved from 1 place to e other. who pang seh who first? who kept asking wat we gonna do on fri after prsp paper? who said he wanna go? if he had other plans juz go ahead la.. not tt its a MUZ to go out with us. some more different group n we din know they were coming! i mean.. juz go with them la! i dun like those ppl anyway. ..... those ppl i had mentioned e other time. 1 seriously think acting cool. 1 of this week's morning while walking into sch, 1 of them kept staring at me lor at e bench. from far c liao lor.all e way till i walked past her. this is not attitude prob ah?act cool only. si ah lian.not tt i against her lor. wth she really wans from me? she wanted to say hi or something? wat? wat? wat?! enuff lor. everytime i c them i also sian. i juz look else where.

den after e singing session both groups came out. we planned to go steamboat de lor but those ppl going i no mood le lor. eat with them..-.- ... den go all e way to marina south.... we all stood there like more than 5 mins? couldnt decide where to go eat. in e end me n branda juz walked n e rest followed. if not think no need eat le.. e other group think were still standing there. later they join us at pizza hut, at another table.-.- they really din have to follow us lor. after dinner we quickly walked out. they almost followed.*glup* u c... its damn troublesome lor to go out in a big group. different suggestions. wanna go c movie also difficult to get tix. fri so many ppl de.

in e end 4 of us(a few left liao) went ps to c THE VILLAGE. not a bad show actually... mayb not tt scary la.. but e ending is something different lor. tts e part i like. e village looked as if it is in e early 1880s or wat... but actually its during our modern time lor. last part where e person working in e reserve wildlife thingy saw e girl in those clothes found in olden times. bet he damn shock man.so tt village is actually in e wildlife reserve thingy, n so called "e woods". v creative ah.. curious about e movie? go check it out urself! i find it interesting lor... coz there's a twist to it.mayb not to u la.. but not bad ba... e ending is not wat every1 expected.

den kelly took a cab home alone. leonard din go if not they could share e cab coz they both staying in serangoon. me , branda n andy took nite bus. me n andy took e same 1 coz branda's bus doesnt stop near my house. i dun wanna walk all e way from CGH to my blk k.. damn far ah! walk b4 lor.bout 3-4bus stops. another nite bus stops at tamp blk 201 lor. 1 stop only, nearer. den andy walked me home b4 walking back to his house. tt was about 3 stops away in tamp.

so.. conclusion 4 today: wun b asking tt idiotic person out anymore. make ppl du lan only. next tue mayb go sentosa with kelly n mayb branda.. tt time asked us wanna go not but think he can go himself lor. or go with e group of girls eh.. ;) <---wo pui!

2004-08-05T15:17:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Strong beginnings can't come without having definite endings first.**<-- true true

today's carc paper not so bad la.. coz did study abit, know wat e paper is toking about..but a few parts din remember properly..wasted. surprisingly they din ask bout the BIOS ,Power On Self Test thingy, tot it will surely come out.

after lunch with e girls we saw e zhou chong qing n wei bing? from 93.3fm. mayb they were there to shoot e 'xiao hua xiao cao' thingy.

slping time again! after tt den study prsp. b4 i go... here's a few quotes 4 u ppl.dunno how to put them up under e 'Meaningful quotes and readings' coz when i do.. it all goes to e left.if i free go explore e html thingy den transfer them to there.n yup.. another song i like by Lin Jun Jie(actually his songs also not bad), Dou Hua You Tiao(soyabean milk n you tiao). kena influenced by my classmate coz he kept singing... v cute song. go check it out!

QUOTES:

- "I will take until i decide 1 who is finally deserving of me giving."
- "Wounds nv heals, it juz becomes a part of u." (by Jacky Wu)
- "U can nv b too sure because things r unpredictable."
- "U will only know how much u love the person when u give in a relationship."
- "Passion burned very prettily, but sooner or later e flames went out-- or left a scar."
- "U cant measure a relationship in time.Not chronological time."
- "Age is about e no. of yrs u've been on e planet, not how human being interact emotion-wise."

Here's a story i heard on 93.3fm on "shuo shuo er yi" last nite (tt goes something like this): God and an angel were watching a man from heaven playing golf alone. e angel knows tt e man isnt a gd person, therefore he requested God to punish him. However,none of them failed to go into e holes.e man was v happy. when e angel sees this,he was v angry.He kept asking God to punish him, make his shots miss e holes. God told him he knows wat he is doing n ignored e angel.the angel became more angry n aked God 1 last time:" y r u doing this?" In the end God juz replied:" this is his punishment. although he had all his balls in the holes, he has no frens to tell about this. he does not have any1 to share this happiness with."

The moral: we need frens to share out happiness as well as our saddness. otherwise it would b v unbearable.

indeed...its v 'tong ku' de. keeping everything inside us....

2004-08-04T14:32:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Your body is sending you messages. Listen to them carefully.**

yesterday went popular awhile with ros, heard jay chou's songs being played at e cd-rama. a bouncy..hip hop? kind of song was playing n 2 malay guys were like dancing..(or bouncing?) along..keke.. damn cute ah.

really pei fu him... e song he write v nice de. damn talented man...*envy envy* feel like getting his cd. but if buy tt time should have ordered earlier..have his 'xie zhen ji', more worth ma.. or i juz go dl la..=X kelly sent me e 'jie kou' not bad.. nice lyrics.all his lyrics damn meaningful de lor.. touching touching hai... sometimes hen xiang listen to his songs but.. reminds me of some things only..sometimes really try to avoid it. .. gui ji, qing tian, duan le de xuan... n this.. JIE KOU. qi li xiang not bad too...

here's e lyrics of 'JIE KOU'...i m like now replaying it again n again lor,listening carefully to e lyrics ='( :

翻著我們的照片想念若隱若現

去年的冬天我們笑得很甜

看著妳哭泣的臉, 對著我說再見

來不及聽見　妳已走得很遠

也許妳已經放棄我　也許已經很難回頭

我知道是自己錯過　請再給我一個理由說妳不愛我

就算是我不懂　能不能原諒我

請不要把分手當作妳的請求

我知道堅持要走是妳受傷的藉口

請妳回頭　我會陪妳一直走到最後

就算沒有結果　我也能夠承受

我知道妳的痛　是我給的承諾

妳說給過我縱容　沉默是因為包容

如果要走　請妳記得我<--y should i b doing tt? (如果難過　請妳忘了我)<---have always been trying

[e pain is the promise u gave me~] I HATE SWEET TALKERS! ='{

hai~ watever.. over jiu over le... no point liao... tts y its not ez to win me over! i not so stupid to kena cheated. but if u r a damn gd actor,den gd 4 u!

2004-08-03T19:48:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Today is a quandary. You are restless, yet also seeking calm.**

back at home after CMaths paper. at least 1 paper is over. but e worst is to come. 3 major subjects which i seriously need help.maths not really a prob actually but its juz tt my expectations 4 maths is much more higher. coz its an ez sub,all about formula, so muz pass... with flying colours tts e best.my maths is, u can say, best sub among the others. so all 'quan kao ta le lor'... i panic lor while doing e paper, coz i muz make sure my ans r correct.but i needed to do them fast too. was like looking at e clock kept thinking i muz finish by 4.30 den rush ah. but not bad.. actually its till 5 so actually had some time to check. but nah.. sian liao.. c all e binary digits..1 n 0... some more so cold in e lecture hall so got out of there lor...

v cham ah have this pc at my house. always have e urge to go online.no web 4 me to surf also, but juz wanna find frens to tok...sian ma.

fan also. need to know my work schedule liao coz too many plans liao, but e sup nv msg me.-.- hai.. need to go Singapore shopping centre 4 something, go sentosa sun tan, go my devils bar, go buy my 'nei zai mei'.. from tt time till now..meet yup with andy n erica(v long time nv c them le..1 yr or more le ba. e andy la... v bz with his work. a financial planner wat do u expect?) wat other things..... alot jiu dui le. n i almost 4got i ahve got fndb n carc assignments.-.- bz bz ah.. carc project havent done a single bit also, later siti fed up liao. wah lau.. some more gotta work. 'mei shi jian..wo mei shi jian...'...

ok.. i shall juz go study now...tata~

2004-08-02T16:50:00.000+08:00

juz now went dad's place to collect a cable so tt i can start using e internet. den went parkway walk abit..c hp, find my things. so late le..i m like suppose to study now lor... from 2 till now... ok.. gonna off this pc soon after i dl finish e jcreator. today shiok ah.. no sch.. coz this week is term test. will b having my first paper tomolo n tt is CMaths. wth.. did a few Qs only. e other sub havent even touch. last min of study again. tried to study so many times but when i wanna start, i begin to feel slpy. den i will go slp. zzz..zz.... damn cham. my 2nd CMaths close book exercise failed by half mark. -.- wonder how will i do 4 my tests this week. was suppose to study yesterday too but in e end moved this pc from my dad's house. do this kind of things wo jiu "qi ji'er" le... wiped my table la... pack a bit to make space 4 my pc la.. ahh~ damn tidy now. =D

hai.. if i fail e papers dunno wat i gonna do. feeling a bit useless actually. study also cannot study properly.slack so much.go work also sian.. wat can i work as?

speaking of work. last weekend de business was so poor. we were like bz 'pai cang ying'.sun worse still. no sandwiches to make,fruits to cut coz they were all done by e others e previous day. so spent e free time stare into space, use e pc, c tv, tok cock with my sup(alot of funny n stupid things happened to him b4.he alot of stories de.used to b a police.-.- hao ren dun have liao ah.. even e police also like tt). n also..EAT. e sup la... big 'wei kou' he have.. den pei him eat too. yesterday ate 1 sandwich, 1 subway 6-inch,fruits. den he go 'gai gai' 4 food n went to e foodcourt upstairs where e food r more ex than usual. tried to stop him from buying in e end join him eat. -.- bought e fried rice n hor fun n we shared.fat liao lor... tt time nan de lost some weight now put back on liao.. they used to say '"u slim liao ah..".. n now its " u seem to b shorter liao". tts wat my sis fren said e other time when she came to my house to stay overnite. hai...a bit e true.. but she damn cute la.. a bit tomboy de. tt time went chijmes look 4 my sis after work she was also there. couldnt find my sis so i asked her. it shocked me when she said "who r u?" tot she was joking at first but later found out tt she couldnt regconize me at tt moment coz i was dress quite differently from e way she saw me e other time at home.. (if u c e jap cartoon called 'nan nu qiao qiao ban',a vvvv cute n nice cartoon,last time shown on channel8 sat afternoon u will know wat i m toking about.. v aunty) keke.. other times when she c me she also 'jia jia' "who r u ah"... she so funny.. cute la.

la.... cant wait 4 e tests to finish. den go eat gd de with kelly they all.. sentosa sun tan la..my devil's bar! so many things too do.... ok i think too much liao.. still early wor..keke..

2004-07-27T19:14:00.000+08:00

Taurus: You have the power to sexually entice anyone you meet today.**

2hrs of sch again today. got my CARC quiz paper back. got 4/15, n 10 Qs r MCQs! wth.. like tt also fail.. next wk my term test how? havent studied 1 bit lor.. sian...study e stupid IT. feeling like i m going to sch juz 4 e sake of studying. wasting $. dunno i should stop this course not. sian lor.choose this course coz dun have others tt i can get in le if not go design or wat le. den wth, like so many ah lians.-.- mayb coz e COP is damn high lor. feel v 'shi bai' lor. dun study next time also do wat. fan ah!

den after sch went cine de kbox with kelly, e rest were gonna do their cmsk project. only us so slack.go 'xiao yao kuai huo' only. havent even do. thurs muz give to e kumarasan? liao.tomolo we gonna make use of our 4hrs break so better finish it lor.(ya.. i wonder how we gonna do tt.) yup at e kbox was like freezing to death. we like kena cheated of out money lor coz we were having e lunch there, n order delifrance de dunno wat they called it. so we were thinking we will b getting e crossiants? type but no,its those like normal chicken pies u get outside.-.- $6 bucks 4 tt lor. den when going to call ros i realised i din bring my organizer out! so no no. to call lor. great! cant meet them. however, when we were walking ard at far east i remembered kellyne is working there. though she is in sch, e shop ppl sure have her no. so went to ask. she was like looking at me n saying: "u sure its safe to give u?" haha.. think i wat meh.. stalker? stalk a ger? hmm... den met up with n she passed me a spare hp. gd gd..hehe ... in e end din go hang out with them(kelly was meeting her frens too) coz damn tired, eyes bth le(n dunno y i m still at my dad's place online eh..) so left orchard. while doing tt... dunno those ppl looking 4 new faces come up to me again.. said they do mags like teens blah..(eee...) so yup.. did give him my no. .. but yup.. i will c how lor..

n i 4got.b4 tt went to get my new sim card,asked e guy whether if i lost my hp n wanna get a new hp do i get discount after my sup told me singtel or m1 have this kind of thingy.. know wat? he handed me a $100 off voucher which i can use only if i get 1 tt time without any plan.need my aunt to go dwn in person also. felt damn cheated lor. when i got my 7200 e other time w/o line how come e ger nv tell me anything? JIAN HUO! got my mango skirt also like tt.. 1 wk later got sale...-.- all these $...hai....

2004-07-24T15:42:00.000+08:00

Wo yao lei si le..... yesterday after sch worked till 12.. go home c a little tv..bathe( so tt in e morning no need to wake up so early to bathe) bout 2.30 den slp. 5am woke up to work. ta han till now.. zzzz.... eyes wanna close liao... waiting 4 my sup. to drive me home later..hehe.. so juz go online lor. slp liao better wake up study liao... term test is in 2wks!!!! so fast... yup. today while working met quite a few of funny ppl. think all r indians. -.- i fed up of them le... hai... juz now about 3 of them(a bit of e construction worker or 'gan chu huo' de those kind came to get 2 mango yogurts. it was a total of $2.20. was attending to 1 of e airport staff(a malay police woman) n an indian lady with her son, n they were shouting 4 me. like no manners lor..-.- den after tt like wanna pick a fight or wat. gave me e exact change n was going back to those 2 when they juz stood there n din move? they wanted something frm me? i couldnt understand frm their body language. e airport staff was telling me to ask e police 4 help if they were trying to find trouble for me when shouting, n asked me to tell them to Q up. i din bothered n continued with e things i was doing. i wanted them to wait 4 their turn. yup after standing there 4 a few sec. n saying something to me which i couldnt understand. i told them: "yes? tt'll be $2.20. $1.10 +$1.10=$2.20.no change." showed them wat they gave me n e woman was like telling them e same thing too. asked them wat they wan..AGAIN.. n told they:" wat u wan? receipt? receipt?" they said dunno watever shit again n walked off. e woman said i this kind of thing i muz 'lian chou chou'. should have man... really dun get them.... c more n more of these things.

later again other 2 indian woman were trying to buy tea frm me. i got e $ in US n wanted to give them back their change when they turned ard n walked away. i was thinking ok nvm.. i get e tea first,give it to them when they come back to collect. but no. saw them walking further n towards e resting area. fine. i m not gonna walk there to deliver e teas to them. wat do they think i m? so i juz left e teas there. o ya. when they were ordering i din understand wat they were toking about so juz kept reapeating myself:"with milk or w/o?" ok fine. juz gave them 1 with n w/o. later my sup. came back frm his smoking session n told him bout it. he said he would deliver it to them which i said he din have too. anyway he did n they told him he din order.-.-" yup n they paid him again! joke of the day man. we juz got some extra cash lor. n btw, it was S$4, not US$4. they gave him $US so... WATEVER! WHO CARES! lol..... haiyo..

my sup told me quite a few of their jokes.. v their skin colour is like this n blah blah blah... when i have e time i shall type it here... keke...

o ya. e sup have 1 fren working here at BOSS. said look like Aron Kwok but i think looks more like Zhang zhi ling.. not bad looking too... keke...

2004-07-22T15:39:00.000+08:00

STRIKE 4D AH!!!~ lost hp again.. =( so suay.. left my hp in e toilet cubicle. realised it after bout 10mins in e cmsk classrm. i remember tt girl lor.. she was carrying tt cheapo clourful bag which was free from herWorld mag. wth.. selfish pig. dun she know tt hp is v impt to us nowadays? wait till she lose hers. i seriously curse her man! no mood le.. got out of e class to try my luck to c e girl with tt bag (called my hp too n she off it! sickening lor!). ok la stupid of me.. but my hp have so many things leh. pics...mms.. ringtones i dl...n e songs i wanna dl r inside. i juz bout 4 hp 4 months ago lor! my $868 gone...juz like tt. tt is like 2 or 3 months of work leh. hai...nvm lor.. its juz $. can still earn it back.sui bian lor.. hai.. need to an wei myself ma.. but ya la.. quite true.. watever la! now i m un-contactable. arrage my working schedule also difficult.meet my frens also difficult.hai..o ya. if my sis n dad finds out sure die! omg! she is in my frenster! ok.. i shall del her first.=X .... ........ ..... done! hehe.. trying to calm myself now...hai... thinking whether to get new line n hp now or wait till have promotion.. my plan gonna end in nov too. mayb borrow from some1 first ba.mayb i should try to live without a hp now.. hmm.... sian liao la. go home le la. dun wan stay here in sch online liao. tata~

2004-07-20T16:14:00.000+08:00

today's CARC quiz was like shit! ...ee nni mee nni maa nii mo de... 10MCQs. 2 short structured Q. gd lor... dunno wat to write 4 those 2. die. muz get 8 out of 15 to pass.wth. hard lor! e Qs all chim chim n confusing de,din know which ans to choose.n yup. i din study at all last nite after i got home. instead, i was watching e jacky wu show 'shi zi lu kou'. -.- wu liao... this morning wanted to get up 1hr earlier,den half an hr earlier to study but in e end still woke up at 6. wash up drag here drag there till 7.15, read (or mayb b i should use e word FLIP) thru e notes untill7.30 den go take bus to sch.it was useless anyway,thinking tt my this pair of 'si yu yan'(dead fish eyes'?was forcing my eyes to open e whole time) would spot some points tt would b of some use 4 e paper later. sch ended at 10 so after tt met up with Qiao Mei go K boX! sang 3times of my song..L.Y.D.I.A by F.I.R! lol siao liao... hehe...nice song to start n end e singing session. cant wait 4 next week. mayb going again...hehe.. or c how.. with kelly they all or wat... n tomolo is wed! muz plan liao muz plan programme le.. =x like wth hor.. term test coming le. tomolo think gonna have c maths close book test again. buck up man buck up..u 5lacker!

2004-07-19T11:46:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Use the day to reconnect with nature in whatever way feels right.**

here comes another week of sch liao.still feeling moody. those old days r coming back again. thanks to my mood swing!i think some ppl bth me le.i bth myself too! AAAAAHHHH~ again now i have those 'cant b bothered attitude' again.(ya ok i have attitude prob k..) but i tired my best. e jokes i used to laugh dun seem to b funny anymore. they seem lame. but sometimes dun u have tt kind of feeling tt u r not at e rite place? u r not included? soo..extra? mayb i think to much le. n those signals u get from ppl. ok mayb i really think too much le.ok la... mayb i dun have e mood to joke ard lor. hai~ now after work le. wun b working untill fri n e weekends.tomolo have a computer architecture quiz n i still havent study.wth. later go home c i go slp or stay up to study. hope all will b MCQs. let me pass i happy liao la.plsss..... o well.. hope tomolo will b a better day. mayb i should put on a smile more till ppl think i siao. =} (ya lor.. smile to myself lor happy?) better den lian chou chou again... .......i will try my best. (well i did today but still.... zzz...)

2004-07-17T23:01:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Love will take an unexpected turn. The change will do you good.** <-- i doubt so.now i m starting not to believe in horoscopes anymore.last time it seemed more 'zhun'.
-=[ searching 4 a reason...searching 4...U. ]=-

watched Fruit Basket cartoon today! cute cute~ =D

"jing tian ri ji kong bai mei you guan xi~ bu bi mei jian shi qing dou zai yi...~"-Sun yan zi song

2004-07-16T13:36:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Be present to your feelings so you can call a time out when you need
to.**

Mon: after sch went to wrok @ T1. tot will b working with Zarina till 7pm 4 gwee yong to come,but she said she needed to go to e hospital 4 some reasons so i was ok with it. coz T1 is not as bz as T2 anyway... den at 6,e crowd suddenly came.i was all alone n so many ppl were surrounding e kiosk.panic man panic.tried to work faster n in e end e whole place was in a mess.spilled some of e smoothies n dunno wat la....my bag n hp kena a bit too. den some1 wanted to pay by visa. e machine was somehow different frm T2 de... had to key in e last 3digits of a row of numbers.e thing is tt there were 2rows of numbers.i had to make sure i key in e correct 1 rite. so i called T1. i was trying to explain myself coz she din know wat e hell i was toking about,but all i got frm her was tt she needs to use e credit card machine too, n tt she needs to put down e phone so tt e machine could dial in order to use it. i stopped her n told her my customer waited v long already, alot of ppl ard. he was only buying a few things from e shelves, felt really bad to make him wait so long already. so i quickly asked her again. i was like watever.... juz tell me which 1 n if i keyed in e wrong 1 its not my fault. it came rite from her mouth. den i slammed e phone. my head was spinning. my hands were even shaking while handing them e drinks n their change.at 1 point of time i really wanted to tell them tt we r out of smoothies. 2 customers mayb c me so bz or something,left e change on e counter(think it is sort of a tip?). =) a few cents only anyway...

e money n reciepts were everywhere.n i lost one of e visa paper.wonder if i gave e customer both copies. =X yup n ya... T2 called again asked whether if needed any help. i said anything.. wanna send some1 dwn is ok with me. den later i called again told them no need le coz by e time they come another guy would have come after sch liao. she said she will send angeline dwn anyway. ok..watever! den when e guy came, she came. nice timing eh... wat pissed me off was when she said:" y ask me come? gwee yong is here already wat." she gave me tt kind of look tt i made her waste her trip here. not i ask her come 1 lor. so when she said tt, i juz look at her n look away, cont to do my things. den she called T2. PISSED ME OFF LOR! >:( after tt no mood to work liao.

juz nice sam called n i complained to him. was really mad man. i juz told e guy i go 4 break. went 4 bout an hr. told him i no mood work liao can i go home early? he din approved so ok lor. but he asked me wat was wrong. told him e whole thing. i wasnt happy with e gal's attitude. juz now wat happened n other times when i worked with her. i was like doing all e work lor. once she was talking on e phone, juz chatting with her fren n 1 customer came. i was facing my back so din know ma.. she actually tapped me n said:" there's a customer." ok fine... but another time i was at e sink(some dist away from e counter) washing e coffee machine, she called me n said e same thing again! ok fine! i go! like wth.. cant she juz tend to them? she was RITE IN FRONT OF E COUNTER! even when i using e phone i would ask my fren to hold on wat.. cant she do e same too? hellooo.... she was SUPPOSED to work lor. she is PAID to do so. e guy whom i complained too knew there was something wrong with her to. she have tt kind of attitude coz her fren is a senior there. -.- was thinking of quitting man... this kind of person 'buay zi dong de'...not auto de lor. when there's work she juz waits 4 u to do it.. zzzzz.... something muz b done bout her man.

Tue: sch till 10am so went TM with classmates 4 lunch n watched Mean Girls. not a bad show. there was a scene of e girl having her meals in e toilet. tt really reminded me of something... overall not bad. b4 e show were eating at LGS. suddenly there this kind of feeling of..... dunno how to say. after tt i was quiet all e time... after e show i juz told them i need leave 4 work liao. so i juz left.

Wed: din go ktv with e rest. den was late 4 maths lec. so i decided 2skip tt n go sch early anyway to use e pc.met ai ling 4 lunch at tp. today wed ladies nite! wanted to go db de but 1 by 1 cannot.. irene nan de called me to go also. ai ling also going. in e end sian liao din go lor. hai~ these few days juz wanted to go drink lor. go club. go ktv sing till shiok. always have this kind of urge de. =( so called my fren go drink at a pub lor.. go tok cock. 12plus like tt went home.

Thurs: looked as if no1 was going 4 e prsp lec coz it was raining. was so prepare to sit alone. till i saw yong sheng at e bus stop. so qiao! gd gd gd.. late late together! hehe... dun wanna late late walk into e hall too.. a bit pai seh. den went 4 lunch with a group of classmates.den lab.after sch went to work. later mood ok liao. free sushi from sake frm opp. yeah! hehe... ya.. had e urge to go club again.to go drink.to go ktv sing my heart out.c when ask qiao mei accompany me when she off. had e urge to eat too! bought 3 bars of chocolate from sch bookshop(they have a wide range i muz say)
ate 2 of them. at work ate 1 pack of rice.a big 1. den french fries from mac. den cut fruits den orange juice. really full man. i knew i had to stop. hai.. wats wrong with me.. fat le fat le..hai~

Fri: still having bad mood..fren got 2 free tix to centro. dun think going again. all working.. not free...hai~ watching movie with e gang too.half e day i damn no mood le lor.i had to go coz kelly bought e tix liao...to c SISTERS.(they r like copy ju-on lor. have e boy whose body is white.den e female ghost crawls ard.-.- now all e ghosts do tt liao.. no more floating ard le i guess.) i din have anything to say e whole nite to them.i felt as if i was watching e movie alone. no diff. during e show some parts i also felt like crying. was thinking too much of things. after e show i juz felt like going home.but actually, i din wan to. wanted to find a fren to come out drink with me but some working..some tomolo have work.ros cannot come my house c vcd.dickson called me to go coffee. really wanted to go but wrong person. hai~ he is e person i need to b careful of.fan ah~ wanna find some1 out but scared tt i will 'ren bu zhu' cry infront of them. ya.. tot of watching a movie alone. sad 1. brotherhood or wat....cry till shiok ah! sadist ah sadist. but really looking 4ward to a time when i can 'tong kuai de ku' again.on e bus was thinking how many lonely hearts r out there rite now man.

ya tt nite was suppose to go home with ys n branda since we stay simei but i wanted some time alone so i went home myself. they came to find me again c if i needed company den i rejected them. when i said i wan some time alone,go home myself. i meant it.

reminded me of tt day which was a christmas nite.day 1.after watching vcd at my house.he wanted to send me home. mayb i m not used to having a bf,he wanted to send me home i din want to. coz i understand tt e bus fare is v ex after loosing my bus pass n had to pay adult fare.den cant he juz let me b alone 4 awhile? i kept rejecting him. den he asked me wat i was thinking. i know i m v difficult to understand. i juz told him i need to b alone. ok... he waited till my bus comes den he took a bus to tamp. later he told me he actually cried when i left.was thinking he really liked me tt much ma? =( touch touch. its not tt i dislike him or anything leh..mayb he got e wrong idea.i juz din wan him to travel here n there 4 me. i can go to my dad's place myself...i know he was juz trying to b a gentleman, but i m not a princess anyway... hai..all the things coming back to me.

but seriously..when i said i wanna b alone, i mean it! sometimes e things i said(most of e time actually) i mean it! not this [no=yes] kind of thingy...

sucky week i should say....

2004-07-03T23:06:00.000+08:00

Taurus: The one you love finally reveals what his or her true feelings are.**

v long nv write liao... neglected my dairy too. hmm.. 4 e last 2 weeks of sch kinda slack lor. half e time dunno wat e teachers toking about. lec tok.lab go surf net. slack ah~!better do some catching up le... n e sam damn bth him..damn crappy n lame ah! e way he does e sponge-bog laugh.."mmmuuaahhhaahhhahh...~" damn 'xiang' ah! bth ah... poly sch isnt tt bad after all.at least not as bad as my last 2yrs in sec sch. -.-zzz... at least have a few clicks in my class.. our class is getting more 'united' liao lor. e guys went to play soccer together.but e girls will NV get together! we r 2 diff groups! at first it was juz me kelly n siti, now we recruit brenda le.. trying to get yu yue n meiyi together too coz c 2 of them only also poor thing.. e other group consist of a few gers who act cool n act cute de...bth man.smile at them n they juz stare at u. wth is tt 4? act dao ah. ya la.. they pretty they stylo la. but i dun need this kind of attitude k. fine. act cool la. i catch u looking at me i stare back too. dun think only they can act cool. childish man! grow up le la.after sec sch still like tt. everytime catch them toking behind out back coz they always whisper whisper.n sometimes i heard them myself lor. small things only u know.-.- i mean as a classmate u muz so 'jue' meh? come on la... cant we juz 'act like a class'? hai.. dun say le la.. everytime c them also sian la. make my day sucky only.

but overall ya.. tp is nice la... e breaks r gd la.. can slack ard chit-chat. but still.. too much also sian.. nuting to do.. tt time we juz kept going to e labs go online. no life ah! muz change muz change..hehe.. yup n i found out brenda is also working at e airport! juz opp me de coffee bean. wa.. if i wanna 'tiao cao' i 'tiao' to there ah.. like not bad leh.. kinda fed up of my working place.. e ppl not auto de lor.. leave things 4 u to do. sometimes when i report 4 work e whole place is already messy. c liao also sian. no mood to work le. nowadays i heck care le. do closing anyhow do.work so hard 4 wat? n wat do i get? juz miserable $4.50/hr pay. one by one e ppl also quitting liao.. hai.. e company really cham ah. like wat they always say, mayb 1day will really 'dao bi'..'guan men da ji' ..u know..close dwn.

speaking of tt.. last tue went heerens with kelly they all..(me, kelly n sam took neo prints!) i walked pass star diva n i saw e sucky boss!haha.. have to tend e shop.mayb out of workers! haha.. shop still havent close dwn yet. think she saw me too den when i turned to look in she quickly turn to e fitting rm n look at herself in e mirror..wahah..as usual. havent change. e other time when i went shopping at orchard alone i went in too. n a girl with hk accent was tending e shop.i juz look ard e clothes den i went up to her. told her i was working there previously b4 her n asked her bout e sales. showed her my name tt was in e record bk. she actually showed e me e record bk lor. tts wat i wanted.haha. n know wat? e sales were juz as bad as those days i was working there! e boss still say my sales were bad. i really 'mai xiao' lor.. but happy too la when i met some nice n interesting ppl.. =) e prob was only e boss.

enuff of my 'lao lao dao dao'.. like aunty liao.. keep toking behind their back. but true lor. sickening ppl ma. but trust me. i will nv bad stab myfrens. i dun like i really dun like de. u wun even c me contacting them often.n i dun believe in talking bad things about some1 to e group of frens we share lor. if i cant stand tt person y m i with her? now i try to accomodate my frens coz i know every1 is diff in their own way.
think coz of e job i have been doing.sales n everything.meeting all sorts of ppl..
yup. juz e other day wennt to c 'WindStruck' with sam.. sad story. tried not to cry.telling myself its juz a show. not true. but cant help it la. den afew days after tt a familiar no. sms me. teling me to c tt show.. den ijuz replied c liao.. den told me cried like mad. though i erased e no. liao when i read it it sounded familiar. think i know who tt was frm.. kinda shock lor... hmm...

2004-06-25T00:16:00.000+08:00

wat a day it has been! phew! now using e pc after my work.. rushed here after sch.. zzz... damn boring lor sch.. hai.. especially today had my 1st lesson of dunno wat class... to improve our communication skills de.e teacher looked sucky too. =X wa lau next wk muz tok infront of e whole class.. i girls sch already cant tok now in poly... ... n yup.. e fuzion mix is here liao..selling smoothies again..at last! tonite dunno y alot of ppl man.. bz 4 bout 1-2hrs ah.. u can imagine..non stop leh..making smoothies. now i backach liao.. =( o ya.. saw it again. wat is it? some1 eating our sandwich like a burger again! this is like e 4th time i c it? u know wat i mean by 'like a burger'? coz we use 2 slice of bread to make 1 pack.den we cut into half,into triangle shapes. den we stack them yup. they actually din 'unstack it'? (hehe.. funny word i use but ya..u know wat i toking bout la..) n they juz bite into it! big mouth they have.. =X i know i v bad la but think u will laugh also when u c it.. damn tired liao. waiting 4 GY to do e papers 4 closing.. tomolo still gotta get up early 4 a dunno wat talk at 9.50. zzz... lazy to go man.. if not i can slp till 10. my class starts at 12pm. o well.. c if i can get up not.. if not i dun go le..zzzz...

2004-06-22T14:21:00.000+08:00

today finish sch damn early.. 8 to 10am only.. zzz..after sch go tm eat..walk walk..den go home slp..dunno y after sch so tired. yesterday go home sleep.woke up 4 dinner den slp again. wa pig man.ya after slping less den 2 hrs. woke up to go orchard shopping! with dan...he was late 4 1.5hrs n during tt time i was walking ard alone. went Isetan mango to check out my top n skirt which i like alot but din manage to find them. but i saw another colour of my skirt there.but i still prefer e other 1.however..i saw many orange tops! hehe.. had fun trying them on.e halter looks better on me so decided to buy tt.but bad news:tts e last 1 when i went back again after e outlet at taka mango dun have it.it was loose lor though it was xs size. think kena stretch till loose liao.. luckily i din buy. den later went to padang there to listen to e linkin park's concert. e shopping centre there have another mango! haha.. den went in saw my orange halter! last piece again but still.. its in better condition dan e previous 1. n e cashier looked like 1 of my nco in kc ncc. my sis fren. wanted to ask her whether she's ex-kcian but nah.. nvm.

later went padang there listen to linkin park lor.my long time 'penpal' was there too n her fren is a member of e club behind e pandang! so heng. first time met her after 6 5 long yrs! she 'ang mo ang mo' type(in mass com. leh) eng v g wor..ok.. den we went into e club hoping to c e concert from behind. but my fren couldnt get in.. so i went in myself..=( at first we wetn to e roof top but it was too crowded liao so we went 1lvl dwn where her fren said we can get a better view. true enuff n there was not many ppl there.though we were like directly behind e stage couldnt c anything.. there was a screen which we could view them from. it wasnt facing us but we could 'c thru it' if u know wat i mean.. if not nvm. den received a call frm dan from outside. a stranger actually gave his tix to him 4 him to go in! lucky him! e 'tix' was actually a band tt goes ard ur hand, so he sort of took it out n transfer it to him. he wanted me to go in instead but since i was in e club already n he was outside, i asked him to go ahead.yup.. my so called 'penpal' left early coz of her curfew so juz left me alone.=(

after e concert go meet dan. he took some nice pics inside.his fren who bought e tix to e concert kena caught e thing (4got wat its called) they use to pluck or strum e guitar n 1 of e drum sticks! cool~!

today damn happy lor.. shop till v shiok! haha...

2004-06-17T19:28:00.000+08:00

last nite went devil's alone with e girl ivy.. not bad..she took care of me.. her frens were there too.. a fun bunch..ai ling n lynn last min dun wanna go..hai...waste my sms. enjoyed myself.i muz admit tt i m not a gd drinker.. after a glass of beer my head spin liao.. damn high man! den drank a bit more.. dan came to accompany me... so ivy left 1st n we stayed till 5am there n later waited 4 bus to go home... at least i was still wide awake coz i had no time to slp! lucky me.. coz i gotta go straight to tp 4 my orientation @ sch.. zzz...

different class from koon ling.. =( no company.. so at e lecture hall? sat beside 2 guys.. at first tot they frenly but after tt really turned crappy lor..zzz... well at least i have frens liao.. den during n after lunch toked a bit to e girls.. have 1 kawaii girl in my class n another girl who looks quiet n e smile is so damn sweet! ah~ still have other girls too la.. not bad looking de leh all e girls.. e guys.. hai.. a few not bad looking though.. but not all leh. =P 1 look kinda nice leh... den like face look familiar..hmm.. din like e games lor.. damn stupid.. well actually i nv liked playing games..den when going home tt time played blow wind blow? kena do forfeit. >:( coz of a stupid guy dunno come from where took e seat behind me which i wanted to sit.den another 2 of my classmates? sit liao.. so left me all alone there. damn mahlu man.. gotta do e 'coconut thingy' u c in indian movies with another indian guy.. dunno how come he also kena la.. watever! hai.. after they release us i faster siam ah! but i really have to say this ah.. those ppl's songs or wat ah damn sick de lor... zzz... tomolo go sch take timetable den i go off liao.. dun wanna stay back 4 e stupid games man.. think gonna get wet n dirty...eee...

2004-06-13T23:27:00.000+08:00

last nite went devil's bar damn early.. coz free entry b4 8.but ai ling + me reached there at 8.10 still free...heng ah.free drinks too coz her frens r there. hehe.. damn sian ma..nuting to do so kept drinking (when i was in sch. v sian..i will drink from my water bottle too.funny hor..tts y sometimes by drinking jiu full liao.haha.no need eat..)..drank a few glasses in less den half an hr felt a little tipsy liao.e feeling is like u know wat is happening but u have little control..hai.. damn boring lor.. coz ai ling was bz with her frens n her makeup course mates so i was practiacally alone. -.- she was bz flirting with her course mate fren too. -.- .. not bad looking la but..haiyo..nuting to say...well at least i enjoyed e live band there..not bad.den managed to get dan n fren to come accompany me.they got in free man! haha.. lucky them. long story la.. b4 they arrived,i was at e sit listening to e live band..there was this pretty gal(25 yrs old) with sharp features flawless skin i would say?..was rite infront of me with a guy.(dunno bf or wat la..) she looked at me n smiled.so c she so frenly smile back lor..den she walked to me n said 'hi', how old m i, n i look so cute.. keke.. watever! den pinch pinch my nose so many times.. den at 1 pt of time.she said she is a les! touch touch a bit.. den said again tt she was kidding.. o.0..hmm.. who knows eh..y would a female come up to another?*glup*.n she seemed to b a little drunk.but she kept saying she is alrite..keke.. but overall she is damn sweet. really like look after me lor coz she c i "so young" n sitting there alone( was actually sitiing with ai ling's guy frens too la but nuting to say yo them leh).asked me whether i was alrite (well was alittle drunk n felt damn slpy) ,offered me e glass of vodka-7up she was drinking from...din wanna reject her offer so i juz took 2 slips.n she was like looking after me..sitting beside me 4 some time since ai ling was bz flirting ard..-.-.. she damn sweet lor..n v pretty as well! damn wasted if she is a les...(actually she look a bit like it la.hmmm... should i 'gao' les with her if she is 1? still thinking eh...) den ya.. we actually exchanged no. ...she asked 4 my no. so anything lor.. dun mind knowing her better.. =) after tt 3plus go eat supper at 201 den go home slp liao lor!zzzz.... got free transport again.. no need take cab..hehehe. gd gd gd!

2004-06-10T17:29:00.000+08:00

F.I.R. 飞儿乐团-LYDIA

Lydia 迷离的眼眶
为何流浪心碎的海洋

受了伤连微笑都彷徨
Gypsy女郎为谁而唱

你会看见雾看见云看见太阳
纪念和大地重复着悲伤

他走了带不走你的天堂
风干后会留下彩虹泪光
他走了你可以把梦留下
总会有个地方等待爱飞翔

Lydia 幸福不在远方
开一扇窗许下愿望

你会感受爱感受恨感受原谅
生命总不会只充满悲伤

woo~ now i have a song same as my name! haha..not a bad song too

tue off so went to c ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF E SPOTLESS MIND (www.eternalsunshine.com )with bowen didi. not a bad show though its kinda messy at first..din know wats it toking about.gd thing at e end of e show i still managed to understand e story.like e way its being shot.v different from other movies.v touching story.v gd show.teared in e cinema. after e movie slacked at e mac outside Lido. met up with neo 4 a short while to buy sandals since i was at orchard too.den came to dad's plcae coz my pc is working again! went home to bathe den was ready to sleep when 93.3fm was having this topic bout relationships..breaking up n blah. gd timing eh..juz when i wanna slp. -.- was thinking bout things again n couldnt fall aslp.its been months since i have slpless nite n now again.. -.- ..its been some time i havent 'tong kuai de ku' too.. was thinking of doing tt (sadist ma) when i remembered i have to wake up at 4.45am n its already 2plus! so i played a dance cd to keep me distracted.need some slp man! din fall aslp till 3plus.how i know? i was checking my hp 4 e time e whole nite!was thinking wth.. no time 4 me to slp man!hai.. go work sure sian de..

so wed liao.. last nite wanted to go clubbing so badly @ devil's bar tonite since its ladies nite anyway but din in e end. met up with dan slack awhile outside. o ya.. on e way meeting him,was crossing e road walking to tamp blk 201 when i saw a car on e wrong lane at e traffic light!luckily there were no cars going towards his directions since it was red light at e junction.dunno how e driver did tt.. mayb turned to e wrong direction when coming out of e carpark.but damn super lor. after got to e other side of e road,kept looking back to c how is he gonna get to e rite lane but i din manage to.well.. a bit e stupid to juz stand there n c rite. den juz nice..dan was behind me.. when i was looking back he tot i saw him le.. haha.. but actually i was looking at e car. he din know wat happened till i told him.later went east pt e starbucks slack.tried to get Lynn to join us too,all e way frm sengkang but din manage to..even after more than 1/2hr on e phone with her!(luckily i free incoming man..haha)tt was already 1plus liao.hai.. should have called her earlier eh.. ya lor.. a bit stupid to take a cab(with midnite charge) dwn eh in e middle of e nite juz to slack with us. in e end went dwnstairs my blk de playground play with my guitar which i went home to take. realised he lied to me about not knowing how to play e guitar when he started play some songs. =0 mouth really opened man..he damn pro ah.b4 tt i still teach him how to play some simple notes.-.- zhen shi 'ban men nong fu' ah... juz by listening to e tune of e song he know wat notes to play le.. tts wat i wanna do too! need more practice man! but gd gd.. now i know where to get a teacher liao..hehe... did tt till about 4.30 when bth le den go home slp.. keke...yup den today off again tts y so free..online here to kill time.gonna add some more things to my webby too..so look out 4 it!

2004-06-07T15:19:00.000+08:00

saturday wasnt really my day. tried to get into zouk but cant! =( den dan's fren kena sent home because they found me using her's to get in... felt really guilty.. decided to go home after sitting there 4 bout an hr... no mood to go anywhere.. M.U or watever... so took a cab home.. at least my police fren kept me company on my hp.. though he was having duty he still managed to... keep him a little better after e chat.. about his married life n blah... he has been a policeman 4 10yrs already! wow!

yup... now after my work liao.. go home slack le! but b4 i do tt.. let me tell u wat happened last wk.. told u bout e 'Eugene' ... so.. he isnt e 'butch' after all! e.. ok.. e 'tomboy' is actually ____ (sandra la)ok now i 4get e name..( i will fill in e blank when it comes to my mind.. n yes..its a girl's name... how i know she is not 'Eugene' is when e real Eugene came with e delivery man to send e stocks. coz they said e boss(which is eugene) is coming... funny things happen here man... on e way meet quite a few interesting ppl.. e passengers. here's one: i dunno how,tt they have e idea of using e trays which r meant 4 e cleaners to place e wrappers..blah..(rubbish la..) to order food! c liao also wanna laugh...haha... hmm.. cant remember e rest liao but damn fun ah... remember le den tell u... e ppl i hate to serve r usually e jap. coz went they speak eng, i wun b able to understand them n so do they! hai.. ok.. theyr waiting 4 me to go home le..tata! i will b back!

2004-06-03T15:19:00.000+08:00

damn tired today! slept 4 only an hr (or even less) n i had to go to work.. zzz... my eyes couldnt open man....kept blinking them coz my contacts were irritating my eyes... last nite was out e whole nite n got back home only at about 4am... kinda pt-less 4 me to slp coz i will b working at 7 n had to get out of e house at 6..so i take my time.. bathe... play with hp a little... last nite went mdm wong..too early le.. not many ppl so we later went Music Underground... they played groove coverage songs all e while on this particular nite (they were having this DJ jason? v.s G.C thingy..)..not bad.. but too much techno is not 4 me... tot tt place is a little more 'high class' ..but saw quite a few ah bengs..n ah lians.. n wat made me mad e most was tt 1 bartender tried to b funny or something asked me m i an ah lian.. >:( i hate it when ppl calls me tt... n i gave him e angry look n said no. den he said 'u muz b an ah huey den!'-.- .... i gave him tt look again n walked away... hello... i din dress like 1 k...i was juz wearing a translucent top fron Double Index with a black tube inside ok... it was juz plain n normal.. n yes.. e songs too techno liao so ai ling n frens left first...so did those 2 i worked with at bugis n their frens...left me n Lynn.. kinda sian but it was gonna b 3am so tot juz stay till den... n we did. b4 we left met 2 kinda young chaps... so juz exchanged no. ..(hehe.. so next time have more khakis to do things together eh..) ya.. den took a cab home... now i m juz at e airport typing this... better get going... meeting ai ling again with sis n her fren lennon to watch Eternal Sunshine Of e Spotless Mind... hope i dun fall aslp in e cinema! =X o ya.. UTT (e mtv vj)BOUGHT a SMOOTHIE FROM ME JUZ NOW!!!! bought a small very berry gd... not bad looking eh.. but complexion not v gd la...(as if mine is... ....) e other nite saw a china ping pong player who represents Sg..(his bf plays badminton de.. from indonesia..) ... 4 got wats her name.. but to bad we were closed so in e end din get anything from us.... too bad!

2004-05-27T00:22:00.000+08:00

This part is 4 mon... met up with Qiao mei go eat suki sushi..=D~ long time no eat liao *burp*...played pool(like e 1 at parkway above mac..dunno y..e que? like v nice to hold leh..hehe...went parkway walk walk...really enjoyed myself.. den... b4 going home..went roxy 4 a hair cut(which was juz 8 bucks!kinda happy with it... though my hair curl up a bit coz some parts r juz too short! =( but its nice hor though it was so damn cheap! gonna cut it even shorter in july or wat...needa change my hairstyle man!) yup... den when i went to e toilet..dropped my wallet which contained my ic! usually i dun bring my ic out but i need it 4 work...afraid tt i would 4get to bring it along on working days... panic man..panic! some part of me was actually kinda happy.. =X coz my pic too U.G.L.Y le...(ya... pay $100 bucks to change de pic a bit e stupid...) told my dad n he was nagging like hell on e hp... den went siglap npp report lost of ic..tt policeman a bit e funny too.. told him i lost ic den he was like"haha ha..."...i told him i m suppose to report rite? n i gave him e this kind of look --> o.0 den along e way also kinda funny la.. den when i went home... he sms-ed me...had this kind of feeling it was him. he got my no. when i wrote my particulars dwn...he is not suppose to do tt! n i was sure suprised! he din expect me to reply but i did anyway... n0t a bad guy actually.. though not tt gd-looking.. but its ok.. juz frens..(kinda cool having a police fren too)he should b kinda old..20++? got to know tt he was married(saw his both hands with 3 rings)... but divorce liao coz he said EX-wife.. blah blah..like tt also can get to know another new fren..-.-... n ard 11.30 at nite.. received a called from my sis fren Ivy..told me tt some 1 called her about a lost wallet..tts mine! her name card was inside my wallet tts y... heng ah! den tue went back to roxy to collect it b4 going to work... i really muz b careful from now onwards... thank god! i was like planning to go make my ic on tue.. a bit e stupid but wanted to get it ASAP mah....

2004-05-13T17:18:00.000+08:00

hao kai xin wor.. these few days bz with work lor.. i joined e Pacific Fuzion company.. (dunno how many times better den e small..stupid shop @ heerens)gd to have left e place. now working at e airport..inside e departure hall.shiok ah! can go in walk walk..after work go use pc check email..sometimes v free we would juz sit outside chit-chat.e ppl (including e supervisors ..p.s they v 'shui bian' de... haha.. tts a gd thing) there v nice.. v friendly... tot it would b weird working with them but v fast got along with them v well..a few r from tp too..1 also getting into e same course as me.. but hmm... dun really like her.. find her a bit e 'zhuai'.. think chi pls... n yes. our shop have lot of 'mei nu' especially in T1..(have shuai ge too la.. especially 1 of them in T2 =D~ but is some1's bf le)..untill 1 fat man from WHS or wat bkshop always come find 1 of them..even tried to get her no. ...zzz... aiyo.. e boss also not bad.. n ya.. tell u 1 funny incident.. e company is owned by 2 young ppl.. 1 man n 1 woman.once e boss came dwn T1 to fix e shelf 4 e donuts.. all along i tot he was a 'she'..until 1 of them said EUGENE???(how to spell ah? =X) is here.. i was like o.0 huh?! 'she' is a guy.. haha.. dunno is it coz c too many butch in my sec sch le till i tot 'he' is a butch...or a ger a bit e tomboy la... coz he really got e face leh.. n btw.. he is MARRIED! keke...
n ya.. put abt 1kg of weight while working there coz we selling smoothies.. no sugar no ice blah.. added... den they r blended with frozen fruits so i tot it muz b healthy..moreover..i prefer e classics smoothies which includes yogurt..n 1 nite on e hp...my fren told me milk is fattening.. so ok... now i know how come i put on weight le.. from tt day on i din drink any or them... now i will switch to 'pure fruits' on their menue le... n i love their belgium chocolate cake! =X opps...

2004-04-19T19:56:00.000+08:00

Taurus: You won't be satisfied until you speak your truth loud and clear.**
yeah... "...push me.n den juz touch me.till i can get my.SATISFACTION." haha..

last sat went devil's bar again with sis n fren..din really wanna go again but sis nv been there b4..so anything la... nv go clubbing with her b4.. e nite b4 we went to c 'ah gua' at changi after catching Starsky n Hutch at tm GV.omg..they damn chio ah.. especially e 2nd parking lot we went to. there were a group of ah bengs too.later saw them following e 'gers'haha...1 actually got onto a lorry(or van) of 2 'ah pehs'! eeee.... yup! today e moment i woke up receive gd news le... last fri went Fuzion Smoothie interview(was so damn lazy to go all e way to millenium walk but luckily i did!) n they called me to go 4 orientation on wed.(no more sales 4 me..pls..) so happy! thank god i called back coz i was still slping when they called..n usually i dun pick up calls coz no free incoming b4 7pm..hehe.. some more dunno whose no. tt was.. den i remembered! 'wat if e fuzion smoothie ppl call me?' den i tried to dial e no. but it was engaged. after a few attempts i managed to get thru. phew! if i get thru with this orientation,they will most probably post me to their changi airpot outlet.near my place..not bad.. moreover i m able to continue this job even after my poly starts. =) excited excited! hehe..

2004-04-15T21:03:00.000+08:00

woohoo~ yesterday guo de hao chong shi wor! bz bz... went to collect pay @heeren n visited a clinic there 4 medical checkup n x ray(4 stupid poly thingy...) yes! i m going tp! got into e IT course same as my fren.so qiao. diff batch la..1 more yr to go but he is my senior lor.muz get him to bring me ard e sch..hehe..any prob can also juz find him! yup.. after check up go take passport size pic n met up with gek ling 4 dinner @ paya lebar.den telemarketing... my ex tutor suddenly called me ask me whether wanna go centro.today ladies nite.i anything lor.nv go b4 also.(i know i sua gu,but every1 has their 'first time' rite..dun u too?)so after work a fren came to pick me up(he was driving..free transport! keke..)..go home change (with him waiting downstairs)...den go pick my fren up n send us to Centro there.

i was hoping they wun ask me 4 my ic n they din!(i 'hun' into embassy a few wks ago 4 e R U RED HOT event hosted by power98) when i went in,no1 was on e dance floor.i was like..huh..boring...juz when it was 12 in e morning,ppl started to hit e dance floor.b4 tt had to get myself high(or a little tipsy..haha),in order to get me in e dancing mood. drank vodka-lime(sis intro me at embassy b4),champagne,vodka-ribena? n vodka-cranberry.e champagne actually tasted like beer.i prefer vodka-lime to e other 2 vodka(s)..they tasted much better..not as bitter.. later we headed to Devil's Bar in a cab with her fren. while i was dancing there,i was thinking wth is wrong with these ppl.they love clubbing so much.wasting their nites away. coz i sian liao lor afew hrs later.zzz.. tried brandy-coke there too..not bad..den we met a SENIOR Private Investigator there(he showed us his card)...cool~ saw e ang mo in e sg reality game show Eye 4 a Guy too.. gotten damn hungry later(n i was so sick of tt place) so we went e curry chicken cut by scissors de 4 supper b4 going home.. 1st time eat e curry damn nice... thick n sweet..not at all spicy..

e end.wat a day it has been...

2004-04-14T00:13:00.000+08:00

Taurus: People are speaking with an added edge to their voice.**

i dunno wats wrong with these ppl.they r giving me HELL! seriously,sometimes i juz feel tt i need no 'frens' or ppl like them...watever shit! they r juz wasting my precious time.when i try to b nice to them they take advantage of me.it really does PAY 2b nice. to b alone is all i need.tts when i get peace.so many things r going on in my head! i wanna get them all out! ...but how? wanna 4get bout e past but sometimes they keep coming back to haunt me. relationships... blah...all i wanna ask 1 person is tt: who do u c when u look at me.another woman? no i dun like e feeling of being a 'dai ti ping'. i know nuting goes smoothly as we want it to b,but there r so many 'IF ONLYs' in my head...i really m trying not to think to much.when i m free i m gonna write my past failed relationships in my webby man..think u ppl will find them funny too.think if i ever live till 60+ n i look back,i will too laugh my head off. hai... now my sis fren (who is 30+ married already) is trying to b funny with me..hai...

still remember when i was sec3.. knew an ah beng frm irc.he was really nice although not v shuai (so wat? shuai can 'tian bao ni de du zi meh').still can roughly remember his face.he damn shy de.once he confessed tt he likes me at e mrt after sending me home, his whole faced turned red at tt pt of time! so cute! haha.really like a tomato.1st time i c this kind of thing man. hehe.i forced him to say it coz many time he kept saying:'i wanna tell u something..' i was like ok..den always nvm de in e end.i was also thinking..ok.. nvm..mayb dun say is even better. well.. after he confessed,i juz walked away to save him frm embarrassment. i felt kinda bad tt i rejected him even till now.he showered me with gifts e.g a monkey soft toy+ e pig keychain frm mu-ee! at first tot it was ugly..but now i m really in love with it!he even gave me his geo notes he did himself!(though i din need it coz his was physical geo..)so sweet!tts e time when i know his chi name is YiFeng.still remembers e nite where we went to fisherman village 4 dinner n had a long walk after tt.e things we said...=) now after we lost contact i really misses him. all becoz of me.always waiting 4 ppl to make e first move.well i did gave him my new no. .. n was juz waiting 4 him to sms me..he did..4 a while..n now..this is it!no news frm him le. hmm.. guess ppl come n go.ok enuff enuff.its all juz memories.think too much also not gd.

today was also kinda mad..suddenly my ex boss called me n told me she received a police report about me i think.its frm a customer i think too.immediately i tot of e incident whereby a ger paid her 2 tops($28 each) by nets it was declined.i was thinking.. huh?! she have e CHEEK to report to police about me! it was juz a small thing n btw,it was my loss ok.i paid 4 her 1 top already! watever..later i called her again n told her i still have e receipt as proof.n she told me e ger was on e other line.n LATER, when i wanna make sure wat was e report about.she told me: "MISCOMMUNICATION!it is regarding another issue." wah-ha-ha.v funny.wat e shop system..i kept asking wat was e report actually about she kept changing subj n din ans my Q! -.- great! something is v wrong. since she WAS toking to a GER on e phone juz now.tomolo i WILL get her no. n tok about it. i still suspect it is tt customer. mayb i said i have e receipt as proof n e whole thing is going against her? YES I WILL coz i wan justice to b made! e boss even said wanna deduct from my pay which i will b going back to e shop to collect tomolo. i told her how can she do tt?! i paid e tops on her behalf already,wat gives her e rite to do so? she did not have any loss.it's me alrite! but nvm coz lesson learnt. anyway,i will go n get my pay tomolo n make sure no $ is being deducted! need to sort things out too man.

o ya today received post frm tp n i will attending e IT course in june.have to go 4 medical check-up.tt will keep me bz. i will go HAPPY a little.. all by myself..whether its shopping or wat..(hey its not bad afterall k.at least u can take ur own sweet time looking n trying on clothes.i love it!)..since some ppl say wanna go out but now still havent confirm yet.(i bet in e end it will still b cancelled) 'all..by..my..self~' hey! i dun 4ever need company k! i m independent! yeah!!!!!

2004-04-11T19:16:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Someone you love means well but is communicating quite poorly.** (toking bout my aunt?! my dad or sis?haha..)

i m jobless liao!!!!! tt stupid bitch today told me wat u know? "today will b ur last day coz i wanna train e new gers liao.." like wat e hell..i told her n her mother many times tt i will b working till end of april.i gave them more than 1 month notice liao.tell me wat kind of shit is this?at least tell me a few days in advance NOT ON E DAY itself.was suppose to work till 6pm lor.. den when she came she juz said u can go at 5. -.- hello...it's like if i m working till 6 i m working till 6.how can juz bcoz they wanna save $4.50 den ask me go off early.i got a shock lor when a new ger came today 4 training.i knew NUTING about it.tts y i was thinking:funny..if i working till 6..den e new ger working till 7.. n another ger,veronica who juz joinedworking frm 5 till 10..there will b 3 gers! i tot they really siao le..so...they wan me to leave early tts y... WATEVER! its like i hardworking enuff le man..its not tt i get paid 4 doing nuting(ya i know my sales is not v gd too.but i did try my best!)..unlike ch..it was a bad idea to ask her join me.its like i was doing all e things 4 her..zzz...she always 'chi dao zao tui de'..was really fed up man..tell her thing also dun listen.it really shows tt mrs tay likes her more than me(juz coz i dunno how to 'pai ma pi').since none of them appreciates e things i do...i might as well leave!

so suay also..think there 'feng shui' not gd too... their business like not v gd.. den me n ch lost our hp!tt was like last sat i think..den know juz bought N7200.all my $ gone le lor...den now jobless..-.- when i think of it really 'qi' man..not i LOST it myself leh..it's STOLEN! wo bu gan xin!!!! ok..let me tell u e story.. den tell me i should b angry not...

this is how e story goes:
i was in e changing rm trying on some tops.( y y y! if only i was at e counter!) den e ch was outside.den a man came in n asked her about e bags which was a few distance away frm e counter.she attended to him.he asked her stupid q..e.g how much is e bag when e tag was there!..can it b given as a bday present -.-..blah..zzz..there was another woman in e shop.ch saw them exchanging eye contact.e woman was actually near e counter which ch's back was facing.ok..nvm la..but when they left she saw both our hp r gone.she actually could look ard 4 it n came in to ask me whether i took them.. as if playing a fool with her..(excuse me..when have i started to become so 'bo liao'?)wth..... after tt den go run after them isnt tt too late already? she should have done tt rite after she found e phones r gone...we might have a bit of chance in getting them back.later kept complaining to me..i m like more 'fan' lor.coz e sim card is not under my name.n my aunt is in china working.wanna cancel also cannot coz still havent completed e 2yr plan.still muz get a fax frm her to auth me to collect another sim card on her behalf. i m like v poor le lor.. now worse.hai.. nvm...time to change a new hp le too. tt old n6510 'sot sot' le also.. hai..

ok mayb its nuting much..lost jiu lost.but when she actually asked me whether i took it.. really wth lor..

now jobless le.. time to rest, look 4 a new 1... n also to slack(..not again).....slack ah slack!

2004-04-02T02:41:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Try not to get so emotional over what you have and what you don't.**

wa... too lazy to type out here..havent even been writing in my own personal diary! hmm.. c when i will update my blog again..next wk? hope so...coz have been really bz with work...really cannot take it any longer..all e stress i have been getting..help!

2004-03-27T12:49:00.000+08:00

TAURUS WOMAN

A slim moderately tall woman. Taurus woman is funny and a jolly person.

Square facial bone structure, high cheek bone. Her round big eyes sparkle with wit and curiosity.

You will not see many round faces Taurus women, and mainly she will have a strong jaw line.

She is a constantly change person. If she up sets, she will not show it and will keep it to herself for a long time, and will remember them so well.

If she gets really mad at you, you will suddenly become a totally and completely stranger to her.

She is a patient person, but always need new excitement.

She hates long talk meeting, long and endless conversation.

She can be in love with you today, and one day she could act as if she has never loved you before.

She has patient with what she wants to do and will never give up until she gets there.

She will be very persistent in what she is doing till she has reasons for stopping her project, then she will quit.

Money for Taurus woman is not the most important factor in life.

She thinks of money as an instrument for assuring of a good living.

She has more satisfaction in achieving her goals more than satisfaction in fine cloths and luxuries.

If you like a woman who always thinks of love and romance ,then you are dating the wrong girl.

You can not tell her to stay at home,

she likes to work and preferred not work at home.

She loves animals and likes to surround by animals.

Love is in her head, but Freedom is in her soul.

She has her own idea about love and afraid to show her true feeling for fear of rejection.

She is not the type to talk about love, but she sure has a strange way to show it.

She is not good in showing when she is in love, but if she loves you she will be honest to you than any other women.

She will be honest to her love one, but at the same time seems distant.

You will have a good relationship with her, if you allow her freedom.

Do not force her to be with you in a poker game which she hates, but let she go out swinging with her friends if she wants to.

She will be different than other girls, and she thinks different is one of her unique quality.

She is a public figure but belongs to no one.She will not stay with you, if she thinks you are not sincere.

She likes you to have personality, but better not to compete with her.

Love her, but not too much for she afraid it will limiting her freedom.

She always stand out of the crowd for something she dares to do.

You could see her dress like a poor farmer dinning in the fancy restaurant, or dress like a nun in an a cocktail dress party.

If you are a politician who are looking for a wife, she will make a good one because she is cleverly smart and she could get along socially with any type of crowds.

She is not a jealous type because she has to know you thoroughly before accepting you in her life.

She has more curiosity in life than wondering if right now you are flirting with someone else.

If you keep a distant from her, or go away for a few days, she will miss you more.

Even when she is dating you, she also able to fond of someone else, if you do not have something she is looking for.

She will never disappoint you or hide behind your back to make you loose face, but she is the type who just going to tell you to your face that " We're better off breaking up".

She always remember her first love.

Taurus woman holds the best record for divorce for she does not care about how people think of her, but everythings should be done for "Happiness".

She has lots of friends and sure of herself, so you will hardly see she delays any of her thoughts before her action.

If she think of something, she will go ahead and does it.

She has many men wanting her for her constant changes is the challenge.

She can be cute and funny, but suddenly cool and tough.

She has her own style of dressing up, so you could see her dress like an old mate today, and tomorrow she may dress like she comes from Mars.

She will have that interesting hair, dress and a look unique from anyone else.

She likes to learn about your dreams and your thought.

She has fun teasing you and making jokes.

If she did something wrong, she won't hide it from you, but do not ask when she is not in the mood to talk about it.

She hates to owe people money and take promise seriously. If you promise to pay her back, you'd better paid up.

If you want to make it with Taurus woman, then do not be jealous or possessive.

Do not be narrow minded, do not criticize about nonsense or small and insignificant matters.

Try to like her friends and let her have her privacy, then she can be very sweet to you.

2004-03-13T02:43:00.000+08:00

ZzzzZz... omg... actually talked on e phone with my "ex" for almost 2hrs!i was shock to receieve a call frm him..long time no contact le.. i was with him for 2 pathetic wks..nah..i wun even count it as 1BGR.As usual,he did e toking...all crap.PURE BOREDOM.kept toking bout e past..he still has e sms i sent him a yr ago -.-.like ok.. so wat? wat is he trying to show..zzz...i still think tt e way he talks still sound kinda fake lor.. but its kinda gd..say e things tt needed to b said. he reminded me so much of DZT.kept saying tt he wans to quit smoking n needs motivation frm some1...ya ok...in e end said tt he will report to me how many sticks he smoke per day frm mon onwards.ya like wats gotta do with me.. watever!...after hanging up e phone he asked a Q. :"u have feelings towards me?" i think it is kinda obvious frm e way i treat him nowadays...

man...for e past few days i have been bz with work.. it was so damn tiring! i have to work for 8 hrs again today...with e boss! -.- hmm... i better get contact lens soon!so tt i can check out e cutie opp. at 77th st...haha..remember once i 4got to put e stick first b4 pulling e "shutter" thingy while doing closing n it got stuck! since he was doing e closing too.. i had no choice but to ask him 4 help n luckily i did.he seemed reluctant to help....he was like.."aiyo..y like tt..." tt kind response n gave a frustrated expression.in e end he got his fren to help after he failed to do so..i said so many times of 'thank you(s)' n i received no reactions from him..-.- ..fine.hai...so 4getful of me...i even 4got to take out e stick once when i was doing e opening!it was there until mrs tay came in..there's another cutie too!(u muz b thinking i m v lucky huh..opp. so many cuties..haha)this 1 is a female with a funky hairdo.last sun she came into my shop to look ard while i was teaching Qian Hui how to do closing.(yes she has joined me) when i looked at her she was like.."^_^ (mi mi yan..so cute!) v bored la..so come n look ard.." haha..i was like ok... wanted to say wan anything tell me ah... give her discount..hehe..cant imagine tt she is e same age as me. so.. after getting my contacts i will b able to c them clearer..n when e cutie ger smiles at me frm opp i will b able to c it n return her a smile too. if not omg...qian hui will have to inform me again..later she thinks tt i m 'dao' ah...

2004-03-04T02:08:00.000+08:00

You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.

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You are the Goddess of Earth. You are very stable
and dependable since the Goddesses rest apon
you. You are very materialistic. Somtime cold
and distant, but that might be because you need
to get what needs to be done, done. But yet you
are everyone elses strength. You are the most
Stable of the Goddesses, since without you the
other Goddesses would not exist.

hand holding - you like to be in constant physical
contact with your special someone but you don't
want to take things too quickly.

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Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone
to hold you and take the pain away. You haven't
been in much relationships or you need to work
on how to handle them. You always seem lost in
a daydream about the person you care about
most.

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you are the "I hate you so bad" happy
bunny. You hate everyone and eveything and your
not ashamed of it.

which happy bunny are you?
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Your Heart is Blue

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2004-03-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

Hai..din go tp apply 4 my design course again... i was thinking i have no portfolio also.. n as if my art is sooo gd.wanted to give hospitality a try too,coz weli n her 2 other frens got in le..n she told me tt u have to describe e pics they gave u.pls..as if i can tok v well... i hate oral lor.they r so lucky..they can put their minds at ease le.i m thinking of re-taking my o's..i know my dad will b unhappy about it.i will make him 'lose face' la... ya..ai ling was to go tp with me de lor..but she din sms me n i felt tt it was pointless to sms her too coz it's either she nv reply or she dun wanna go le.. i m sick of tt...i dun wanna make myself an irritating person.she said i wronged her tt she wasnt interested to go anyway..well tt was how she sounded on e phone yesterday.if she was really keen on going..she would have called me..not wait until 4pm+ when e'thingy' has closed.yes...today at work.. e bitchy boss called to scold me.."1 wk 1 day off only! tts our company's policy!"..yeah yeah.. kept toking bout e "company's policy"...she also said she dislike e attitude i was giving her..pls..wat kind of attitude she gave me too.. a bit of things 'gua gua jiao',how m i supposed to know how she wans e things to b done? she said"if u r unhappy u can leave...u know how many ppl outside r jobless?i have a q of ppl who r waiting 4 this job.1st wk is ok.. but after tt i c no improvements.." i told her.."ya.. if u r not happy with me u can sack me lor.." ya as if i wanna work 4 her.she can dun worry man..once i have found another job i QUIT!her shop really cannot make it ah.. damn quiet.think better close dwn soon if she is not making much $ out of it..e stupid melissa is taking off this sunday coz she wans to "go out with frens"n e boss approved -.-.wth... tot no off on wkends..as if tts so impt.. nv go out b4 meh...watever!but so sad.. 1 day off=1 day full only.. tt means e other days i will have to face her! NOOOO!!!!~

2004-02-27T22:32:00.000+08:00

RELEASE OF O'LVL RESULTS TODAY! saw many ppl crying 'yao si yao huo' after seeing their results.. i was like 'r u kidding?' b4 going to sch i was thinking if i actually fail.. will i cry?guess i m kinda 'cold blooded' huh... argh..! kinda expected tt i will have more than 20pts 4 my L1R4... nv study la huh.. too late liao..even my sis n ex tutor also say its bad...-.- hai.. all i can do now is hope to get into e course i wan.. i m interested in media design or watever design..but qian hui n my dad say no 'qian tu'... ask me go join biotech..-.- coz its kinda 'hot' subject nowadays(juz take a look at our newspapers)..but i m not interested la! it's like so cool...doing graphics,animations n stuff... but looking at all e things.. wat they call it? java scripts? can get dizzy ah... i m 1 who is lazy to remember stuffs...other courses i wanna take should b accountancy, banking n financial services blah... since i can proudly say tt my best subject is maths(n tts e only 1..).... later c all e numbers till i go crazy man..haha.. well.. kinda happy tt i will have qian hui 4 company if we r to go to sp together... now i m already worried about my first day in sch... being in a totally new environment juz freaks me out! hai.. tomolo still have to go back sch to get "a guide to poly admission booklet"... they r so troublesome...after tt need to go online to register....den ya.. still have work...(will b seeing tt me-li-ssa again for 4whole hrs-.- ..unless i go 1 hr later...hehe.. she is gonna snatch my customers again..hai..) but kinda fun working there haha.. coz most of e time i will b alone.. do watever things i wan...bring frens there.. =X i m so 'xing fu' to have them to keep me company...sometimes they would drop by to buy food 4 me.. look after e shop while i go to e toilet peacefully..haha.. =) so sweet of u guys... especially qian hui..after work at marina walk all e way to heeren to find me.. so touched *sniff* guess will b working nearer to me if she joins pasta mania @ cineleisure some time next wk... yup... sometimes it kinda brightens up my day too when i serve those customers who r v frenly... =D

2004-02-26T10:38:00.000+08:00

Taurus: Everything is coming together just as you had hoped it would.**

tts my horoscope 4 today...*sigh* yeah..i really wish it would."u have lots of injuries in your lifetime, but when you grow,you become calm and macho type!!!" YEAH!!! they actually make us a stronger person..in a way... got this frm some quiz or wat yesterday.... Damn it! Today i have to work for 10 WHOLE HRS..alone!(at least i dun have to c tt melissa) its juz so quiet there... not many ppl come to e shop. All i do is read e mags there(i have flipped thru them a 'hundred' times!)..stone... if i dun have enuff sales 4 today i m gonna receieve nagging from tt bitch again. she always says:"muz push leh muz push leh..." , "if ur sales is poor tt means ur service not gd or tt u dun have 'ren yuan' "..WATEVER!i was like nodding my head e whole time..while inside,i was saying to myself..."its not my fault wat... its UR CLOTHES PROBLEM!" like wat e hell.. i cant FORCE them to buy e clothes..if it doesnt fit or doesnt suit them.. it doesnt! how can i lie juz so as to make them buy? mayb if ur r doing sales..sometimes u have to 'pai ma pi'..but pls.. i DUN n NV do tt.. i m not gd at tt... i think i will get sacked sooner or later...but HACK! cant stand her too.... she toks to me dun look at me 1 leh... instead.. it's e MIRROR! -.- omg.... ok! i m gonna b late 4 work now! better b going...=X

2004-02-25T12:24:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!! at last i start doing an online diary 4 myself... hmm... have to get some help frm those who have done this b4 man..coz i-have-no-idea how to use it..need to make a nice 1 tt i can b proud of ya... (0.0) Look out 4 it! it may b a little boring to u..but who cares!it's mainly 4 MYSELF (n those who r interested to know bout my life..blah..) This is where i LET IT ALL OUT!..but there will slightly b a little prob 4 me to update this blog whenever i want to coz i do not always have a pc with me! -.- ..n ya... quite happy with this blogskin tt i have found..matches this song tt i LOVE so much!=D its THE SCIENTIST by ColdPlay..not bad eh.. ;)